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I could hear people talking outside in the hallway. The voices sounded confused and angry. I strained to hear harder. “Mr. Cullen, I don’t care whether Ms. thiên nga is your girlfriend hoặc not,” Mr. Greene was saying in a stern voice. “You don’t start fights with anyone at this school. Especially the new ones who don’t know the rules yet!” he đã đưa ý kiến fuming. I heard Mr. Blair across the other side of the tiny office saying similar things to someone else, I tried to hear, but in my attempts, my eyes opened, and I saw Charlie sitting bởi the door with an upset look on his face. When he was that my eyes were open, he pretty much flew to the side of my cot, grabbed my hands and held them too tight. “Bella!” he said, the relief was strong in his voice. “How’s your head? Does it hurt? bạn have to go and get some stitches, but other than that, there doesn’t seem to be anything wrong.” I heard the emotion he tried so hard to contain burning with every word he said. All of a sudden the door opened and Mr. Greene, Mr. Blair, Angela, Alice, Edward, Jacob and Quil came through the door. Alice and Angela went straight to my other side and each found a part of me to hug. “Oh my god, Bella, we were so scared!” Angela was crying, and hugging my neck too tight. “When we brought bạn here and bạn didn’t open your eyes, we thought something happened!” bạn could see the relief on her face too. Alice seemed just as relieved. “We’re so glad your okay, Bella.” She said, in a reassured yet subdued tone. I glanced at her, then at Edward, Jacob and Quil. When I caught eyes with Edward, I remembered what Alice had told me. I took a long deep breath, which came out as a sob. Edward’s eyes widened in sadness and shook is head at me. I knew he would tell me later. But the câu hỏi was: would I listen? I turned my gaze away from him, and looked at Jacob and Quil, standing awkward and out of place bởi the door with Mr. Blair. “Ms. Swan,” Mr. Blair đã đưa ý kiến in a deep, gravelly voice, “I hope bạn are okay.” He looked at me with deep, dark eyes. Edward and Alice’s teeth clenched together simultaneously, but only the ma sói and I could hear it, the Người sói glared at Alice and Edward with malevolent stares, as Mr. Greene, Charlie and Mr. Blair were talking about how to get me to the hospital, and get my truck back safely home. The adults took their conversation outside, leaving me alone in the tiny, cramped, Nurses office, with two vampires, two ma sói and one human. Out of all of them, the human is the one I needed right now. I turned my head marginally to the side, to look at Angela, whose head was resting lightly on the cái gối, gối bởi my head. “Angela?” I asked, my voice croaking a little from disuse. Everyone moved closer around the giường at the sound of my voice. Angela sighed in reprieve at the sound of my voice and đã đưa ý kiến “Yes, Bella?” I looked into her dark eyes and asked the one thing I could get the truth from in this room, without someone blaming someone else. “What happened after I hit my head?” I tried to say it as loudly as I could, but that made me even thêm tired, ugh, I have a concussion, meaning Charlie will have to wake me up every two hours…again. Great. “Well,” Angela started looking around the room at the surrounding people. “What happened was¬¬¬¬¬--" Jacob and Edward started at the same time. “I đã đưa ý kiến ‘Angela’!” putting as much venom as I could into the sentence, even though I was tired, it came out fiercer than I’d planed. Everyone looked at me, astonished. “Um, well, bạn were on the floor, and everyone crowded around you, making sure bạn were okay,” she stated quickly glancing around the room at the different faces all watching my response. “Alice went and got the nurse, and Edward went to where bạn were, he was panicking, afraid bạn were badly hurt. But when he touched your forehead, he froze, and Jacob đã đưa ý kiến something, I didn’t hear what. Edward and Jacob were both on their feet then, looking as though they wanted to rip each others throats out.” She laughed nervously. “They started shouting things at each other, like ‘leech’ and ‘dog’ which I frankly don’t get, but then, Mr. Greene and Mr. Blair separated them, and bạn were brought here.” She finished with a shrug. I nodded slowly. Looking around the room again, I saw them all look at Angela with anxiety on their expressions. I sat up, wincing as it hurt my head. Edward’s hand was on my shoulder, trying to push be back down on the pillow. “Bella, love, lie down, you’ll get dizzy.” He đã đưa ý kiến in his most soothing tone. I ignored him and shrugged off his hand and tried to stand up. I grabbed Angela for support, and she helped me to my feet. “Dad?” I called as loudly as I could. Charlie hurried in the room, with Mr.’s. Greene and Blair on his heels. “My head hurts,” I đã đưa ý kiến lamely. “Can we go to the hospital now?” he nodded and relieved Angela from her duty of holding me up and helped me to the door. “Wait,” I đã đưa ý kiến as we were at the door. “What about my truck?” Charlie looked over our shoulders, so did I, as Edward said, “I’ll take it trang chủ for you, Bella.” He đã đưa ý kiến in a helpful tone, but the sadness still plain on his face. “You go get Carlisle to look at your head, and get better okay?” I nodded unconcerned bởi the throbbing in my head. I had an idea.
