This 15 năm old girl used to maintain a common diary with her 13 năm old best friend in which they wrote how they felt about each other and their friendship. When she discovered that her friend who had been a patient of clinical depression had tried to kill herself, she wrote this in the diary and it brought her best friend to tears...
The names have been changed as per author's request...
November 13
Dear Amira,
K so... without going on about any trivial stuff this time, bạn should know that I've thêm than you'd expect to say about stuff I usually don't go on about on phone hoặc in person...
When I heard about your suicide attempt from Jaya and the others, it took some time (visibly an understatement) to process. To be extremely honest, I was hurt... When I finally got everything in my head, I felt extremely hurt...
bạn most probably didn't tell me because bạn thought I'd cry, be pissed, be worried to death, hoặc bạn won't be able to face me anymore, but let me tell you, not telling me was only worse...
Right now, I could go on about how it must be tough on bạn hoặc try to provide bạn with solace but I want to be completely honest with you.
Talk to me when you're feeling that way dumbo!! That's exactly what I'm there for! When bạn called me up and đã đưa ý kiến that the reason bạn managed to restrain yourself from such an attempt earlier was the feeling that bạn won't get to talk to me if bạn died, IT MADE ME HAPPY!! It made me soo happy that I could cry bạn know! I COULD LITERALLY CRY!
When all this came out the way it wasn't supposed to, I wanted to just.. slap some sense into you... I wanted to slap bạn soo hard! But then, I realized that the one at fault is me... I am the one who should be slapped, for thêm reasons that I'd like to count... I have failed as a best friend - completely failed... Let alone prevention, I couldn't even see through you...
Well now, for goodness' sake, don't go on blaming yourself for this way of thinking of mine! Listen to all my venting! That's the least I expect of you... Of course well, bạn CAN blame yourself, if bạn want me to feel worse that is.
Think about it... put yourself in my shoes... Well, ik.. easier đã đưa ý kiến than done...i'm feeling worse than one could imagine right now..
I mean... Miss Amira Sharma! How could you!! bạn stupid dumbo!! How could bạn let a stupid bunch of lazy neurons take control over you!! The bạn I know!!
I don't know shit about this clinical depression crap K? I'm a bloody idiotic dumbass! But seriously dude, I COULD help bạn tell off those lowlife neurons that Amira Sharma isn't as weak as bạn useless crappy cells think she is! only if bạn want me to, that is... bạn might think that you're weak... But you're not... And if bạn deny, I'd totally give in to the opinion that my friendship has been useless all along...
K... bạn might feel like bạn should die and the world is better off without you, but for once, for goodness' sake, look around... Your mom was sitting tiếp theo to bạn crying when bạn woke up, wasn't she?
bạn have plenty of things to live for!! Want me to name 3? k!
1. Những người bạn & Family
2. One Direction
3. Me...
Damn!I don't remember when was the last time I felt so pissed!
I don't always say it, but dude, you're a BLESSING in my life! I have no idea where I would've been without bạn around! I wonder if I'd have ever come to know what friendship means if it weren't for you...
Every word I've ever written in this darned diary was straight from my heart!! I wouldn't waste my precious time I could've spent sleeping hoặc watching anime in making that 'Secret Base'* for just some trivial friend...
I don't think I'd understand one BFF post on FB from the ones that we feel are relatable as of now if I hadn't met you!
Don't we always go on about how we're proud of this bond, which is totally different from those girly duos who claim to be best Những người bạn and flaunt their pics on social sites just to end up as strangers after a few years...
Okay... I finally feel like I'll HAVE to name a few things bạn can be proud of... So, here goes...
- your nature
- your face
- your figure
- your voice
- your hair
- your... wait... almost everything ever...
(complimenting bạn is STILL a drag... I'm sorry XD)
Damn! okay.. After this, I wouldn't mind if bạn reached the Ayush** level of conceit, I guess...
I wouldn't try to make an effort to keep under control the height of your flight either... Just start flying.
"Being down to earth is great, but being under the earth is nothing close to being good..."
I know stuff is easier đã đưa ý kiến than done... But still, I'll help bạn start moving forward, step bởi step, maybe... I'll help bạn start looking up at yourself dude... You're totally thêm amazing than bạn think bạn are... You're worth thêm than bạn think bạn are... (Not every girl gets a reverse harem bạn know? XD)
A lot of people tình yêu bạn Amira!! And I'm one of them... God doesn't send a lot of pieces like bạn down here...
Just smile already!
Didn't bạn say bạn won't let me be bởi myself even if I wanted to? I hope bạn keep your word...
If bạn ever feel that way again, CALL ME! And if bởi any, i.e. 1 in a 1000 chance, I don't pick up, read this diary... hoặc the Secret Base! bạn can even come over. hoặc listen to 1D... hoặc WATCH ANIME!!
Now I wanna sound kinda selfish here, so.. bạn must know, without bạn around, I'd be thêm lonely that I'd like to imagine... I don't have as many Những người bạn as bạn think I do... :P
I want to keep talking to bạn about 1D and ANIME!! Forever!!
I want to see our children marrying each other!! XD
Oh come on.. You're just 13... At least consider this... It won't be fun dying off a virgin! XP At least, live a life that satisfies bạn before dying Amira Sharma!!
(K.. I feel like an old sage all of a sudden...)
FOR THE SAKE OF ME AND MY FUTURE CHILDREN! DONT' DIE!!!
(I'm completely serious here...)
tình yêu ya!
* Secret Base is probably a scrapbook that the tác giả gave Amira as a gift.
