I slammed my fist on the bàn and đã đưa ý kiến "dammit; bạn know I hate it when bạn talk about that! Nothing happened and nothing ever will happen because I didn't do anything! I'm going to settle out of court for $20 million just to get them off my back!" She responded "that doesn't change the fact that I'm done having kids and you're just going to have to get over it because I'm not having a baby with you!" I threw my hands up in the air and đã đưa ý kiến "fine; if that's how you're going to be I want a divorce!"
Lisa laughed and I đã đưa ý kiến "I'm dead serious! I want a divorce Lisa!" She đã đưa ý kiến "you're being ridiculous Michael!" I whispered "just leave" and shook my head in disgust. She grabbed her car keys off the counter and slammed the door behind her as she left. My eyes started to water as I sat there staring blankly at the tường in front of me. I really truly do tình yêu Lisa Marie; but if she's not going to give me the one thing that I asked for then it's not worth it!"
***
I hugged my mother as she walked through the front door of Neverland ranch. I pulled a chair out for her and she asked "what did bạn want to talk to me about that was so important?" I đã đưa ý kiến as I sat down in the chair across from her "I think now that Lisa and I have called it quits I'm going to start a family of my own!" Mother đã đưa ý kiến "whoa Michael; slow down! The divorce isn't even finalized yet!" I đã đưa ý kiến "it will be tiếp theo week! I've already had to wait this long to have a baby and I don't want to have to wait much longer!"
Mother đã đưa ý kiến "yeah; but you're busy as it is; let alone with a newborn baby!" I đã đưa ý kiến enthusiastically "I can handle it; if anyone can handle it I can!" She đã đưa ý kiến "just promise me that bạn will really think about who the baby's mother is going to be! I know bạn and bạn are not going to want to be caught up in a nasty custody battle!" I đã đưa ý kiến "don't worry mother; I'll choose very carefully!"
***
I left the courthouse carrying the official document that states the marriage is terminated and push my way through a crowd of fans. I made it safely into the back ghế, chỗ ngồi of the Rolls-Royce and my bodyguard Jeffrey asked "where would bạn like to go Mr. Jackson?" I đã đưa ý kiến "home please." As he drove the usual route back to the ranch, we passed bởi my dermatologist friend Arnie (Arnold) Klein's office. I đã đưa ý kiến "I would like to stop in and say hello to Arnie for a few phút Jeffrey." Jeffrey responded "of course sir. Would bạn like me to accompany bạn hoặc wait outside?" I đã đưa ý kiến "outside is fine. I'll call bạn if I need bạn for something."
I shut the door to the Rolls-Royce and walked through the entrance of Arnie's office. It seemed unusually quiet as I approached the front counter. I đã đưa ý kiến "hi Debbie; where is Arnie at?" She looked up at me with her beautiful blue eyes and đã đưa ý kiến "hi Michael; bạn just missed him! He's on his lunch break; but he should be back in a half giờ if bạn want to wait around for him."
I looked down at my watch and đã đưa ý kiến "I don't really have anything better to do. Can I use this phone?" She pushed the office phone closer to me as I leaned over the hàng đầu, đầu trang of the desk. I dialed Jeffrey's cell phone number and told him to come back in about an hour. I hung up the phone and Debbie đã đưa ý kiến "I'm so glad bạn decided to stick around! Today's been a really slow workday! You're the first person that’s actually come in here since 9 o'clock this morning. I'm glad I finally have someone to keep me company."
Debbie walked out from behind the bàn and sat down tiếp theo to me in the little waiting area that was in the corner of the room. She asked "so; what brings bạn here today?" I đã đưa ý kiến "no reason in particular; I just got out of the courthouse and decided to lung lay, swing bởi here." She asked with a confused look on her face "courthouse? Why?" I đã đưa ý kiến "I figured you’ve heard the news bởi now; Lisa Marie and I just recently got divorced." She asked "if bạn don't mind me asking, why did bạn guys decide to go your separate ways?" I đã đưa ý kiến "Lisa deceived me bởi saying that she would at least have one child with me; but apparently she was just joking." Debbie đã đưa ý kiến "that's a shame because bạn guys seemed so in tình yêu with each other! So; are bạn looking into adopting a child?" I đã đưa ý kiến "at some point I would tình yêu to do that; but what I really want right now is a child that's biologically mine." She asked "did bạn look at any surrogate mothers? I heard that there are plenty of them here in California." I đã đưa ý kiến "I looked at a lot of them; but I just don't feel that I could trust someone to keep quiet about me being Michael Jackson! I want to make sure my future children at least have the chance to have a normal life! The last thing I need is for some woman to say that she's carrying my baby and have 25 helicopters swarming over Neverland!"