Carlisle.
He would tell me why they were leaving, and why they would be gone for so long. The trip to the hospital was a quiet one.
Except for the occasional “Are bạn okay honey?” it was completely silent. When we got to the hospital, Carlisle was with another patient, but the nurse told us he wouldn’t be long. I sat down in the waiting room, while Charlie stayed at the counter filling out the paper work. “Ah, Charlie,” I heard Carlisle’s voice say, in a warm cheery, manner. “I heard the chief was in and looking for me. What can I do for you?” I heard the papers shuffle and the pen Charlie was using fall to the ground.
“Uh, it’s not me that needs attending to.” Charlie đã đưa ý kiến in a gruff voice. “Bella hit her head on the corner of a chair at school this morning and they school nurse thinks she needs stitches, so I brought her here to you, so bạn can check. She’s in the waiting room over there.” I heard Charlie grab the paper and walk towards where I was sitting quietly.
“Well, we did hit our head didn’t we?” Carlisle asked a slight hint of amusement in his voice. “Well, follow me Bella, so we can get bạn cleaned up and stitched up.” He held out his hand to help me up, I took it gratefully, as I had already fallen over once today, and these weren’t the highest chairs around. “I’ll be just out here Bells,” Charlie đã đưa ý kiến wistfully, trying to fill out the paper work as quickly as he could.
Charlie hates hospitals.
Carlisle led me towards an empty room, already stacked with the cleaning supplies for my head and needle and thread. I paused in the doorway and stared at Carlisle. He smiled at me sheepishly. “Um, Edward called.”
I sighed and sat down on the bed. Carlisle went to work at once cleaning the wound, the prepping it for sewing it up. “So,” I asked trying to sound as off hand as I could. “Are bạn gonna tell me why your leaving again?” He paused in the act of numbing my forehead, and looked me in the eyes. I just sat there staring right back, I could feel the tears welling up inside my eye lids, and he just nodded. “Well, someone really should.” He đã đưa ý kiến rather to himself than to me. “Our Những người bạn in Denali, they’ve had some trouble up there from a bunch of new vampires, stationed very near to them, in their remote little town.” He looked at me evenly before getting back to work. “They have been feeding off people in town, making our presence known to the world. But there is not enough of the Denali tribe to get rid of them. So, being the kind creatures we are, we offered to help. So in a week, my family and the Quileute’s will be heading to—” I stiffened and gasped, “The Quileute’s?!” I was beyond angry now. Why had no one told me? Carlisle looked down, knowing that he had đã đưa ý kiến to much, pretending to pay a lot of attention to the needle and tread he was about to use on my head. “How long have bạn known about this?” I đã đưa ý kiến trying to control my voice as much as possible. “How long have bạn known that bạn are gonna have to leave?”