** Ayush is someone, probably, the author's brother, who the duo has entitled as completely conceited.
That was it... Please share your thoughts in the comments...
The names have been changed as per author's request...
November 13
Dear Amira,
K so... without going on about any trivial stuff this time, bạn should know that I've thêm than you'd expect to say about stuff I usually don't go on about on phone hoặc in person...
When I heard about your suicide attempt from Jaya and the others, it took some time (visibly an understatement) to process. To be extremely honest, I was hurt... When I finally got everything in my head, I felt extremely hurt...
bạn most probably didn't tell me because bạn thought I'd cry, be pissed, be worried to death, hoặc bạn won't be able to face me anymore, but let me tell you, not telling me was only worse...
Right now, I could go on about how it must be tough on bạn hoặc try to provide bạn with solace but I want to be completely honest with you.
Talk to me when you're feeling that way dumbo!! That's exactly what I'm there for! When bạn called me up and đã đưa ý kiến that the reason bạn managed to restrain yourself from such an attempt earlier was the feeling that bạn won't get to talk to me if bạn died, IT MADE ME HAPPY!! It made me soo happy that I could cry bạn know! I COULD LITERALLY CRY!
When all this came out the way it wasn't supposed to, I wanted to just.. slap some sense into you... I wanted to slap bạn soo hard! But then, I realized that the one at fault is me... I am the one who should be slapped, for thêm reasons that I'd like to count... I have failed as a best friend - completely failed... Let alone prevention, I couldn't even see through you...
Well now, for goodness' sake, don't go on blaming yourself for this way of thinking of mine! Listen to all my venting! That's the least I expect of you... Of course well, bạn CAN blame yourself, if bạn want me to feel worse that is.
Think about it... put yourself in my shoes... Well, ik.. easier đã đưa ý kiến than done...i'm feeling worse than one could imagine right now..
I mean... Miss Amira Sharma! How could you!! bạn stupid dumbo!! How could bạn let a stupid bunch of lazy neurons take control over you!! The bạn I know!!
I don't know shit about this clinical depression crap K? I'm a bloody idiotic dumbass! But seriously dude, I COULD help bạn tell off those lowlife neurons that Amira Sharma isn't as weak as bạn useless crappy cells think she is! only if bạn want me to, that is... bạn might think that you're weak... But you're not... And if bạn deny, I'd totally give in to the opinion that my friendship has been useless all along...
K... bạn might feel like bạn should die and the world is better off without you, but for once, for goodness' sake, look around... Your mom was sitting tiếp theo to bạn crying when bạn woke up, wasn't she?
bạn have plenty of things to live for!! Want me to name 3? k!
1. Những người bạn & Family
2. One Direction
3. Me...
Damn!I don't remember when was the last time I felt so pissed!
I don't always say it, but dude, you're a BLESSING in my life! I have no idea where I would've been without bạn around! I wonder if I'd have ever come to know what friendship means if it weren't for you...
Every word I've ever written in this darned diary was straight from my heart!! I wouldn't waste my precious time I could've spent sleeping hoặc watching anime in making that 'Secret Base'* for just some trivial friend...
I don't think I'd understand one BFF post on FB from the ones that we feel are relatable as of now if I hadn't met you!
Don't we always go on about how we're proud of this bond, which is totally different from those girly duos who claim to be best Những người bạn and flaunt their pics on social sites just to end up as strangers after a few years...
Okay... I finally feel like I'll HAVE to name a few things bạn can be proud of... So, here goes...
- your nature
- your face
- your figure
- your voice
- your hair
- your... wait... almost everything ever...
(complimenting bạn is STILL a drag... I'm sorry XD)
Damn! okay.. After this, I wouldn't mind if bạn reached the Ayush** level of conceit, I guess...
I wouldn't try to make an effort to keep under control the height of your flight either... Just start flying.
"Being down to earth is great, but being under the earth is nothing close to being good..."
I know stuff is easier đã đưa ý kiến than done... But still, I'll help bạn start moving forward, step bởi step, maybe... I'll help bạn start looking up at yourself dude... You're totally thêm amazing than bạn think bạn are... You're worth thêm than bạn think bạn are... (Not every girl gets a reverse harem bạn know? XD)
A lot of people tình yêu bạn Amira!! And I'm one of them... God doesn't send a lot of pieces like bạn down here...
Just smile already!
Didn't bạn say bạn won't let me be bởi myself even if I wanted to? I hope bạn keep your word...
If bạn ever feel that way again, CALL ME! And if bởi any, i.e. 1 in a 1000 chance, I don't pick up, read this diary... hoặc the Secret Base! bạn can even come over. hoặc listen to 1D... hoặc WATCH ANIME!!
Now I wanna sound kinda selfish here, so.. bạn must know, without bạn around, I'd be thêm lonely that I'd like to imagine... I don't have as many Những người bạn as bạn think I do... :P
I want to keep talking to bạn about 1D and ANIME!! Forever!!
I want to see our children marrying each other!! XD
Oh come on.. You're just 13... At least consider this... It won't be fun dying off a virgin! XP At least, live a life that satisfies bạn before dying Amira Sharma!!
(K.. I feel like an old sage all of a sudden...)
FOR THE SAKE OF ME AND MY FUTURE CHILDREN! DONT' DIE!!!
(I'm completely serious here...)
tình yêu ya!
* Secret Base is probably a scrapbook that the tác giả gave Amira as a gift.
** Ayush is someone, probably, the author's brother, who the duo has entitled as completely conceited.
That was it... Please share your thoughts in the comments...