I picked up a nearby "parents" magazine and started to flip through the pages. I sighed with frustration and Debbie đã đưa ý kiến "I'll do it!" I asked with a confused look on my face "you'll do what?" She đã đưa ý kiến "I'll carry a baby for you!" I đã đưa ý kiến "I couldn't ask bạn to do that for me!" She đã đưa ý kiến "you're not asking me; I'm offering to do it!" I asked "are bạn sure bạn want to do something that difficult for me?" She đã đưa ý kiến "there's nothing difficult about it! bạn tell me to do something and I'll do it!" I đã đưa ý kiến reluctantly "I don't know if bạn can handle being pregnant with my baby." She đã đưa ý kiến nonchalantly "trust me Michael; I'm tough! All you've ever talked about since bạn started seeing Arnie for your vitiligo was how much bạn wanted to be a father! Let me do this for you; no strings attached! bạn deserve to be a daddy just like every other man in this world. I won't take no for an answer!" I responded "well; since bạn put it that way; I except to offer."
She hugged me just as Arnie was walking through the door and I exchanged phone numbers with her. Arnie đã đưa ý kiến "hi Michael; what brings bạn here today?" I ran past him quickly stating "I'm in a rush, no time to talk, see bạn soon!" Arnie just looked at me with a puzzled look on his face and asked "what's his problem?" Debbie responded "I have no clue."
I practically jumped into the passenger ghế, chỗ ngồi in the Rolls-Royce tiếp theo to Jeffrey and frantically dialed mother's phone number. I pressed the phone up against my ear and was disappointed when I heard the sound of the voice mail on the other end. After the beep, I đã đưa ý kiến "mother; come see me in a few days! I'm just now realizing that bạn left on your vacation this morning. I don't know when you'll be back; but I hope you'll be back soon because I have some news!"
***
Now that it's been a few days, I sat there in my bedroom looking at the small piece of paper Debbie had written her phone number on and debated whether hoặc not to call it. Finally, I decided to just send her a text message; in which I wrote "Debbie; I was wondering if we could start weighing our options. I figured since I know that today is your ngày off bạn could come over so we can discuss things. Only if that's okay with bạn though; I wouldn't want to inconvenience bạn in any way! Just let me know what time is a good time for bạn to stop bởi here."
I anxiously waited for my phone to ring. When it finally did, it startled me so much that I nearly fell off of the giường and onto the floor. I answered it and Debbie đã đưa ý kiến "I'm on my way over Michael! I was beginning to think that bạn would never call!"
I called her up to my huge bedroom and she sat down tiếp theo to me on the couch. She asked "alright; so what's the plan?" I đã đưa ý kiến "well; I could have a doctor’s appointment made for bạn to get inseminated." She đã đưa ý kiến "inseminated? That procedure could take multiple tries and there's still no guarantee that it would work!" I asked "what did bạn have in mind?" She đã đưa ý kiến something that completely caught me offguard. She đã đưa ý kiến "I say bạn and I just crack open a bottle of your finest champagne!" I asked "are bạn suggesting what I think you're suggesting?" She đã đưa ý kiến "of course; that seems like the most reliable option!" I đã đưa ý kiến "I have to say that I'm honestly surprised! I thought direct contact with bạn in an intimate way would make bạn too uncomfortable." She laughed and đã đưa ý kiến "I don't know if bạn know this; but I've had a crush on bạn ever since I was a little girl! Having sex with bạn would be a dream come true for me!" That's when it dawned on me; I đã đưa ý kiến "oh my gosh! That explains so much! Wait, all those times when I felt like bạn might have been checking me out were real?" She blushed every shade of red and đã đưa ý kiến "yes; I would jerk my head back every time bạn would turn around to see if someone was staring at you. I would hope that bạn wouldn't notice that I was staring at you!"