He didn’t answer straight away. He concentrated on the syringe he put to my forehead, to numb it for the sewing part. He sighed and đã đưa ý kiến “We’ve known we would have to leave again for a couple of months.” He admitted sadly.
“How many months?” I whispered but the agony still clear as a chuông, bell in my subdued voice. He looked at me, and saw the tears running down my face and said, “5 months.”
I looked down, at a loss of what to say. Edward and the rest of the Cullen’s have known that they would be leaving gain for the past 5 months. They had only been back 7 months. “We will be coming back though,” Carlisle đã đưa ý kiến quickly, trying to stop the tears that were running silently down my face. “You wont be able to get rid of us that quickly.” He added jokingly. I didn’t say anything. I just let him work on my head, until Charlie came in and đã đưa ý kiến that as soon as Carlisle was done we were set to go home. Carlisle finished up and offered me his hand again, this time I ignored it and got to my feet on my own. Carlisle walked us to the door, with Charlie thanking him just behind me. “Bella?” I turned and saw that both Charlie and Carlisle had paused. “Don’t bạn have something to say to Carlisle?” He asked me with deliberate intent clear in his gruff voice. I looked from Charlie’s face to Carlisle’s apologetic expression, then I dropped my gaze and đã đưa ý kiến in a clear, quiet voice, “Thank you, Dr. Cullen.” And turned and headed to the exit. I heard Charlie splutter behind me. Usually I always called Carlisle, Carlisle, but because I didn’t today, made Charlie’s radar go up. “Is she okay?” I heard him whisper to Carlisle, before I headed out the door, trying to get away from what I didn’t want to hear, however being human means being slow, so I heard Carlisle reply, “I hope so. I really do hope so.”
When we got home, I told Charlie that I was tired and that I was going to and get some sleep, which wasn’t a lie at all. As I headed up the stairs I saw a flash of white scaling up the tường of the garage, up near my bedroom at super speed. I paused, thinking about what to do next, then I turned around and went to the lounge room, where Charlie was setting up a movie to watch.
“I thought bạn were going to bed?” he đã đưa ý kiến surprised to find me in the room I rarely went into.
“I was,” I started trying to figure out an excuse as to why I was down hear, when inspiration hit. “But, I don’t really want to be alone right now dad. So is it okay if I sit here with bạn for a while?” I asked uncertainly. Charlie looked stunned. I had never wanted to sit in the lounge room and watch a movie with him before. The most time I spent with him in the week was when we ate dinner.
“Uh, sure thing kiddo.” He đã đưa ý kiến moving over to let me sit down tiếp theo to him. As I sat down, I put my arm around him and hugged him, in a way that I hadn’t hugged him before.
Again this seemed to shock him. I felt like a little girl again, when I used to hug him when I had a bad dream and he would chase away the nightmares. That’s what I really needed: Someone to chase this nightmare away. He hugged me back, awkwardly, but lovingly. This was a nightmare. My boyfriend, tình yêu of my life, meaning of my existence, and his family were leaving me again, for god knows how long. Not only that, they were taking my best friend, my sun, the one who didn’t treat me special hoặc differently, and his Những người bạn were going to risk their lives with the Cullen’s on this adventure.
I nearly died when they left last time, but then I had Jacob. He helped me in so many ways, I would always be eternally grateful towards him for that. Yet, now, they were both going. What would I do without them? I didn’t want to hear they ‘how’s’ and ‘whys’ of the situation, I didn’t t want there to be a situation at all. So I hugged myself closer to m y dad, and let the nightmare end and the dream begin while fresh tears dripped down my cold, hollow cheeks.
I was groggy. It wasn’t late, I could see the sun still, but I couldn’t feel my dad tiếp theo to me anymore. I opened my eyes, and looked around the room. How had I got into my room? I felt something cold on my forehead, and I sat up so fast im surprised Edward didn’t fall to the ground hoặc myself for that matter.
