"Aymen."
I finished my prayer and hopped into bed. I was just completely exhausted. So I wouldn't think about how much I missed Matt I kept myself busy. Though it was keeping me busy it mad me very tired. Matt had only been gone 3 days though. Meaning, four thêm to dread. All I could do was sleep.
The tiếp theo morning wasn't as quite, hoặc as awful. I had gotten up way to early and figured I could watch some television. It was 4 in the morning; and just as I was falling asleep to Spongebob's voice a noise came from my computer went off. I skipped to the computer hoping it was Matthew. But, to my surprise...it wasn't. It was a person that wouldn't normally talk to me hoặc let alone want to chat with me.
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JesusFreakJazzy: Joey?
GangstaBoii3: Heloooo(:
JesusFreakJazzy: What do bạn want? And why are bạn chatting with me so early in the morning???
GangstaBoii3: Nuttn goshh. Just wanted to talk to you. I heard your boyfriend wasn't in town. Where he'd go? And xin chào what are bạn doing Friday? ;)
JesusFreakJazzy: Ummm lets see, not hanging out with you. And I highly doubt bạn "heard" my bf was out of town. thêm like you've been keeping tabs in me since last winter!.....Don't think I haven't seen Orlando hoặc Edward coincidentally at the mall every time I'm there with Matt.
GangstaBoii3: Heyy listen I ain't doin none of that mess. bạn need to chill. Call me when bạn come back to earth. Just cause we broke up it don't mean I don't still tình yêu you. Whatever, I'm Out.
-GangstaBoii3 is offline-
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Now that was just a waste of my time. Talking to Joey is like talking a darn pet. bạn get nowhere. At least I can get to giường and relax. But talking to Joey made me want to talk ti some of my old friends. It might be good. Get my mind off Matt for a little while.
I emailed a few of mt Những người bạn to see if they wanted to hit a movie Friday night. Matt didn't come trang chủ til that Sunday anyway.
Two days later.
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From:Matty[:
To:JazzyLovee
ngày Sent 11/4/2010 4:41am
Jazmine.! I'm leaving. I just can't stay here anymore. My mother is driving me insane and so is my dad. He is constantly calling me to see when I'm coming trang chủ and to be very careful around my mother. He says he doesn't want me to get too emotionally attached. Ugh. I hate him. and My mom isn't making it any better. I miss trang chủ and I miss you. I'll be trang chủ bởi Friday night. Don't try to talk me out of it, I'm leaving. That's the end. I tình yêu you! I'll be trang chủ soon!(:
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From:JazzyLovee
To:Matty[:
ngày sent 11/2/2010 5:05am
Matthew no! bạn can't leave. You've waited so long..and now you're just...ugh....you just can't do this. I know for a fact that bạn will regret this later. Please just trust me. I want bạn to come home, trust me I do, but I'm willing to wait if that means quality time with your mom. I know how much you've missed her. Do bạn really want to give up your chance at making amends? Listen I know your dad. He will get over it when he sees that, that this is what makes bạn happy. The decision is yours but don't come rushing trang chủ for me. I'll always be here for you. No need to rush I tình yêu bạn too!
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Matthew did not reply to me after that but he ended up texting me the tiếp theo night saying he was gonna stay but only til Saturday because he missed home. Matt seemed to very anxious the last couple of weeks though. Now that I notice it, he has seemed a little thêm joyful than usual. And that wasn't good. It meant he had a surprise. And he knows I don't like surprises! But maybe (just hoping!!) I could be wrong.
The week did go bởi pretty fast. Pretty boring actually. Matt finally came trang chủ Saturday morning. Me in his arms felt thêm like trang chủ than anything. I loved having him back but I was still a little scared about what we could be soo excited for.??
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xin chào harryPLover here, listen guys i was kinda tired and i know I usually write a lot and it's scripted better. But Thank bạn for đọc don't go away because the good parts are coming right around corner! Thank youu, Much Love. -jazzy(:
I finished my prayer and hopped into bed. I was just completely exhausted. So I wouldn't think about how much I missed Matt I kept myself busy. Though it was keeping me busy it mad me very tired. Matt had only been gone 3 days though. Meaning, four thêm to dread. All I could do was sleep.
