I was expecting the kind of reaction I used to get when I'd say those kinds of things. But she just looked at me. Speculating. Was she actually thinking about it?! My tim, trái tim beat faster as I grabbed at the oportunity.
"I could stay with you." I blurted out, and then thought better of it. "Unless bạn wanted space, then I could find somewhere else. If bạn did not want me crowding you." I was so happy that I might get what I had dreamt of for so long, I was babbling on.
"What would bạn tell Charlie, Bella?" She đã đưa ý kiến as though she could not believe I hadn't thought of that already.
I looked down, deflated. No I couldn't give up. Just think, Bella, I told myself. Okay, say this was a normal situation. That was a strech, and it took me a while to bọc my head around it, but when I did finally I got some ideas.
"I tell Charlie we're moving in together, and going to college somewhere really far away."
She looked suprised. Perfect.
"And what do bạn think that would help, Bella?" she did not sound mad. Just patient.
"What would it help? Alice...look at me! Do I look okay? What wouldn't it help?"
She opened her mouth to say something, and then shut it again. We sat there for a moment. Just lookig at each other. My eyes were begging, hers were thinking. Hard.
Her eyes grew wide, and suddenly my eyes weren't the only ones begging.
"Bella..." she đã đưa ý kiến after a một phút hoặc two, in a slightly paniced voice. "I don't even know if I could, and there are so many things bạn don't know, and he'd kill me!" she blurted out.
I knew who she was talking about. Try as I may not to. I knew.
"Why...Why would he care? He left, Alice. He đã đưa ý kiến he never wanted to see me again. The only thing he asked is that I be safe...How much safer can bạn get?" I argued. She was about to argue back at me, so I went on before she cold start.
"And what if he did care? So what? It's not his decition anymore. bạn could teach me what I don't know. And I believe in you. bạn can do it. Don't bạn think I have the right to make this decition for myself?"
She paused. Her eyes bored into mine.
"Yes." she answered quietly. "You do."
I jumped up. She stood up, too, and we stared at each other again. "Really?" I asked, breathless. Could this be happening? Did I finally just get what I've been wanting for almost a year?...Was it really only a year? It felt like an eternity...
"Will bạn really make me a vampire?" Excitement made my voice a little louder then it should have been. She, "Shh"ed me.
"There is no guarantee that I will be able to, Bella. You're taking a very big risk. And do bạn really think I'd be able to live without you? Especially if I had killed bạn myself?" she was panicing. She was diễn xuất so...human.
"Everything will be okay, Alice. Everything will be perfect." I was a lie. And yet it wasn't. If this worked, then I would be able to follow him...be able to follow Edward. There as no pain in thinking his name now. Not when I had hope. Not when I was going to see him again. Soon.
"And the pain?" she asked, breaking me from my daydream. "The năm of bạn being a newborn?"
I was confused bởi her use of words. Newborn? I suppose I understood. I would be 'born' in a way. Born to a whole new life. A better life. I smiled. But I made myself focus. "I can handle the pain." It did not sound like a lie, because at the time I đã đưa ý kiến it, I thought it was true. Then I remembered the ballet studio. The ngọn lửa, chữa cháy in my vains. I rubbed my wrist where I would always be scarred as if I could feel it again. Her eyes darted to my wrist and narrowed when she looked back at my face. "And bạn would help me, right?" I asked to distract her. "You wouldn't let me do anything." I đã đưa ý kiến with confidence. I was winning this arguement. That was a first.
"Your friends?" she asked.
"Like who? Jessica?" I snorted. But then I thought back on it. The only reason why I hadn't thought of him at first was because it felt like another time. A time before Jacob Black was my best friend. It felt like time switched back to the present when I thought of him. I felt painfully guilty. I would miss him so much. But did he even want to talk to me anymore, hoặc had he được trao up? I should let him give me up. It would be a lot easier to let him go if I had something other than him to keep me alive. And now I did have that. So I could. It hurt. But I had felt much worse. I could live through it. And so could he.
Alice must have seen the pain on my face, because she đã đưa ý kiến skeptically, "Really?"
But I was sure now. So I answered her in a firm voice. "Yes. I'm sure."
"I could stay with you." I blurted out, and then thought better of it. "Unless bạn wanted space, then I could find somewhere else. If bạn did not want me crowding you." I was so happy that I might get what I had dreamt of for so long, I was babbling on.