“Sorry,” he whispered. “I didn’t mean to scare you.” I stared at him, with the tears not yet dried on my face. His face was tortured; I could see that he didn’t want to hurt me, any thêm than I wanted to hurt him. I cleared my throat quietly and moved into a slightly thêm dignified sitting position on my giường and looked him dead on. He didn’t make any di chuyển to grab me when I moved out of his arms to sit across from him. He wouldn’t stop me if I wanted to go.
“When do bạn leave?” I asked trying to mask the pain coursing through the words I said. Edward could hear it, even though I barely could. Plus it didn’t help that my voice broke twice. “We go in a week.” He was trying to hold my gaze as I looked down to stop the tears from falling stopping my talking, and I wasn’t going to cry until I got some answers.
“Your coming back?” I asked, still looking at my quilt, even though I knew the answer, I’d heard it from Alice and Carlisle, yet I needed to hear it from Edward as well. “Of course, Bella! How could I not?!” I heard the anguish in his voice and knew that he meant it, but it didn’t help the pain that he was still leaving me, to go help a vampire who had a crush on him since 1937.
“If it were up to me, I wouldn’t go. I would stay here with you, to protect bạn and keep bạn safe. But it’s not up to me, and I have to go. We owe the Denali’s a favor and this is the one time where they’ve used it…and it applies to all of us.” He added bitterly. I looked up now, and saw that he wasn’t happy about the fact that he would be with Tanya instead of me. That made me almost want to smile. Almost. He sighed in relief when he caught my gaze and I didn’t turn away.
“A-and Jacob and the pack has to go with you?” I asked timidly. I hadn’t spoken to Jake in about 6 weeks. Since Edward made La Push a danger zone, and I couldn’t get away enough, but I still cared about him and his pack brothers. Edward nodded stiffly, “The Quileute’s owe us too, so the Denali’s aren’t the only ones using I.O.U.’s lately. Jacob and I have both tried to stay behind to protect you, but the others all think bạn can take care of yourself for a couple of months…”he shook his head bitterly. “Frankly, I’m thinking about taking bạn with us, but that would just cause trouble.”
I nodded staring out of the window. My eyes were swimming in moisture again, so I kept staring away when I asked, “You’ll be careful right?” this time my voice broke 3 times. He grabbed my face in his hands, and made me face him, the tears rolling down my face again. He pulled my face towards his and kissed me, it wasn’t as guarded as usual. His fingers knotted in my hair and his lips were urgent as they crushed mine. When I started to get dizzy he pulled me away from his face and held me close, tucking my head under his chest, while he whispered softly, “I’ll be back as soon as I can. I will be careful, so I can see bạn again. This wont be the last time bạn see me Bella. I will be back to protect you, hold bạn and tình yêu you.” He đã đưa ý kiến that so passionately it was hard to keep a steady rhythm beating of my heart. He started humming my lullaby and held me closer as unconsciousness came and I dreamed unhappy dreams, where I wandered the forest alone.