The tiếp theo morning wasn't as quite, hoặc as awful. I had gotten up way to early and figured I could watch some television. It was 4 in the morning; and just as I was falling asleep to Spongebob's voice a noise came from my computer went off. I skipped to the computer hoping it was Matthew. But, to my surprise...it wasn't. It was a person that wouldn't normally talk to me hoặc let alone want to chat with me.
*******
JesusFreakJazzy: Joey?
GangstaBoii3: Heloooo(:
JesusFreakJazzy: What do bạn want? And why are bạn chatting with me so early in the morning???
GangstaBoii3: Nuttn goshh. Just wanted to talk to you. I heard your boyfriend wasn't in town. Where he'd go? And xin chào what are bạn doing Friday? ;)
JesusFreakJazzy: Ummm lets see, not hanging out with you. And I highly doubt bạn "heard" my bf was out of town. thêm like you've been keeping tabs in me since last winter!.....Don't think I haven't seen Orlando hoặc Edward coincidentally at the mall every time I'm there with Matt.
GangstaBoii3: Heyy listen I ain't doin none of that mess. bạn need to chill. Call me when bạn come back to earth. Just cause we broke up it don't mean I don't still tình yêu you. Whatever, I'm Out.
-GangstaBoii3 is offline-
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Now that was just a waste of my time. Talking to Joey is like talking a darn pet. bạn get nowhere. At least I can get to giường and relax. But talking to Joey made me want to talk ti some of my old friends. It might be good. Get my mind off Matt for a little while.
I emailed a few of mt Những người bạn to see if they wanted to hit a movie Friday night. Matt didn't come trang chủ til that Sunday anyway.
Two days later.
********
From:Matty[:
To:JazzyLovee
ngày Sent 11/4/2010 4:41am
Jazmine.! I'm leaving. I just can't stay here anymore. My mother is driving me insane and so is my dad. He is constantly calling me to see when I'm coming trang chủ and to be very careful around my mother. He says he doesn't want me to get too emotionally attached. Ugh. I hate him. and My mom isn't making it any better. I miss trang chủ and I miss you. I'll be trang chủ bởi Friday night. Don't try to talk me out of it, I'm leaving. That's the end. I tình yêu you! I'll be trang chủ soon!(:
*********
From:JazzyLovee
To:Matty[:
ngày sent 11/2/2010 5:05am
Matthew no! bạn can't leave. You've waited so long..and now you're just...ugh....you just can't do this. I know for a fact that bạn will regret this later. Please just trust me. I want bạn to come home, trust me I do, but I'm willing to wait if that means quality time with your mom. I know how much you've missed her. Do bạn really want to give up your chance at making amends? Listen I know your dad. He will get over it when he sees that, that this is what makes bạn happy. The decision is yours but don't come rushing trang chủ for me. I'll always be here for you. No need to rush I tình yêu bạn too!
*********
Matthew did not reply to me after that but he ended up texting me the tiếp theo night saying he was gonna stay but only til Saturday because he missed home. Matt seemed to very anxious the last couple of weeks though. Now that I notice it, he has seemed a little thêm joyful than usual. And that wasn't good. It meant he had a surprise. And he knows I don't like surprises! But maybe (just hoping!!) I could be wrong.
The week did go bởi pretty fast. Pretty boring actually. Matt finally came trang chủ Saturday morning. Me in his arms felt thêm like trang chủ than anything. I loved having him back but I was still a little scared about what we could be soo excited for.??
********************************
xin chào harryPLover here, listen guys i was kinda tired and i know I usually write a lot and it's scripted better. But Thank bạn for đọc don't go away because the good parts are coming right around corner! Thank youu, Much Love. -jazzy(:
bạn seek for spark of hope.
Your life held by
darkness thoughts,
anchor is
some place else.
Bad luck follows bạn
like a hook,
won't let bạn go,
won't leave bạn alone.
bạn smile today,
and cry whole eternity,
like that's your fate,
disturbing thoughts
to lie inside of you,
to take away everything
that bạn hope for.
Devil is calling your name,
leaves bạn not,
bạn don't see the Angel on
your shoulder,
trying to give bạn a strength.
bạn long for life
that bạn don't know of,
bạn seek for peace,
trying to get away
from misty forest
that stains your heart
into black.