Little things about me...
I've been nghề viết văn a story at school, this girl has been đọc it.
She wonders where I got the idea from, I tell her it's just fiction,
I can't bring myself to tell her thats it's really how I view the world since everyone thinks I'm the super happy smiling girl.
No one knows my world is dark.
~~~
This week we had an anti-bullying activity at school
We have to vượt qua, cross a line when something applies to you.
"Please vượt qua, cross the line if bạn feel lonely."
No one in my class did, but I know one person who almost did.
Until she saw nobody else did.
I should have crossed that line.
~~~
I say goodbye to someone everyday before I leave school..
I would hate to go out of this world without saying goodbye..
~~~
Art is my passion my thing.
My mom says I'm to smart to take it further then past high school, it's not important enough.
At school I'm known for being amazing at art.
My art teachers tình yêu me and want me to keep going..
Why can't my family want that?
I just want to draw...
~~
The other ngày in class we had to write a depression essay in class.
I wrote the essay but the last few lines I wrote about my depression and everything I've went through.
But before I pasted it in I but the last lines in white and pasted it in I couldn't erase it...
~~~
Why did I stop taking pills? Why do I not want to?
Because for once I believe in myself
I'm going to hiển thị how strong I am
I'm going to get through this on my own.
Just watch
~~
I've met almost all my Những người bạn on this website.
I know it's dangerous and I'm taking a risk.
I know what I'm doing and I'm careful.
Mom Dad, I help guys and girls online with there problems and stop them from killing them selfs.
Stop assuming I'm a slut. Not all teenage girls look for sex.
~~
"Some day, I want to be a model. These scars on my arms will not hold me back."
~~
Yes, life is getting better.
Yes, I'm eating again.
Yes, I've slowly stopped crying myself to sleep.
But, no. I'm still unhappy and dying on the inside.
~~~
Dear Mom..
On the outside bạn see me as your happy and smiling daughter who’s turning 14 this Sunday and bạn would do anything for me…But what bạn don’t know it..
I’m really truly sad…
I’m faking that smile and I really do want to be happy but right now that seems impossible..I don;t want to die but want else is there to do…I hate being this way and I feel there’s no way out..I want to tell bạn but like I always say..We all have stories we don’t and will never tell…and this is one of them…
tình yêu your daughter…Mallory McDonald
~~~~~`
Dear Dad…
I know you’ve wanted to be there for me and I know that bạn wanted to see me…But it’s been seven years now and…Seeing and just hearing your voice would be to much.. Yes I tình yêu bạn I always will and nothing can take that away but, Mom kept me away from bạn for a reason and she won’t tell me why and I believe and trust in her so would bạn please stop calling are phone…It’s my birthday this Sunday and I wish bạn could be here but..Where were bạn for the last seven…Oh yeah I wasn’t important then I guess…I tình yêu bạn I really do but your pain of leaving messed me up and I really don;t want to get messed up even more. I feel like everyone I tình yêu always leaves because of you…And I don’t wish to feel like that again..
tình yêu your daughter..Mallory McDonald
I've been nghề viết văn a story at school, this girl has been đọc it.
She wonders where I got the idea from, I tell her it's just fiction,
I can't bring myself to tell her thats it's really how I view the world since everyone thinks I'm the super happy smiling girl.
No one knows my world is dark.
~~~
This week we had an anti-bullying activity at school
We have to vượt qua, cross a line when something applies to you.
"Please vượt qua, cross the line if bạn feel lonely."
No one in my class did, but I know one person who almost did.
Until she saw nobody else did.
I should have crossed that line.
~~~
I say goodbye to someone everyday before I leave school..
I would hate to go out of this world without saying goodbye..
~~~
Art is my passion my thing.
My mom says I'm to smart to take it further then past high school, it's not important enough.
At school I'm known for being amazing at art.
My art teachers tình yêu me and want me to keep going..
Why can't my family want that?
I just want to draw...
~~
The other ngày in class we had to write a depression essay in class.
I wrote the essay but the last few lines I wrote about my depression and everything I've went through.
But before I pasted it in I but the last lines in white and pasted it in I couldn't erase it...
~~~
Why did I stop taking pills? Why do I not want to?
Because for once I believe in myself
I'm going to hiển thị how strong I am
I'm going to get through this on my own.
Just watch
~~
I've met almost all my Những người bạn on this website.
I know it's dangerous and I'm taking a risk.
I know what I'm doing and I'm careful.
Mom Dad, I help guys and girls online with there problems and stop them from killing them selfs.
Stop assuming I'm a slut. Not all teenage girls look for sex.
~~
"Some day, I want to be a model. These scars on my arms will not hold me back."
~~
Yes, life is getting better.
Yes, I'm eating again.
Yes, I've slowly stopped crying myself to sleep.
But, no. I'm still unhappy and dying on the inside.
~~~
Dear Mom..