I could hear people talking outside in the hallway. The voices sounded confused and angry. I strained to hear harder. “Mr. Cullen, I don’t care whether Ms. thiên nga is your girlfriend hoặc not,” Mr. Greene was saying in a stern voice. “You don’t start fights with anyone at this school. Especially the new ones who don’t know the rules yet!” he đã đưa ý kiến fuming. I heard Mr. Blair across the other side of the tiny office saying similar things to someone else, I tried to hear, but in my attempts, my eyes opened, and I saw Charlie sitting bởi the door with an upset look on his face. When he was that my eyes were open, he pretty much flew to the side of my cot, grabbed my hands and held them too tight. “Bella!” he said, the relief was strong in his voice. “How’s your head? Does it hurt? bạn have to go and get some stitches, but other than that, there doesn’t seem to be anything wrong.” I heard the emotion he tried so hard to contain burning with every word he said. All of a sudden the door opened and Mr. Greene, Mr. Blair, Angela, Alice, Edward, Jacob and Quil came through the door. Alice and Angela went straight to my other side and each found a part of me to hug. “Oh my god, Bella, we were so scared!” Angela was crying, and hugging my neck too tight. “When we brought bạn here and bạn didn’t open your eyes, we thought something happened!” bạn could see the relief on her face too. Alice seemed just as relieved. “We’re so glad your okay, Bella.” She said, in a reassured yet subdued tone. I glanced at her, then at Edward, Jacob and Quil. When I caught eyes with Edward, I remembered what Alice had told me. I took a long deep breath, which came out as a sob. Edward’s eyes widened in sadness and shook is head at me. I knew he would tell me later. But the câu hỏi was: would I listen? I turned my gaze away from him, and looked at Jacob and Quil, standing awkward and out of place bởi the door with Mr. Blair. “Ms. Swan,” Mr. Blair đã đưa ý kiến in a deep, gravelly voice, “I hope bạn are okay.” He looked at me with deep, dark eyes. Edward and Alice’s teeth clenched together simultaneously, but only the ma sói and I could hear it, the Người sói glared at Alice and Edward with malevolent stares, as Mr. Greene, Charlie and Mr. Blair were talking about how to get me to the hospital, and get my truck back safely home. The adults took their conversation outside, leaving me alone in the tiny, cramped, Nurses office, with two vampires, two ma sói and one human. Out of all of them, the human is the one I needed right now. I turned my head marginally to the side, to look at Angela, whose head was resting lightly on the cái gối, gối bởi my head. “Angela?” I asked, my voice croaking a little from disuse. Everyone moved closer around the giường at the sound of my voice. Angela sighed in reprieve at the sound of my voice and đã đưa ý kiến “Yes, Bella?” I looked into her dark eyes and asked the one thing I could get the truth from in this room, without someone blaming someone else. “What happened after I hit my head?” I tried to say it as loudly as I could, but that made me even thêm tired, ugh, I have a concussion, meaning Charlie will have to wake me up every two hours…again. Great. “Well,” Angela started looking around the room at the surrounding people. “What happened was¬¬¬¬¬--" Jacob and Edward started at the same time. “I đã đưa ý kiến ‘Angela’!” putting as much venom as I could into the sentence, even though I was tired, it came out fiercer than I’d planed. Everyone looked at me, astonished. “Um, well, bạn were on the floor, and everyone crowded around you, making sure bạn were okay,” she stated quickly glancing around the room at the different faces all watching my response. “Alice went and got the nurse, and Edward went to where bạn were, he was panicking, afraid bạn were badly hurt. But when he touched your forehead, he froze, and Jacob đã đưa ý kiến something, I didn’t hear what. Edward and Jacob were both on their feet then, looking as though they wanted to rip each others throats out.” She laughed nervously. “They started shouting things at each other, like ‘leech’ and ‘dog’ which I frankly don’t get, but then, Mr. Greene and Mr. Blair separated them, and bạn were brought here.” She finished with a shrug. I nodded slowly. Looking around the room again, I saw them all look at Angela with anxiety on their expressions. I sat up, wincing as it hurt my head. Edward’s hand was on my shoulder, trying to push be back down on the pillow. “Bella, love, lie down, you’ll get dizzy.” He đã đưa ý kiến in his most soothing tone. I ignored him and shrugged off his hand and tried to stand up. I grabbed Angela for support, and she helped me to my feet. “Dad?” I called as loudly as I could. Charlie hurried in the room, with Mr.’s. Greene and Blair on his heels. “My head hurts,” I đã đưa ý kiến lamely. “Can we go to the hospital now?” he nodded and relieved Angela from her duty of holding me up and helped me to the door. “Wait,” I đã đưa ý kiến as we were at the door. “What about my truck?” Charlie looked over our shoulders, so did I, as Edward said, “I’ll take it trang chủ for you, Bella.” He đã đưa ý kiến in a helpful tone, but the sadness still plain on his face. “You go get Carlisle to look at your head, and get better okay?” I nodded unconcerned bởi the throbbing in my head. I had an idea.
