I was expecting the kind of reaction I used to get when I'd say those kinds of things. But she just looked at me. Speculating. Was she actually thinking about it?! My tim, trái tim beat faster as I grabbed at the oportunity.
"I could stay with you." I blurted out, and then thought better of it. "Unless bạn wanted space, then I could find somewhere else. If bạn did not want me crowding you." I was so happy that I might get what I had dreamt of for so long, I was babbling on.
"What would bạn tell Charlie, Bella?" She đã đưa ý kiến as though she could not believe I hadn't thought of that already.
I looked down, deflated. No I couldn't give up. Just think, Bella, I told myself. Okay, say this was a normal situation. That was a strech, and it took me a while to bọc my head around it, but when I did finally I got some ideas.
"I tell Charlie we're moving in together, and going to college somewhere really far away."
She looked suprised. Perfect.
"And what do bạn think that would help, Bella?" she did not sound mad. Just patient.
"What would it help? Alice...look at me! Do I look okay? What wouldn't it help?"
She opened her mouth to say something, and then shut it again. We sat there for a moment. Just lookig at each other. My eyes were begging, hers were thinking. Hard.
Her eyes grew wide, and suddenly my eyes weren't the only ones begging.
"Bella..." she đã đưa ý kiến after a một phút hoặc two, in a slightly paniced voice. "I don't even know if I could, and there are so many things bạn don't know, and he'd kill me!" she blurted out.
I knew who she was talking about. Try as I may not to. I knew.
"Why...Why would he care? He left, Alice. He đã đưa ý kiến he never wanted to see me again. The only thing he asked is that I be safe...How much safer can bạn get?" I argued. She was about to argue back at me, so I went on before she cold start.
"And what if he did care? So what? It's not his decition anymore. bạn could teach me what I don't know. And I believe in you. bạn can do it. Don't bạn think I have the right to make this decition for myself?"
She paused. Her eyes bored into mine.
"Yes." she answered quietly. "You do."
I jumped up. She stood up, too, and we stared at each other again. "Really?" I asked, breathless. Could this be happening? Did I finally just get what I've been wanting for almost a year?...Was it really only a year? It felt like an eternity...
"Will bạn really make me a vampire?" Excitement made my voice a little louder then it should have been. She, "Shh"ed me.
"There is no guarantee that I will be able to, Bella. You're taking a very big risk. And do bạn really think I'd be able to live without you? Especially if I had killed bạn myself?" she was panicing. She was diễn xuất so...human.
"Everything will be okay, Alice. Everything will be perfect." I was a lie. And yet it wasn't. If this worked, then I would be able to follow him...be able to follow Edward. There as no pain in thinking his name now. Not when I had hope. Not when I was going to see him again. Soon.
"And the pain?" she asked, breaking me from my daydream. "The năm of bạn being a newborn?"
I was confused bởi her use of words. Newborn? I suppose I understood. I would be 'born' in a way. Born to a whole new life. A better life. I smiled. But I made myself focus. "I can handle the pain." It did not sound like a lie, because at the time I đã đưa ý kiến it, I thought it was true. Then I remembered the ballet studio. The ngọn lửa, chữa cháy in my vains. I rubbed my wrist where I would always be scarred as if I could feel it again. Her eyes darted to my wrist and narrowed when she looked back at my face. "And bạn would help me, right?" I asked to distract her. "You wouldn't let me do anything." I đã đưa ý kiến with confidence. I was winning this arguement. That was a first.
"Your friends?" she asked.
"Like who? Jessica?" I snorted. But then I thought back on it. The only reason why I hadn't thought of him at first was because it felt like another time. A time before Jacob Black was my best friend. It felt like time switched back to the present when I thought of him. I felt painfully guilty. I would miss him so much. But did he even want to talk to me anymore, hoặc had he được trao up? I should let him give me up. It would be a lot easier to let him go if I had something other than him to keep me alive. And now I did have that. So I could. It hurt. But I had felt much worse. I could live through it. And so could he.
Alice must have seen the pain on my face, because she đã đưa ý kiến skeptically, "Really?"
But I was sure now. So I answered her in a firm voice. "Yes. I'm sure."
"I could stay with you." I blurted out, and then thought better of it. "Unless bạn wanted space, then I could find somewhere else. If bạn did not want me crowding you." I was so happy that I might get what I had dreamt of for so long, I was babbling on.
"What would bạn tell Charlie, Bella?" She đã đưa ý kiến as though she could not believe I hadn't thought of that already.
I looked down, deflated. No I couldn't give up. Just think, Bella, I told myself. Okay, say this was a normal situation. That was a strech, and it took me a while to bọc my head around it, but when I did finally I got some ideas.
