I got back to the house 6 hours later. I hugged everyone and told them sorry for freaking out. They all đã đưa ý kiến it was okay and that it happens. I went outside to call Nathens cellphone and he didn't answer. I left him a voicemail saying:
Hey, Its Addi.
I'm sorry for frreaking out on bạn and I'm sorry that, I just didn't know what to do. Thanks for looking out for me, your the best.
I hung up and waited for his call back. I went to get something good to eat and to drink and then went and take a shower. it felt good to take a hot shower. It was getting late and I still hadn't heard from Nathen yet. I was getting worried, so I called him again.
xin chào its me again. I started off with.
I just wanted to see what bạn were doing and that I'm really really sorry about the past few days amd that um im just sorry. Please call and let me know that your okay hoặc an toàn, két an toàn hoặc just to talk please. I đã đưa ý kiến bye and then hung the phone up.
I went to school the following morning and Nathen wasn't anywhere at school. After lunch I decided to skip the rest of the ngày and see if I could find Nathen. I went to Jacobs house and ask if he had heard hoặc seen Nathen. he đã đưa ý kiến no but he was going to turn all wolfy and ask the other guys.
He came back with 5 phút and he đã đưa ý kiến that none of them had seen hoặc heard from him. I đã đưa ý kiến thanks and bye and the left. I got really scared I drove around town and then I went to sit bởi the beach. I notice that a bunch of guys were jumping off the cliff, it looked really fun. I drove up to the hàng đầu, đầu trang of the cliff and went and stood not that close to the edge. I was sorta afraid of heights. I hadn't been in the water sinse Max had came and rescued me. I sat on the edge of the cliff and just started thinking. I thought about Nathen and if he was okay and why I just didn't jump off the cliff like the other guys did. I stood up careful and then all of the sudden the cliff broke right under me. I started falling, I remember in my Coast Guard training that bạn never want to fall to your side hoặc back hoặc butt, bạn want to fall like standing straight up. I tried to get in a standing straight but I couldn't I was falling to my shoulder, I hit the water hard harder than when the vamp let me fall to the ground the other day. Once I reserfaced to the hàng đầu, đầu trang of the water I noticed people standing on the beach. I started swimming to the bờ biển and got there pretty quickly. Once I got there I had people asking me if I was ok and I told them yes. I started walking back to my motorcycle when I saw Nathen walking the oppisite dirrection from the cliff.
Nathen. I yelled. He didn't stop he kept walking.
Nathen I secreamed louder. No answer. I started crying a little bit he was really mad at me. Nathen I đã đưa ý kiến in a wisper and then I yelled Nathen as loud as I could crying it wasn't loud enough for someone that far off to hear but I knew he heard it and all the other calls I yelled.
I stood there drippng wet until he turned around and saw me. Nathen, I đã đưa ý kiến quietly again. He walked over not a xin chào hoặc anything he just đã đưa ý kiến What.
Luckly no one was around now.
No one is getting older except me and I... I trailed off hoping that he would understand what I was saying.
Okay, sorry bạn are all wet. Nathen đã đưa ý kiến as he turned around and started walking again.
I started running after him and said;
This is why I don't open up easily to anyone, because stupid guys like bạn come and like me and then they shut me out of their lives and it creates a bottomless pit and its hard to fill it back up. I said/ yelled.
Nathen kept walking and I stood there for a really long time. When I finally collected all my thoughts Jacob was standing beside me.
how long have bạn been here? I ask.
Few minutes. Jacob said.
Oh, I was just looking at the pretty woods. I told him.
I don't think so. He said.
Tears started forming in my eyes again. I đã đưa ý kiến I was sorry, I know he is mad but I have told him sorry a lot and I don't know what else to do. I said.
Its ok he will come around.. Jacob said.
Jacob pulled me into a hug, I couldn't help the tears now, they were pouring dwon my face. I didn't know what to say. I just stood there in Jacobs arms.
I tried to explain to him why I didn't let him in so fast, but he didn't listen to me. I told Jacob.
It will be okay Addi. He said.
bạn must be cold, Jacob đã đưa ý kiến he gave me his áo len thun, áo len, sweatshirt that he was wearing.
Thanks I said.
Lets get bạn home. Jaocb said.
He gave me a piggy back ride up to my motorcycle and then he got on and then I got on and he drove me home. When I got trang chủ it was dark and I went straight upstairs to get into the shower. Once I got out Jacob was still downstairs playing with Nessie and I went to find Alice.
xin chào Alice. I said.
xin chào Addi, I heard what happened. Im sorry. Alice told me.
Yeah me too. I told her.
ITs gonna be fine though. She said.
Hope so, Why have I always went for a wolf? I ask jokingly.
I don't know Addi. Alice said.
Thanks for looking out for me. I said.
No problem. She said. I don't mind at all.
Well I'm goning to bed, goodnight, tình yêu you. I said.
goodnight, tình yêu bạn too. Alice said.
I walked into the living room and told everyone goodnight and I told Jacob thanks. Renesme gave me a hug before I went upstairs and she showed me Nathen was in my room, but I took it as she has seen him in there before.