Carlisle.
He would tell me why they were leaving, and why they would be gone for so long. The trip to the hospital was a quiet one.
Except for the occasional “Are bạn okay honey?” it was completely silent. When we got to the hospital, Carlisle was with another patient, but the nurse told us he wouldn’t be long. I sat down in the waiting room, while Charlie stayed at the counter filling out the paper work. “Ah, Charlie,” I heard Carlisle’s voice say, in a warm cheery, manner. “I heard the chief was in and looking for me. What can I do for you?” I heard the papers shuffle and the pen Charlie was using fall to the ground.
“Uh, it’s not me that needs attending to.” Charlie đã đưa ý kiến in a gruff voice. “Bella hit her head on the corner of a chair at school this morning and they school nurse thinks she needs stitches, so I brought her here to you, so bạn can check. She’s in the waiting room over there.” I heard Charlie grab the paper and walk towards where I was sitting quietly.
“Well, we did hit our head didn’t we?” Carlisle asked a slight hint of amusement in his voice. “Well, follow me Bella, so we can get bạn cleaned up and stitched up.” He held out his hand to help me up, I took it gratefully, as I had already fallen over once today, and these weren’t the highest chairs around. “I’ll be just out here Bells,” Charlie đã đưa ý kiến wistfully, trying to fill out the paper work as quickly as he could.
Charlie hates hospitals.
Carlisle led me towards an empty room, already stacked with the cleaning supplies for my head and needle and thread. I paused in the doorway and stared at Carlisle. He smiled at me sheepishly. “Um, Edward called.”
I sighed and sat down on the bed. Carlisle went to work at once cleaning the wound, the prepping it for sewing it up. “So,” I asked trying to sound as off hand as I could. “Are bạn gonna tell me why your leaving again?” He paused in the act of numbing my forehead, and looked me in the eyes. I just sat there staring right back, I could feel the tears welling up inside my eye lids, and he just nodded. “Well, someone really should.” He đã đưa ý kiến rather to himself than to me. “Our Những người bạn in Denali, they’ve had some trouble up there from a bunch of new vampires, stationed very near to them, in their remote little town.” He looked at me evenly before getting back to work. “They have been feeding off people in town, making our presence known to the world. But there is not enough of the Denali tribe to get rid of them. So, being the kind creatures we are, we offered to help. So in a week, my family and the Quileute’s will be heading to—” I stiffened and gasped, “The Quileute’s?!” I was beyond angry now. Why had no one told me? Carlisle looked down, knowing that he had đã đưa ý kiến to much, pretending to pay a lot of attention to the needle and tread he was about to use on my head. “How long have bạn known about this?” I đã đưa ý kiến trying to control my voice as much as possible. “How long have bạn known that bạn are gonna have to leave?”
He didn’t answer straight away. He concentrated on the syringe he put to my forehead, to numb it for the sewing part. He sighed and đã đưa ý kiến “We’ve known we would have to leave again for a couple of months.” He admitted sadly.
“How many months?” I whispered but the agony still clear as a chuông, bell in my subdued voice. He looked at me, and saw the tears running down my face and said, “5 months.”
I looked down, at a loss of what to say. Edward and the rest of the Cullen’s have known that they would be leaving gain for the past 5 months. They had only been back 7 months. “We will be coming back though,” Carlisle đã đưa ý kiến quickly, trying to stop the tears that were running silently down my face. “You wont be able to get rid of us that quickly.” He added jokingly. I didn’t say anything. I just let him work on my head, until Charlie came in and đã đưa ý kiến that as soon as Carlisle was done we were set to go home. Carlisle finished up and offered me his hand again, this time I ignored it and got to my feet on my own. Carlisle walked us to the door, with Charlie thanking him just behind me. “Bella?” I turned and saw that both Charlie and Carlisle had paused. “Don’t bạn have something to say to Carlisle?” He asked me with deliberate intent clear in his gruff voice. I looked from Charlie’s face to Carlisle’s apologetic expression, then I dropped my gaze and đã đưa ý kiến in a clear, quiet voice, “Thank you, Dr. Cullen.” And turned and headed to the exit. I heard Charlie splutter behind me. Usually I always called Carlisle, Carlisle, but because I didn’t today, made Charlie’s radar go up. “Is she okay?” I heard him whisper to Carlisle, before I headed out the door, trying to get away from what I didn’t want to hear, however being human means being slow, so I heard Carlisle reply, “I hope so. I really do hope so.”
