Niall Horan Fanfic Chapter 21: My tim, trái tim Will Go On
    I couldn’t breathe. He must be lying. This couldn’t be happening right? I was asleep and this was a nightmare.
“You’re kidding right? Like this is all some joke. Niall it’s not funny. Stop.” I said.
“Hazel, I’m so sorry.” He đã đưa ý kiến his eyes were shining with tears.
“Niall?” I whispered and then I collapsed.
    My body folded over and my head fell into Niall’s lap. Niall and I had been the only ones on the bus, but I had a feeling that everyone else knew.
    I stayed like that for a while just sobbing into Niall. He rubbed my back and my head. I couldn’t believe my best friend had died. I didn’t even get to say goodbye.
    A little while later everyone else came on the bus. I was sitting with my head on my knees. I wasn’t crying anymore. It felt like I was living in a dead state. Nothing mattered. Harry came and sat tiếp theo to me.
“Hazel?” he đã đưa ý kiến questioningly.
I couldn’t speak, but I turned my head to him face him in response.
“I know you’re sad. But we are all here for bạn every step of the way. Not just Niall. bạn can come to any of us, for anything, whenever.” He đã đưa ý kiến putting his arm around me.
    I buried my head in his neck and cried. He pulled me into a hug and I hugged him back. I was sobbing again. I started to hyperventilate. I couldn’t breathe. How could everything have gone so wrong so fast?
    I somehow ended up in giường back at the hotel. I don’t know how hoặc when I got there, hoặc how hoặc when I was going to leave. How could I possibly perform, I couldn’t even breathe without thinking of Ally and how she should be here. Alive.
    There was a knock at the door. I couldn’t even get up to see who it was. Half of my life was missing. The knock got louder. I was starting to get really annoyed.
“Hazel!” someone shouted from outside the door.
“GO AWAY!” I screamed.
    The door opened and Niall walked in.
“Hazel, you’ve been in here for two weeks. When are bạn going to get up?” he đã đưa ý kiến sympathetically.
    I’d been here for two weeks. I thought I’d been here only one day. I didn’t know where time was going. I honestly didn’t care.
“You can talk to me bạn know.” Niall said. He looked sad.
“Yeah.” I đã đưa ý kiến nodding my head.
“Ally,” he đã đưa ý kiến pausing slightly to look up and see my reaction at the name, seeing I was okay he continued, “She, she would want bạn to be happy. To get up every ngày and live your life. Live for her Hazel. Moping around and stopping your life won’t bring her back. She loved bạn and would want bạn to go on, with hoặc without her. You’ll be okay. She’s somewhere up there watching over you.”
“Niall?” I đã đưa ý kiến half whispering.
“Yeah?” he answered.
“Will I ever be okay again?” I đã đưa ý kiến beginning to cry.
“Of course bạn will.” He đã đưa ý kiến grabbing me and pulling me into a hug.
    I buried my face in his arm. I cried softly. I could feel his tim, trái tim beating. I could feel the warmth of his skin on mine, his breath on my head as he exhaled. I took in his smell. He was here. I needed him.
“Niall?” I đã đưa ý kiến again.
“Yeah?” he answered again.
“Will I ever lose you?” I said.
“Hazel, no, just because Ally is gone doesn’t mean that everyone is going to die hoặc leave you.” He đã đưa ý kiến kissing my head.
“Niall, I tình yêu you.” I said.
“I tình yêu bạn too.” He answered.
    We stayed like that for a while. Him holding me and slowly rocking me back and forth.
“Did I already miss the wake and funeral?” I asked him.
“Yeah, they happened a few days ago. I bought a condolence card and signed your name on it and sent it to Ally’s family, since bạn couldn’t go.” He said.
“I’m such a terrible friend.” I whispered.
“What? No don’t say that.” He said.
“I was too busy crying over me to go trang chủ and attend her funeral. They’ll only bury her once. I can’t make up for that.” I đã đưa ý kiến beginning to hyperventilate.
“No Hazel, no stop.” Niall đã đưa ý kiến rubbing my back.
“I’ll never be able to face her family.” I said.
“They’ll understand Hazel, bạn were grieving over her. Stop beating yourself up over this. Nothing is bạn fault. bạn are okay.” He said.
    I kept crying. Nothing could make me feel better.
“We should probably pack your stuff.” Niall said.
“What? Why?” I asked.
“The tour, it’s over. We have a flight tomorrow.” He said.
“Am I going home?” I asked.
“Yes. You’re going back to Boston.” He said.
“Where are bạn going?” I asked.
“Ireland.” He mumbled.
“I have to go back alone?” I asked, starting to panic.
“Hazel, you’ll be fine. Trust me. I called your parents and they’ll pick bạn up from the airport. Everything will be okay. bạn don’t have to do anything bạn aren’t ready to do.” He said.
“Will bạn come and visit me? I won’t be able to make it without you.” I đã đưa ý kiến shaking my head.
“Of course, I’m going trang chủ today, actually in a half an giờ I have to leave, I’ll be there for two days. You’re leaving here tomorrow night. bởi the time bạn get trang chủ I’ll be there. The boys, Eleanor, and Danielle are taking bạn to the airport tomorrow. Everything will be okay.” He said.
“Okay.” I đã đưa ý kiến calming down.
    Niall packed my suitcases and then we đã đưa ý kiến our goodbyes.
“I tình yêu bạn okay. Don’t forget that. I’m okay and so are you. I tình yêu you.” He said.
“I tình yêu bạn too.” I đã đưa ý kiến kissing him.
    He smiled at me and then walked away. I went and found Harry. He walked me into his room and brought my suitcases. I was going to stay with him until we had to leave. We spent all ngày and night sitting on the đi văng watching T.V.
“I’m starving. Do bạn want anything?” he asked.
“No.” I said.
“Haze bạn haven’t eaten in weeks, literally, wanna go out for ice cream?” he asked.
    I was about to say no when I remembered what Niall đã đưa ý kiến about Ally wanting me to live on. I wanted to live for her.
“Yeah.” I đã đưa ý kiến mustering up the best smile I could.
“Cool.” Harry said.
    We went out for ice cream and I had a really good time. I felt guilty that I was having fun while Ally was dead. I told Harry.
“Hazel, listen, it’s not your fault she died. Not having fun isn’t going to do anything for anyone. bạn are still alive, and bạn need to live.” He said.
    I nodded. That made me fell a lot better.
    The tiếp theo ngày Harry took me to the airport. He hugged me goodbye and I didn’t want him to let go.
“I’ll see bạn soon, yeah?” he said.
“Yeah.” I answered.
    I boarded the plane and took my seat. When we were up in the sky all I could think of was that Ally was up here too. I stared out the window the whole time until I got home. My parents greeted me at the airport. We drove trang chủ in silence. When I got there I went straight to me room. There were pictures of me and Ally everywhere. I almost took them down, but then I realized I wanted them there seeing her made me feel close to her.
    I checked my phone and got a missed text from Niall.
From Niall:
xin chào babe :)Be ready bởi 4 p.m. I tình yêu bạn babe :)xx wear black btw.
    I got dressed and waited outside. A black limo pulled up to my house. Niall stepped out in a black suit. I tình yêu him.
“Where are we going?” I asked.
“Just get in.” he said.
I got in the limo and we drove away. I was really confused.