"I tell Charlie we're moving in together, and going to college somewhere really far away."
She looked suprised. Perfect.
"And what do bạn think that would help, Bella?" she did not sound mad. Just patient.
"What would it help? Alice...look at me! Do I look okay? What wouldn't it help?"
She opened her mouth to say something, and then shut it again. We sat there for a moment. Just lookig at each other. My eyes were begging, hers were thinking. Hard.
Her eyes grew wide, and suddenly my eyes weren't the only ones begging.
"Bella..." she đã đưa ý kiến after a một phút hoặc two, in a slightly paniced voice. "I don't even know if I could, and there are so many things bạn don't know, and he'd kill me!" she blurted out.
I knew who she was talking about. Try as I may not to. I knew.
"Why...Why would he care? He left, Alice. He đã đưa ý kiến he never wanted to see me again. The only thing he asked is that I be safe...How much safer can bạn get?" I argued. She was about to argue back at me, so I went on before she cold start.
"And what if he did care? So what? It's not his decition anymore. bạn could teach me what I don't know. And I believe in you. bạn can do it. Don't bạn think I have the right to make this decition for myself?"
She paused. Her eyes bored into mine.
"Yes." she answered quietly. "You do."
I jumped up. She stood up, too, and we stared at each other again. "Really?" I asked, breathless. Could this be happening? Did I finally just get what I've been wanting for almost a year?...Was it really only a year? It felt like an eternity...
"Will bạn really make me a vampire?" Excitement made my voice a little louder then it should have been. She, "Shh"ed me.
"There is no guarantee that I will be able to, Bella. You're taking a very big risk. And do bạn really think I'd be able to live without you? Especially if I had killed bạn myself?" she was panicing. She was diễn xuất so...human.
"Everything will be okay, Alice. Everything will be perfect." I was a lie. And yet it wasn't. If this worked, then I would be able to follow him...be able to follow Edward. There as no pain in thinking his name now. Not when I had hope. Not when I was going to see him again. Soon.
"And the pain?" she asked, breaking me from my daydream. "The năm of bạn being a newborn?"
I was confused bởi her use of words. Newborn? I suppose I understood. I would be 'born' in a way. Born to a whole new life. A better life. I smiled. But I made myself focus. "I can handle the pain." It did not sound like a lie, because at the time I đã đưa ý kiến it, I thought it was true. Then I remembered the ballet studio. The ngọn lửa, chữa cháy in my vains. I rubbed my wrist where I would always be scarred as if I could feel it again. Her eyes darted to my wrist and narrowed when she looked back at my face. "And bạn would help me, right?" I asked to distract her. "You wouldn't let me do anything." I đã đưa ý kiến with confidence. I was winning this arguement. That was a first.
"Your friends?" she asked.
"Like who? Jessica?" I snorted. But then I thought back on it. The only reason why I hadn't thought of him at first was because it felt like another time. A time before Jacob Black was my best friend. It felt like time switched back to the present when I thought of him. I felt painfully guilty. I would miss him so much. But did he even want to talk to me anymore, hoặc had he được trao up? I should let him give me up. It would be a lot easier to let him go if I had something other than him to keep me alive. And now I did have that. So I could. It hurt. But I had felt much worse. I could live through it. And so could he.
Alice must have seen the pain on my face, because she đã đưa ý kiến skeptically, "Really?"
But I was sure now. So I answered her in a firm voice. "Yes. I'm sure."
Ok don't get me wrong I tình yêu the Cullens but take a look at what I would do if I was a Cullen
I would hot wire Edwards car and take it for a joy ride
I would go into my life story when ever I'm board
I would never sleep so I would jump all over
I use the saying "oh bite me" alot and I don't normaily get into fights but this is the Cullens we'r talking about
Sometimes I say my thoughts out-loud
I would think about Jakes body
I would be mad that I'm young and no guy would want to ngày a girl like me
I'd copy Edward
I'd piss off Edward
^^If I did I'd say Bella did it^^
I might crack up when he trys to hold his anger
I would jump off a big cây a yell "I belive I can fly"
And most of all I'm Crazy
So tell me if I should be a Cullen
I would hot wire Edwards car and take it for a joy ride
I would go into my life story when ever I'm board
I would never sleep so I would jump all over
I use the saying "oh bite me" alot and I don't normaily get into fights but this is the Cullens we'r talking about
Sometimes I say my thoughts out-loud
I would think about Jakes body
I would be mad that I'm young and no guy would want to ngày a girl like me
I'd copy Edward
I'd piss off Edward
^^If I did I'd say Bella did it^^
I might crack up when he trys to hold his anger
I would jump off a big cây a yell "I belive I can fly"
And most of all I'm Crazy
So tell me if I should be a Cullen
This is for people who have been đọc Esme's Story:
I don't want to call it Esme Cullen story the whole time so I have come up with some ideas for names. please bình luận and tell me which ones bạn like. Ones i don't end up using for my story, feel free to use for any of yours:
Daybreak
Forever Awakening
Beyond Starlight
Nightfall
Sudden Dusk
Moonlight
Midnight Glimmer
Sunrise
Sunset
Dawn of Life
Precious Enchantment
If bạn can think of any others, please let me know
I want my story to have a thêm interesting name so it draws thêm attention than just 'Esme Cullen Story'. I went online to a danh sách of words with 'atmosphere' and I found these words and made different combinations with them.