When we got home, I told Charlie that I was tired and that I was going to and get some sleep, which wasn’t a lie at all. As I headed up the stairs I saw a flash of white scaling up the tường of the garage, up near my bedroom at super speed. I paused, thinking about what to do next, then I turned around and went to the lounge room, where Charlie was setting up a movie to watch.
“I thought bạn were going to bed?” he đã đưa ý kiến surprised to find me in the room I rarely went into.
“I was,” I started trying to figure out an excuse as to why I was down hear, when inspiration hit. “But, I don’t really want to be alone right now dad. So is it okay if I sit here with bạn for a while?” I asked uncertainly. Charlie looked stunned. I had never wanted to sit in the lounge room and watch a movie with him before. The most time I spent with him in the week was when we ate dinner.
“Uh, sure thing kiddo.” He đã đưa ý kiến moving over to let me sit down tiếp theo to him. As I sat down, I put my arm around him and hugged him, in a way that I hadn’t hugged him before.
Again this seemed to shock him. I felt like a little girl again, when I used to hug him when I had a bad dream and he would chase away the nightmares. That’s what I really needed: Someone to chase this nightmare away. He hugged me back, awkwardly, but lovingly. This was a nightmare. My boyfriend, tình yêu of my life, meaning of my existence, and his family were leaving me again, for god knows how long. Not only that, they were taking my best friend, my sun, the one who didn’t treat me special hoặc differently, and his Những người bạn were going to risk their lives with the Cullen’s on this adventure.
I nearly died when they left last time, but then I had Jacob. He helped me in so many ways, I would always be eternally grateful towards him for that. Yet, now, they were both going. What would I do without them? I didn’t want to hear they ‘how’s’ and ‘whys’ of the situation, I didn’t t want there to be a situation at all. So I hugged myself closer to m y dad, and let the nightmare end and the dream begin while fresh tears dripped down my cold, hollow cheeks.
I was groggy. It wasn’t late, I could see the sun still, but I couldn’t feel my dad tiếp theo to me anymore. I opened my eyes, and looked around the room. How had I got into my room? I felt something cold on my forehead, and I sat up so fast im surprised Edward didn’t fall to the ground hoặc myself for that matter.
“Sorry,” he whispered. “I didn’t mean to scare you.” I stared at him, with the tears not yet dried on my face. His face was tortured; I could see that he didn’t want to hurt me, any thêm than I wanted to hurt him. I cleared my throat quietly and moved into a slightly thêm dignified sitting position on my giường and looked him dead on. He didn’t make any di chuyển to grab me when I moved out of his arms to sit across from him. He wouldn’t stop me if I wanted to go.
“When do bạn leave?” I asked trying to mask the pain coursing through the words I said. Edward could hear it, even though I barely could. Plus it didn’t help that my voice broke twice. “We go in a week.” He was trying to hold my gaze as I looked down to stop the tears from falling stopping my talking, and I wasn’t going to cry until I got some answers.
“Your coming back?” I asked, still looking at my quilt, even though I knew the answer, I’d heard it from Alice and Carlisle, yet I needed to hear it from Edward as well. “Of course, Bella! How could I not?!” I heard the anguish in his voice and knew that he meant it, but it didn’t help the pain that he was still leaving me, to go help a vampire who had a crush on him since 1937.