I went upstairs and open my door and Nathen was sitting on the edge of my bed.
Gosh, can't bạn come through a door, bạn scared me. I told him.
Sorry, I'm sorry for not listening bạn today at the beach. Nathen told me.
Yeah me too. I đã đưa ý kiến as I was walking to my bathroom.
I changed into my pajamas and brushed my teeth then went to get on my bed.
I'm sorry I freaked out the other day. I said.
Its okay, its not your fault I started it and bạn shouldn't feel like we have to protect bạn all the time, bạn are a big girl. He said.
How can I stay mad at you?. I said.
bạn can't, to anyone either. Nathen said.
I know. I đã đưa ý kiến as I crawled on my giường to him.
He kissed me on the lips and then I layed down and he layed beside me.
One question, I said. Why didn't bạn answer my call?
I was mad at bạn for freaking out and then yelling at running away from me on the interstate. He told me.
I'm soo sorry I told him.
Me too. tình yêu you. He said.
tình yêu bạn too, goodnight. I said.
goodnight. He đã đưa ý kiến
Hey, Its Addi.
I'm sorry for frreaking out on bạn and I'm sorry that, I just didn't know what to do. Thanks for looking out for me, your the best.
I hung up and waited for his call back. I went to get something good to eat and to drink and then went and take a shower. it felt good to take a hot shower. It was getting late and I still hadn't heard from Nathen yet. I was getting worried, so I called him again.
xin chào its me again. I started off with.
I just wanted to see what bạn were doing and that I'm really really sorry about the past few days amd that um im just sorry. Please call and let me know that your okay hoặc an toàn, két an toàn hoặc just to talk please. I đã đưa ý kiến bye and then hung the phone up.
I went to school the following morning and Nathen wasn't anywhere at school. After lunch I decided to skip the rest of the ngày and see if I could find Nathen. I went to Jacobs house and ask if he had heard hoặc seen Nathen. he đã đưa ý kiến no but he was going to turn all wolfy and ask the other guys.
He came back with 5 phút and he đã đưa ý kiến that none of them had seen hoặc heard from him. I đã đưa ý kiến thanks and bye and the left. I got really scared I drove around town and then I went to sit bởi the beach. I notice that a bunch of guys were jumping off the cliff, it looked really fun. I drove up to the hàng đầu, đầu trang of the cliff and went and stood not that close to the edge. I was sorta afraid of heights. I hadn't been in the water sinse Max had came and rescued me. I sat on the edge of the cliff and just started thinking. I thought about Nathen and if he was okay and why I just didn't jump off the cliff like the other guys did. I stood up careful and then all of the sudden the cliff broke right under me. I started falling, I remember in my Coast Guard training that bạn never want to fall to your side hoặc back hoặc butt, bạn want to fall like standing straight up. I tried to get in a standing straight but I couldn't I was falling to my shoulder, I hit the water hard harder than when the vamp let me fall to the ground the other day. Once I reserfaced to the hàng đầu, đầu trang of the water I noticed people standing on the beach. I started swimming to the bờ biển and got there pretty quickly. Once I got there I had people asking me if I was ok and I told them yes. I started walking back to my motorcycle when I saw Nathen walking the oppisite dirrection from the cliff.
Nathen. I yelled. He didn't stop he kept walking.
Nathen I secreamed louder. No answer. I started crying a little bit he was really mad at me. Nathen I đã đưa ý kiến in a wisper and then I yelled Nathen as loud as I could crying it wasn't loud enough for someone that far off to hear but I knew he heard it and all the other calls I yelled.
I stood there drippng wet until he turned around and saw me. Nathen, I đã đưa ý kiến quietly again. He walked over not a xin chào hoặc anything he just đã đưa ý kiến What.
Luckly no one was around now.
No one is getting older except me and I... I trailed off hoping that he would understand what I was saying.
Okay, sorry bạn are all wet. Nathen đã đưa ý kiến as he turned around and started walking again.
I started running after him and said;
This is why I don't open up easily to anyone, because stupid guys like bạn come and like me and then they shut me out of their lives and it creates a bottomless pit and its hard to fill it back up. I said/ yelled.
Nathen kept walking and I stood there for a really long time. When I finally collected all my thoughts Jacob was standing beside me.
how long have bạn been here? I ask.
Few minutes. Jacob said.
Oh, I was just looking at the pretty woods. I told him.
I don't think so. He said.
Tears started forming in my eyes again. I đã đưa ý kiến I was sorry, I know he is mad but I have told him sorry a lot and I don't know what else to do. I said.
Its ok he will come around.. Jacob said.
Jacob pulled me into a hug, I couldn't help the tears now, they were pouring dwon my face. I didn't know what to say. I just stood there in Jacobs arms.
I tried to explain to him why I didn't let him in so fast, but he didn't listen to me. I told Jacob.
It will be okay Addi. He said.
bạn must be cold, Jacob đã đưa ý kiến he gave me his áo len thun, áo len, sweatshirt that he was wearing.
Thanks I said.