About 45 phút later, after "the deed" had been done Debbie đã đưa ý kiến "that was everything that I ever thought it would be like and more!!!" I đã đưa ý kiến "I just want to clarify that I don't want any sort of relationship out of this. It was purely for the sake of getting bạn pregnant! I don't want bạn to have any type of custody hoặc anything to do with the baby pretty much immediately in the weeks following the birth." She đã đưa ý kiến "well obviously Michael; I'm doing this for bạn as a gift! I don't want any sort of relationship with bạn hoặc the child in that way!" I đã đưa ý kiến "I insist that bạn at least accept a check for $20 million. There is only one condition; bạn have to allow me to have a total of three children with you!" Debbie đã đưa ý kiến "you don't have to give me money Michael!" I đã đưa ý kiến "I wouldn't feel right if bạn didn't take the money; so just take it as a gift from me to you! That way we can consider ourselves even!" I quickly wrote the check and passed it to her as she was heading out the door.
***
It's been about 10 days since I've seen Debbie; but she's on her way over right now and I can't wait to hear the news! She came up to the door and I pretty much pulled her inside the house. She asked "where is your bathroom? I've had 3 cups of coffee on the way over here just to make sure that I was prepared to take the pregnancy test!" I asked "you haven't taken it yet?" Then I pointed to the nearest bathroom.
After she had taken the test, Debbie đã đưa ý kiến "of course I didn't take the test! It's your baby and bạn should be here to find out!" The five một phút wait for the test to process seemed like it was taking forever just because I was nervous to find out the results. The timer on the microwave beeped and Debbie đã đưa ý kiến "I think that's your cue to go check Michael! The stick is on the counter tiếp theo to the sink in there."
I slowly made my way into the bathroom and shut my eyes as I picked up the pregnancy test. I gently opened one eye at the time and glanced down at the stick. I immediately burst out crying and Debbie ran to my aid. She đã đưa ý kiến "it's fine Michael; we'll just try again!" I đã đưa ý kiến "it's not that!" She asked confused "then why are bạn crying?" I swiftly moved the pregnancy test in front of her face and di chuyển my fingers out of the way to reveal a tiny màu hồng, hồng plus sign!
The two of us looked at each other in stunned silence with our mouths slightly opened for about 30 giây before we both let out a pair of screams; very similar to the one that Macauley Culkin made in "home alone." I grabbed onto the counter and đã đưa ý kiến "oh my God! Oh my God! Oh – my – God! I'M GOING TO BE A DAD?" Debbie đã đưa ý kiến "YOU'RE GOING TO BE A DAD!!!" I đã đưa ý kiến "I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS IS REALLY HAPPENING!!! She đã đưa ý kiến "I'm so happy for bạn Michael! I hate to leave bạn right now; but I have to go pick my mother up and bring her to the dentist because she can't drive herself trang chủ after surgery. Congratulations Michael; I'll call bạn when it's time for the first ultrasound in a few weeks!" I was too busy staring at the positive pregnancy test to respond to her; but I did nod my head to hiển thị that I had heard everything that she had just said.
***
After mother and I were comfortably seated in the living room, she asked "what's wrong? What was with the message bạn left on my answering machine?" I asked "do bạn remember when I introduced bạn to my dermatologist Arnie?" She đã đưa ý kiến "yes; why?" I asked "do bạn remember the receptionist/assistant that works for him in his office?" Mother responded "yes." I đã đưa ý kiến "well; her name is Debbie and I've known her for years. She offered to carry three children for me and I took her up on that offer." Mother đã đưa ý kiến "she seems like a really nice lady!" I đã đưa ý kiến "she is and that's not the only thing that I wanted to tell you; actually, hiển thị you!"