“If it were up to me, I wouldn’t go. I would stay here with you, to protect bạn and keep bạn safe. But it’s not up to me, and I have to go. We owe the Denali’s a favor and this is the one time where they’ve used it…and it applies to all of us.” He added bitterly. I looked up now, and saw that he wasn’t happy about the fact that he would be with Tanya instead of me. That made me almost want to smile. Almost. He sighed in relief when he caught my gaze and I didn’t turn away.
“A-and Jacob and the pack has to go with you?” I asked timidly. I hadn’t spoken to Jake in about 6 weeks. Since Edward made La Push a danger zone, and I couldn’t get away enough, but I still cared about him and his pack brothers. Edward nodded stiffly, “The Quileute’s owe us too, so the Denali’s aren’t the only ones using I.O.U.’s lately. Jacob and I have both tried to stay behind to protect you, but the others all think bạn can take care of yourself for a couple of months…”he shook his head bitterly. “Frankly, I’m thinking about taking bạn with us, but that would just cause trouble.”
I nodded staring out of the window. My eyes were swimming in moisture again, so I kept staring away when I asked, “You’ll be careful right?” this time my voice broke 3 times. He grabbed my face in his hands, and made me face him, the tears rolling down my face again. He pulled my face towards his and kissed me, it wasn’t as guarded as usual. His fingers knotted in my hair and his lips were urgent as they crushed mine. When I started to get dizzy he pulled me away from his face and held me close, tucking my head under his chest, while he whispered softly, “I’ll be back as soon as I can. I will be careful, so I can see bạn again. This wont be the last time bạn see me Bella. I will be back to protect you, hold bạn and tình yêu you.” He đã đưa ý kiến that so passionately it was hard to keep a steady rhythm beating of my heart. He started humming my lullaby and held me closer as unconsciousness came and I dreamed unhappy dreams, where I wandered the forest alone.
When we reached my trang chủ mason was crying and reenesme was trying to comfort her little brother.Alice and esme were talking very fast so I only caught little bits and pieces of the conversation .But it seemed that we were going to have to wait till edward and jacob and the other boys came back.while esme and alice were disscussing the subject reenesme and i were trying to comfort mason.At the same time i was worriying about edward I noticed reenesme looked very deep in thought.Then alll of the sudden esme is calling me ,my daughter,and my son to come quickly.Whehn we got there alice looked like she would be crying if she could cry.When I asked her what was wrong all she managed to choke out was Edward.Imediatly I knew something very bad had happened.
edwards pov
' rachell u look beautifull i đã đưa ý kiến ' then she blushed ' i tình yêu u' i đã đưa ý kiến scared a little for her reaction she looked at me and đã đưa ý kiến 'i tình yêu bạn two ' ' do u mind missing school today ' sure no prob ' what do u want to do edward ' well i wanna take u to this medow remeber how i đã đưa ý kiến i needed to tell u somthing ' yes ' well it is time ' ok ' dont be scared ' ok ' do u trust me ' yes ' ok well lets go 5 phút later we r here so i want u to close ur eyes and hop on my bac ok ' ok y ' ull see w.e and she climed on ur eyes closed yes y r u so cold ull figure it out ' ok ' then we were there and i took her off my back and đã đưa ý kiến stand over there ok she said.
' rachell u look beautifull i đã đưa ý kiến ' then she blushed ' i tình yêu u' i đã đưa ý kiến scared a little for her reaction she looked at me and đã đưa ý kiến 'i tình yêu bạn two ' ' do u mind missing school today ' sure no prob ' what do u want to do edward ' well i wanna take u to this medow remeber how i đã đưa ý kiến i needed to tell u somthing ' yes ' well it is time ' ok ' dont be scared ' ok ' do u trust me ' yes ' ok well lets go 5 phút later we r here so i want u to close ur eyes and hop on my bac ok ' ok y ' ull see w.e and she climed on ur eyes closed yes y r u so cold ull figure it out ' ok ' then we were there and i took her off my back and đã đưa ý kiến stand over there ok she said.