Lets get bạn home. Jaocb said.
He gave me a piggy back ride up to my motorcycle and then he got on and then I got on and he drove me home. When I got trang chủ it was dark and I went straight upstairs to get into the shower. Once I got out Jacob was still downstairs playing with Nessie and I went to find Alice.
xin chào Alice. I said.
xin chào Addi, I heard what happened. Im sorry. Alice told me.
Yeah me too. I told her.
ITs gonna be fine though. She said.
Hope so, Why have I always went for a wolf? I ask jokingly.
I don't know Addi. Alice said.
Thanks for looking out for me. I said.
No problem. She said. I don't mind at all.
Well I'm goning to bed, goodnight, tình yêu you. I said.
goodnight, tình yêu bạn too. Alice said.
I walked into the living room and told everyone goodnight and I told Jacob thanks. Renesme gave me a hug before I went upstairs and she showed me Nathen was in my room, but I took it as she has seen him in there before.
I went upstairs and open my door and Nathen was sitting on the edge of my bed.
Gosh, can't bạn come through a door, bạn scared me. I told him.
Sorry, I'm sorry for not listening bạn today at the beach. Nathen told me.
Yeah me too. I đã đưa ý kiến as I was walking to my bathroom.
I changed into my pajamas and brushed my teeth then went to get on my bed.
I'm sorry I freaked out the other day. I said.
Its okay, its not your fault I started it and bạn shouldn't feel like we have to protect bạn all the time, bạn are a big girl. He said.
How can I stay mad at you?. I said.
bạn can't, to anyone either. Nathen said.
I know. I đã đưa ý kiến as I crawled on my giường to him.
He kissed me on the lips and then I layed down and he layed beside me.
One question, I said. Why didn't bạn answer my call?
I was mad at bạn for freaking out and then yelling at running away from me on the interstate. He told me.
I'm soo sorry I told him.
Me too. tình yêu you. He said.
tình yêu bạn too, goodnight. I said.
goodnight. He đã đưa ý kiến
xin chào twi-fans, after seeing New Moon in theaters we all want 2 see it again right? well now there is a release ngày for the New Moon DVD: March 24, 2010!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! this is the prediction ngày not an official one, it is positive that it will be released early 2010. it is đã đưa ý kiến that it may be early cuz of the demand!!!!!!! right now some sites have New Moon available for pre-order!!!! so as of today-November 26, 2009-we have 119 days till New Moon is on DVD!!! oh and 217 days till Eclipse is in theaters!!!!
Preface
I had done it, all of it.
All of which I never wanted to do.
I had hurt her.
I had risked her life....again....
I had made her suffer.
I had caused her enough pain to last an eternity.
And here I was, getting ready to do give here more pain, getting ready to do what I always wanted and never wanted to do.
I took a deep breath, and the scent of her blood burned my throat like white hot knifes, though I did not have any urge to drink it.
Yes….This just proves it, I am a monster. How could I even think about my thirst when she was suffering because of me?
Because of me…yes, it’s entirely my fault.
I ignored the throbbing in my throat and injected the venom straight into her heart...the tim, trái tim which will stop beating soon, the tim, trái tim which was the reason for me to live, the tim, trái tim which she had được trao to me to keep an toàn, két an toàn just like how I had được trao her my silent heart, because of my selfishness, it was going to stop beating.....forever.
I had done it, all of it.
All of which I never wanted to do.
I had hurt her.
I had risked her life....again....
I had made her suffer.
I had caused her enough pain to last an eternity.
And here I was, getting ready to do give here more pain, getting ready to do what I always wanted and never wanted to do.
I took a deep breath, and the scent of her blood burned my throat like white hot knifes, though I did not have any urge to drink it.
Yes….This just proves it, I am a monster. How could I even think about my thirst when she was suffering because of me?
Because of me…yes, it’s entirely my fault.
I ignored the throbbing in my throat and injected the venom straight into her heart...the tim, trái tim which will stop beating soon, the tim, trái tim which was the reason for me to live, the tim, trái tim which she had được trao to me to keep an toàn, két an toàn just like how I had được trao her my silent heart, because of my selfishness, it was going to stop beating.....forever.
Okay so I was just looking through my pictures, and I found this:
I can't remember where I got it from (possibly edwardandbella.com?) but I just thought it as really interesting.
I mean look how small Alice is, when the book says she's small I didn't think she'd be that much smaller than Bella.
And look how tall Jacob is...hmm maybe he would win in a fight against Edward...maybe not, Edward is good at everything afterall.
So anyway, I just thought it would be useful for people who have trouble picturing the characters heights -like me :).
Tell me what bạn think- does it help at all??
I can't remember where I got it from (possibly edwardandbella.com?) but I just thought it as really interesting.
I mean look how small Alice is, when the book says she's small I didn't think she'd be that much smaller than Bella.
And look how tall Jacob is...hmm maybe he would win in a fight against Edward...maybe not, Edward is good at everything afterall.
So anyway, I just thought it would be useful for people who have trouble picturing the characters heights -like me :).
Tell me what bạn think- does it help at all??