On the outside bạn see me as your happy and smiling daughter who’s turning 14 this Sunday and bạn would do anything for me…But what bạn don’t know it..
I’m really truly sad…
I’m faking that smile and I really do want to be happy but right now that seems impossible..I don;t want to die but want else is there to do…I hate being this way and I feel there’s no way out..I want to tell bạn but like I always say..We all have stories we don’t and will never tell…and this is one of them…
tình yêu your daughter…Mallory McDonald
~~~~~`
Dear Dad…
I know you’ve wanted to be there for me and I know that bạn wanted to see me…But it’s been seven years now and…Seeing and just hearing your voice would be to much.. Yes I tình yêu bạn I always will and nothing can take that away but, Mom kept me away from bạn for a reason and she won’t tell me why and I believe and trust in her so would bạn please stop calling are phone…It’s my birthday this Sunday and I wish bạn could be here but..Where were bạn for the last seven…Oh yeah I wasn’t important then I guess…I tình yêu bạn I really do but your pain of leaving messed me up and I really don;t want to get messed up even more. I feel like everyone I tình yêu always leaves because of you…And I don’t wish to feel like that again..
tình yêu your daughter..Mallory McDonald
I smile, after being beaten senslessly bởi people I once loved.
I smile, when I'm locked outside in the rain for hours
I smile, when my boyfriend lies to me
I smile, as people laugh at me for being different
I smile, when my parents fight
I smile, when I'm called broken
I smile, when I cry
I smile, as people call me names even satan wouldn't dare to say
I smile, as my world crashes down on me
I smile, to hide the sharp pain biting my soul
I smile, for YOU.
Do bạn know what this means?
Do bạn know how it fells?
Who are bạn to to say these things?
For bạn don't know there story hoặc life,
bạn know nothing.
bạn know no pain,
For bạn are pain.
bạn know no hurt.
For bạn are hurt.
And who are bạn to say I am no one?
Because I am.
I am me
And nothing can change that...
Fierce & Love
Poem Girl
I smile, when I'm locked outside in the rain for hours
I smile, when my boyfriend lies to me
I smile, as people laugh at me for being different
I smile, when my parents fight
I smile, when I'm called broken
I smile, when I cry
I smile, as people call me names even satan wouldn't dare to say
I smile, as my world crashes down on me
I smile, to hide the sharp pain biting my soul
I smile, for YOU.
Do bạn know what this means?
Do bạn know how it fells?
Who are bạn to to say these things?
For bạn don't know there story hoặc life,
bạn know nothing.
bạn know no pain,
For bạn are pain.
bạn know no hurt.
For bạn are hurt.
And who are bạn to say I am no one?
Because I am.
I am me
And nothing can change that...
Fierce & Love
Poem Girl
Within the furthest reaches of the tim, trái tim lies those desires whose name one dares no speak. So seductive, so intoxicating, so indulgent, our most private passions burn at the molten core of our being, luring us to the very highest of ecstasy to the depths of despair. Through the ages, the words impassioned những người đang yêu have transformed a virginal sheet of paper into a sanctuary for a restless heart. Each of the pages in this journal awaits the expression of your own desires- Unedited, Undiluted, Uninhibited.... Abandon yourself....
~IF bạn DARE~
~IF bạn DARE~
Wrath
I am one of the deadly sins,
For I am the one that makes bạn feel angry,
And may lead bạn to do wrongful things.
I blind you,
And mask the truth from you;
I hide your actions,
And make them unaware to bạn until
bạn realise what just happened.
I am a curse,
For I blind bạn from the truth,
And make bạn unwilling to accept that truth,
Because I am anger,
Which makes your rage come true,
Which brings about your wrath,
Which is my true name,
And with it comes a grudge.
I am a curse,
And bạn do not want me,
But honestly,
It is fun for me to see
bạn hurting other people,
Even though bạn don't intentionally do it,
hoặc even if bạn are blinded bởi the truth.
For I am Wrath,
And I take amusement from your anger,
And the pain bạn inflict on others,
And I am from the fiery pits of hell.
Beware of your human instincts,
For I am one of them,
And I may hiển thị up in your fiery head.
I am one of the deadly sins,
For I am the one that makes bạn feel angry,
And may lead bạn to do wrongful things.
I blind you,
And mask the truth from you;
I hide your actions,
And make them unaware to bạn until
bạn realise what just happened.
I am a curse,
For I blind bạn from the truth,
And make bạn unwilling to accept that truth,
Because I am anger,
Which makes your rage come true,
Which brings about your wrath,
Which is my true name,
And with it comes a grudge.
I am a curse,
And bạn do not want me,
But honestly,
It is fun for me to see
bạn hurting other people,
Even though bạn don't intentionally do it,
hoặc even if bạn are blinded bởi the truth.
For I am Wrath,
And I take amusement from your anger,
And the pain bạn inflict on others,
And I am from the fiery pits of hell.
Beware of your human instincts,
For I am one of them,
And I may hiển thị up in your fiery head.