PLEASE HELP ME!!!
THANK YOU!!!
I don't want to call it Esme Cullen story the whole time so I have come up with some ideas for names. please bình luận and tell me which ones bạn like. Ones i don't end up using for my story, feel free to use for any of yours:
Daybreak
Forever Awakening
Beyond Starlight
Nightfall
Sudden Dusk
Moonlight
Midnight Glimmer
Sunrise
Sunset
Dawn of Life
Precious Enchantment
If bạn can think of any others, please let me know
I want my story to have a thêm interesting name so it draws thêm attention than just 'Esme Cullen Story'. I went online to a danh sách of words with 'atmosphere' and I found these words and made different combinations with them.
PLEASE HELP ME!!!
THANK YOU!!!
ALICE AND JASPER:
FOR THE FIRST TIME IN ALMOST A DECADE I FELT HOPE
JASPERS tim, trái tim Nữ hoàng băng giá IN TIME bởi A SINGLE BITE.
FLYING LIKE A HUMMING BIRDS WINGS (THIS LINE WAS đã đưa ý kiến TO BELLA bởi EDWARD -ECLIPSE-)
HOPE, HAPPINESS, KINDNESS, UNDERSTANDING, AND...LOVE
ALL AT ONCE COMING FROM SUCH A SMALL PERSON.
EMOTIONS HE BEARLY RECONIZED.
EMOTIONS HE WOULD NEVER LEAVE.
EMOTIONS THAT WOULD SOON BE HIS WHOLE LIFE.
EMOTINS THAT BELONGED TO ALICE HIS ONE AND ONLY REASON TO LIVE.
tình yêu SO STRONG, THEY WOULD KILL. KILL ONCE, TWICE... UNTIL THEY GOT TO THERE OTHER HALF
ALICE ISNT JUST JASPERS LOVE
SHE IS HIS KEY, HIS KEY TO HAPPINESS
THERE SOULS ATACHED FOREVER
THERE SOULS INTERWINED TOGHETHER
THERE SOULS BELONG TO EACH OTHER
SOULMATES FOR THE REST OF INTERNITY
BROUGHT TO HAPPINESS TOGHETHER AND WHEN IT COMES TIME THEY WILL BE TAKEN OUT TOGHETHER
THANX FOR READING
WRITTEN bởi RACHEL KETTLEWELL
TWILIGHT GIRL
FOR THE FIRST TIME IN ALMOST A DECADE I FELT HOPE
JASPERS tim, trái tim Nữ hoàng băng giá IN TIME bởi A SINGLE BITE.
FLYING LIKE A HUMMING BIRDS WINGS (THIS LINE WAS đã đưa ý kiến TO BELLA bởi EDWARD -ECLIPSE-)
HOPE, HAPPINESS, KINDNESS, UNDERSTANDING, AND...LOVE
ALL AT ONCE COMING FROM SUCH A SMALL PERSON.
EMOTIONS HE BEARLY RECONIZED.
EMOTIONS HE WOULD NEVER LEAVE.
EMOTIONS THAT WOULD SOON BE HIS WHOLE LIFE.
EMOTINS THAT BELONGED TO ALICE HIS ONE AND ONLY REASON TO LIVE.
tình yêu SO STRONG, THEY WOULD KILL. KILL ONCE, TWICE... UNTIL THEY GOT TO THERE OTHER HALF
ALICE ISNT JUST JASPERS LOVE
SHE IS HIS KEY, HIS KEY TO HAPPINESS
THERE SOULS ATACHED FOREVER
THERE SOULS INTERWINED TOGHETHER
THERE SOULS BELONG TO EACH OTHER
SOULMATES FOR THE REST OF INTERNITY
BROUGHT TO HAPPINESS TOGHETHER AND WHEN IT COMES TIME THEY WILL BE TAKEN OUT TOGHETHER
THANX FOR READING
WRITTEN bởi RACHEL KETTLEWELL
TWILIGHT GIRL