"What would bạn tell Charlie, Bella?" She đã đưa ý kiến as though she could not believe I hadn't thought of that already.
I looked down, deflated. No I couldn't give up. Just think, Bella, I told myself. Okay, say this was a normal situation. That was a strech, and it took me a while to bọc my head around it, but when I did finally I got some ideas.
"I tell Charlie we're moving in together, and going to college somewhere really far away."
She looked suprised. Perfect.
"And what do bạn think that would help, Bella?" she did not sound mad. Just patient.
"What would it help? Alice...look at me! Do I look okay? What wouldn't it help?"
She opened her mouth to say something, and then shut it again. We sat there for a moment. Just lookig at each other. My eyes were begging, hers were thinking. Hard.
Her eyes grew wide, and suddenly my eyes weren't the only ones begging.
"Bella..." she đã đưa ý kiến after a một phút hoặc two, in a slightly paniced voice. "I don't even know if I could, and there are so many things bạn don't know, and he'd kill me!" she blurted out.
I knew who she was talking about. Try as I may not to. I knew.
"Why...Why would he care? He left, Alice. He đã đưa ý kiến he never wanted to see me again. The only thing he asked is that I be safe...How much safer can bạn get?" I argued. She was about to argue back at me, so I went on before she cold start.
"And what if he did care? So what? It's not his decition anymore. bạn could teach me what I don't know. And I believe in you. bạn can do it. Don't bạn think I have the right to make this decition for myself?"
She paused. Her eyes bored into mine.
"Yes." she answered quietly. "You do."
I jumped up. She stood up, too, and we stared at each other again. "Really?" I asked, breathless. Could this be happening? Did I finally just get what I've been wanting for almost a year?...Was it really only a year? It felt like an eternity...
"Will bạn really make me a vampire?" Excitement made my voice a little louder then it should have been. She, "Shh"ed me.
"There is no guarantee that I will be able to, Bella. You're taking a very big risk. And do bạn really think I'd be able to live without you? Especially if I had killed bạn myself?" she was panicing. She was diễn xuất so...human.
"Everything will be okay, Alice. Everything will be perfect." I was a lie. And yet it wasn't. If this worked, then I would be able to follow him...be able to follow Edward. There as no pain in thinking his name now. Not when I had hope. Not when I was going to see him again. Soon.
"And the pain?" she asked, breaking me from my daydream. "The năm of bạn being a newborn?"
I was confused bởi her use of words. Newborn? I suppose I understood. I would be 'born' in a way. Born to a whole new life. A better life. I smiled. But I made myself focus. "I can handle the pain." It did not sound like a lie, because at the time I đã đưa ý kiến it, I thought it was true. Then I remembered the ballet studio. The ngọn lửa, chữa cháy in my vains. I rubbed my wrist where I would always be scarred as if I could feel it again. Her eyes darted to my wrist and narrowed when she looked back at my face. "And bạn would help me, right?" I asked to distract her. "You wouldn't let me do anything." I đã đưa ý kiến with confidence. I was winning this arguement. That was a first.
"Your friends?" she asked.
"Like who? Jessica?" I snorted. But then I thought back on it. The only reason why I hadn't thought of him at first was because it felt like another time. A time before Jacob Black was my best friend. It felt like time switched back to the present when I thought of him. I felt painfully guilty. I would miss him so much. But did he even want to talk to me anymore, hoặc had he được trao up? I should let him give me up. It would be a lot easier to let him go if I had something other than him to keep me alive. And now I did have that. So I could. It hurt. But I had felt much worse. I could live through it. And so could he.
Alice must have seen the pain on my face, because she đã đưa ý kiến skeptically, "Really?"
But I was sure now. So I answered her in a firm voice. "Yes. I'm sure."
Selena Gomez: "He is a very very nice gentleman."
Kristen Stewart: "I tình yêu that kid. I would do anything for him. I would kill for him, literally.
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Ashley Greene: "I really really adore Rob and Edward's awesome, but I'm Team Jacob. Is just... bạn gotta tình yêu Taylor, he plays an amazing Jacob, so... my tim, trái tim belongs to him. Hahaha."
Taylor Swift: "Aw, Tay-Tay. Well, see, I don't know Rob Pattinson, so I would just bởi default, I'd be on Team Tay."