I passed mother the positive pregnancy test and she looked at me stunned. I đã đưa ý kiến "you're going to be a grandmother again!" She đã đưa ý kiến "wow; that must've been an easy insemination process at the doctor’s office for her to get pregnant on the first try!" I reluctantly đã đưa ý kiến "well; it didn't exactly happen that way." She asked "what do bạn mean? I thought bạn planned all along to have the potential mother inseminated!" I đã đưa ý kiến "I did; but after the two of us discussed the odds of that actually working without having to try a whole bunch of times, we decided it was thêm logical for Debbie and I to conceive the cổ hủ, cũ thời way!" Mother đã đưa ý kiến "I hope you're making the right decision! I hope she's the right surrogate mother!" I đã đưa ý kiến "I know she is!"
***
Debbie and I were excitedly waiting for the Dr. to arrive in our hospital room because today is the first ngày I get to hear my baby's heartbeat! A very cheerful female Dr. with red hair came into the room and was shocked to see me sitting there. I đã đưa ý kiến "yes; I am Michael Jackson! Now that that's out of the way, can I hear my baby's heartbeat?" The Dr. definitely seemed starstruck bởi my celebrity status; but she began to apply the ultrasound gel to Debbie's stomach.
Soon afterwards, hình ảnh of black and white started to flash across the monitor as the Dr. searched for the baby. She đã đưa ý kiến "oh; there's your baby Michael." I smiled as I saw the outline of a tiny baby; barely bigger than a couple of grapes. I joked "he hoặc she looks just like me already!" Debbie chuckled and the Dr. started playing the heartbeat over the speakers.
That's when it all became a reality to me! I couldn't help but well up with tears. The Dr. passed Debbie a paper towel; so she could start wiping away the gel from her stomach. The Dr. đã đưa ý kiến "I'll be right back; I just printed off the picture of the baby and I have to go grab it from the printer on the other side of the hospital.
After the Dr. quietly shut the door to our hospital room, I đã đưa ý kiến "wow; there's definitely a baby in there!" Debbie đã đưa ý kiến "I know; in a few thêm months when we have our một giây appointment here you'll be able to find out whether you're going to have a son hoặc a daughter!" I đã đưa ý kiến "I'm so excited! It doesn't even matter to me whether it's a boy hoặc girl! I just want a happy and healthy baby! Once we find out the gender I can start picking out their name and decorating the nursery!"
***
I've been so consumed with everything to do with the pregnancy that I forgot all about "history" my tiếp theo album! It's almost finished; but I have been trying to procrastinate for as long as possible because I know exactly what my manager Frank is going to say! He's going to tell me that I need to go on tour again to promote the album; but anyone that knows me knows that I hate going on tour! I tình yêu going to all the different countries and meeting all my different fans; but I miss the comforts of home! It's going to be so much thêm difficult when the baby is born! Then I'll have to decide whether hoặc not to take the baby on tour with me. That's going to be the hardest decision of my life! I have plenty of time to worry about that stuff because I'm going to put my foot down and insist that I'm not going to go on tour until the baby is at least two years old!
There was a knock at the front door of the house and I answered it to find my manager Frank standing there. He is a short fat man who's always smoking this obnoxious cigar; despite the fact that I tell him not to smoke in the house. Frank asked as he pretty much invited himself inside my house "are the rumors true? Are bạn going to be a father?" I asked "how did bạn find out? I've only told a few people so far!" Frank asked "what do bạn mean how did I find out? It's all over the country; it's all over the world!" He threw a tabloid magazine down in front of me and lo and behold there's a bức ảnh of Debbie and I leaving the hospital. I guess I've been spending so much time with Debbie and I didn't even notice that her baby bump is starting to show; just barely but it's obvious enough to be able to tell that she's pregnant.
I looked down at the magazine and shook my head in disbelief. I đã đưa ý kiến "this is exactly what I didn't want to happen! Debbie's only four months pregnant and the baby isn't due until March! My poor kid is never going to get the chance to have a normal life! "Frank đã đưa ý kiến "look at it positively; this opens up a whole new world of career opportunities for you! I'm talking Michael Jackson pacifiers, baby clothes, and anything else anyone could ever imagine one would need for a baby! I đã đưa ý kiến with an irritated tone in my voice "no, no, no, my baby is not another marketing ploy for bạn to make thêm money!!! I want to make sure that bạn understand that loud and clear!!! My child and my career are two completely different subjects!!!" Frank đã đưa ý kiến "geez Mike; chill out!!! It was just an idea!" I snapped "YEAH WELL; tiếp theo TIME LEAVE MY KID OUT OF YOUR THOUGHT PROCESS!!!"