"hey bella going to a party dressing like that." alice pointed at my jeans and t-shirt
"alice its my life let me live it the way i want to live it ok"i said. i cant belive i just đã đưa ý kiến that. she stared at me shocked.she started pouting."ouh!fine bạn can dress me up. aneways it is a Halloween party." i said"iwasnt gonna tell bạn that bạn had to dress up.but good thing i did!"she said. i stared at her in shock
1 giờ later
"alice!"i yelled.iwas to dolled up to go with edward.too late edward came up and looked at me as like i was famouse."bella."he said. it made me blush.
"alice its my life let me live it the way i want to live it ok"i said. i cant belive i just đã đưa ý kiến that. she stared at me shocked.she started pouting."ouh!fine bạn can dress me up. aneways it is a Halloween party." i said"iwasnt gonna tell bạn that bạn had to dress up.but good thing i did!"she said. i stared at her in shock
1 giờ later
"alice!"i yelled.iwas to dolled up to go with edward.too late edward came up and looked at me as like i was famouse."bella."he said. it made me blush.
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bạn promised me that
every time we touch
bạn will never release your hold
your hold on to me
your hold on to reality
bạn promised me that
no matter what happens
bạn will comfort my aura
my aura of my stress
my aura of my mind
bạn promised me that
my feelings for bạn
would never change
never change from love
never change from us
bạn promised me that
nothing would ever
be serious in life
that life was a game
but that I was the dice
bạn promised me that
though we come from seperate worlds
no one could hold us back
hold us back from fate
hold us back from destiny
And as I look around the room
I realise
that all of us
in our own two intertwined minds
are Inseperable.
every time we touch
bạn will never release your hold
your hold on to me
your hold on to reality
bạn promised me that
no matter what happens
bạn will comfort my aura
my aura of my stress
my aura of my mind
bạn promised me that
my feelings for bạn
would never change
never change from love
never change from us
bạn promised me that
nothing would ever
be serious in life
that life was a game
but that I was the dice
bạn promised me that
though we come from seperate worlds
no one could hold us back
hold us back from fate
hold us back from destiny
And as I look around the room
I realise
that all of us
in our own two intertwined minds
are Inseperable.
Hey...
I'm soooo very sorry that I didn't get a chance to write. School's keeping me busy every một phút so I can't come to fanpop often. I'll write for ya all tomorrow... And again..I'm so very sorry for not writing...I was thinking of some ideas to continue my story but I was scared to continue cuz I didn't know if they were good cuz my mind was busy with homework and the things bạn know!!! So... I didn't continue it till now, which I have a great idea for continuing...So... tune in tomorrow to read it. K?
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Rob_Patt_fan!
I'm soooo very sorry that I didn't get a chance to write. School's keeping me busy every một phút so I can't come to fanpop often. I'll write for ya all tomorrow... And again..I'm so very sorry for not writing...I was thinking of some ideas to continue my story but I was scared to continue cuz I didn't know if they were good cuz my mind was busy with homework and the things bạn know!!! So... I didn't continue it till now, which I have a great idea for continuing...So... tune in tomorrow to read it. K?
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Rob_Patt_fan!
xin chào
guys
sorry
i
broke
my
promise
i
did
not
write
today
but
i
really
have
a
big
reason
i
lost
the
ideas
i
should
write
today
but
do
not
worry
i
will
finish
the
story
what
ever
happen
i
promise
i
am
not
sure
if
i
can
write
tomorrow
maybe
the
next
day
but
it
will
not
be
longer
than
a
week
of
not
updating
promise
..
sorry
sorry
sorry
.
.
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bella_01
please dont be angry with me i promise to write soon i will let bạn know if i already start nghề viết văn again...thank you.please still read the story if i ever updated the tiếp theo ngày hoặc the ngày after that
guys
sorry
i
broke
my
promise
i
did
not
write
today
but
i
really
have
a
big
reason
i
lost
the
ideas
i
should
write
today
but
do
not
worry
i
will
finish
the
story
what
ever
happen
i
promise
i
am
not
sure
if
i
can
write
tomorrow
maybe
the
next
day
but
it
will
not
be
longer
than
a
week
of
not
updating
promise
..
sorry
sorry
sorry
.
.
.
bella_01
please dont be angry with me i promise to write soon i will let bạn know if i already start nghề viết văn again...thank you.please still read the story if i ever updated the tiếp theo ngày hoặc the ngày after that