Frank đã đưa ý kiến while desperately trying to change the subject to control my growing temper "okay; tiếp theo topic of discussion! We should launch this History tour within the tiếp theo four hoặc five months!" I đã đưa ý kiến "nope; not until my son hoặc daughter is two years old!" Frank đã đưa ý kiến "TWO YEARS OLD!!! That means it'll be 1996 before bạn go on tour again!" I đã đưa ý kiến "so; if my những người hâm mộ tình yêu me they'll wait!" Frank đã đưa ý kiến clearly frustrated with my decision "fine; whatever bạn say Mike!" I đã đưa ý kiến "I want bạn to know that just because I'm not going to go on tour right now doesn't mean I'm taking a hiatus from the âm nhạc scene! I'll do almost everything else bạn want me to do; within reason. Whether it is a talk hiển thị hoặc even a performance hoặc two at an award hiển thị like the Grammys!" Frank đã đưa ý kiến "alright; I guess I can accept that for two years! After those two years are up though; you're hitting the road! The baby is thêm than welcome to come along!" I shook my head in agreement and đã đưa ý kiến "fair enough" as I shook hands with him to niêm phong, con dấu the deal.
***
I đã đưa ý kiến "I can't believe it's time to find out the gender of the baby already!" Debbie looked over at me from the hospital giường she was lying down on and đã đưa ý kiến "I have a strong feeling about what it's going to be." The doctor seemed like she was taking forever and then she asked "are bạn sure bạn want to know Michael? bạn don't want it to be a surprise?" I đã đưa ý kiến "I'm 100% positive!" She responded "okay then; congratulations Michael you're having a little girl!" Debbie đã đưa ý kiến "I guess I was wrong; I thought it was going to be a baby boy."
I smiled as I sat there for at least 15 phút and then I finally whispered "I have a daughter!" Debbie joked "you know what that means Michael!!! princesses, ponies, and pink!" I grinned from ear to ear and đã đưa ý kiến "oh; I can't wait! Only three thêm months! I've got to leave because I have to start getting things ready! I need to start looking at baby names now that I know I'm having a baby girl!" With that last statement, I dashed out of the room after kissing Debbie on the cheek.
***
I walked up the stairs of my house and examined my options for the baby's room. I knew that I wanted her room to be pretty close to mine; just in case she ever needed the in the middle of the night for anything. That leaves me with two options, the room directly to the left outside my bedroom doorway hoặc the room directly to the right. I guess it doesn't really matter because they're both gigantic bedrooms! The size of most living rooms!
Luckily, my massive collection of comic book memorabilia and quite frankly unnecessary thuyền mành, rác rưởi, rác had not made it into these two bedrooms. I stepped into the room directly to my left and noticed the one difference between the two rooms; which was a huge walk-in closet. Since she's a girl, I would imagine that she'll be into clothes and fashion. This seems like the most suitable choice for my daughter's bedroom. Now all that's left do is picking out her name and decorating this room.
***
There was loud knocking on the front door of my house and when I went to answer it I noticed two of my brothers standing there. I asked "Jermaine and Jackie what are bạn doing here?" They invited themselves inside and sat down with me at the bàn in the kitchen. Jackie đã đưa ý kiến "mother told us the news about bạn becoming a father; congratulations Mike!" I đã đưa ý kiến "I know that mother told bạn long time cách đây about the baby and I'm offended that it's taken bạn guys seven months to acknowledge me. Come to think of it, Latoya and mother seem to be the only ones that are supportive about me being a father!" Jermaine đã đưa ý kiến "you know we'll all be supportive of this." I sarcastically đã đưa ý kiến "yeah; just like bạn were supported when I decided to leave the group and go solo all those years ago!" Jackie đã đưa ý kiến "I have to say that bạn deciding to become a father was very surprising to everyone!" I asked "what's that supposed to mean?" He đã đưa ý kiến "you just don't seem like the type that can parent a child; that's all!" I snapped back "I'm going to prove bạn all wrong! I can be a father and a damn good one at that! A hell of a lot better than Joseph was to us! I do know one thing already; my kids are not going to address me bởi my first name! They'll call me daddy because that's how it should be and how it should’ve been with us growing up!"
Jermaine đã đưa ý kiến "since we're over here already, I was wondering if I could borrow some money Michael? I need to pay my car payment and I'm broke." I đã đưa ý kiến "fine; but this is the last time I'm going to be giving bạn money on the spot because I have a baby on the way and her needs are thêm important than yours! bạn know that I hate it when bạn guys are constantly asking me for money; especially because I never get a penny of it back! bạn always say bạn are borrowing it; but I never get any of it back!"
I felt awful after my brothers left because I ended up giving them $1000! I always say that I'm going to stop giving the money; but mother always talks me back into it. This has got to stop! They all have a way of earning money for themselves; but they choose to blow it on stupid stuff and they don't need to worry because I always end up bailing them out of their financial troubles! I đã đưa ý kiến I was done and I meant it!
***
I've officially picked out the name of my daughter, Alanna Michael Jackson. I know her first name is unique; but that's what I wanted! Choosing her middle name was a very hard decision for me because I was debating whether hoặc not to use my mother's name. I've come to terms with the choice of using my name instead and because I have the chance to have two thêm kids I'll probably end up having another little girl and then I will use my mother's name for her.
I was getting ready to go shopping when I walked bởi Alanna's nursery and noticed the painters getting set up. I interrupted them bởi saying "I'm going shopping; I should be back in a few hours. If bạn need anything just ask one of the staff members. I hope this nursery looks perfect when I get back!"
Upon arriving at one of the most được ưa chuộng children's stores in Los Angeles, I asked my bodyguard Jeffrey "did bạn make sure the manager closed the store to other customers; so I can cửa hàng uninterrupted?" He responded "yes Sir; would bạn still like me to come inside with you?" I đã đưa ý kiến "yes because I'm planning to buy a lot of things and I may need your help carrying the bags to the car. A lot of the large things like the cũi, giường cũi and car ghế, chỗ ngồi are being shipped to the house because I already picked them out a few days ago."
After walking into the store with Jeffrey at my side, I realized that I had no idea what I had gotten myself into! There were millions of things that I didn't even know existed; like a baby wipe warmer! I couldn't even think straight because there was so much to look at! The baby is due in less than a tháng and I want to make sure that I don't forget anything! I just started throwing everything into a cart. Tons of pacifiers, teddy bears, blankets, the cutest little màu hồng, hồng onesies, and baby shoes!!! I even bought 20 pairs of jeans for her to wear!"
I opened the front door to the house and walked up the stairs because I couldn't wait to see how Alanna's nursery had turned out. Jeffrey followed me carrying at least 20 bags in his arms and I opened up the bedroom door. My mouth dropped open as I looked at how adorable the walls of her bedroom were decorated. The entire room was painted a baby shade of màu hồng, hồng with cheerful cartoon African động vật on the walls. The centerpiece of the room was definitely the lion cub that pretty much covered the whole front wall.
Jeffrey dropped all of the bags gently on the floor and I started to arrange the items I had just gotten. That's when I đã đưa ý kiến "oh no; Jeffrey bạn have to go back to the store. I forgot the most important thing; diapers!" Jeffrey and I chuckled and he đã đưa ý kiến "anything for bạn Mr. Jackson."
After he left, I started to put the bedding on the cũi, giường cũi and rearrange the furniture. I sat down in the ghế bành that was in the corner of the room and looked at my surroundings. I đã đưa ý kiến to myself "in less than a week and a half this nursery will have a baby in it! It's really starting to hit me that I'm officially a father! I never thought this ngày would come and now all that there's left to do is wait for the phone call from Debbie to say it's time to take her to the hospital!!!"
