I'm in a tình yêu triangle. Both guys are aware of each other.
I still tình yêu my ex..

About my ex:
His name is Sean and lives in New Jersey, but was adopted from South Korea. When I was getting bullied at school, he was always there for me. I was being called a lot of names and believed them. I used to cut myself and he had me stop along with my best friend who is like a sister to me. (Laura) Sean is super sweet and has a few flaws.
1. He has a foot fetish. I had heel-cord surgery and my feet are my sensitive. I also have a 3rd degree burn on my right ankle. So if he ever gave me a foot massage, I would be tense and make him worried that I didn't like him anymore.
2. He loves making our rps (sexting hoặc rping anthros) into something sexual. Right now, my life consists on my mom having an affair and talking about sex is hard for me. I know a lot and thêm than I should though I'm 14(still young and yeah..) and a virgin. (proud to be) Though Sean is a virgin, he goes from sweet to sexual. Like "you are the tình yêu of my life" to "I would fuck bạn so hard". Many times, I talked to Laura about this, and the last straw came. We broke up with each other over his mom who didn't like him in long distance relationships and everything sexual. I cried that night, not sure what to do.

My bf now:
His name is Christopher. He lives in Alabama. He works part time and is raising money to see me. When we do talk about that, he always talks about how he would hold me close.
The only sexual talk was when we were still friends.
Me- bạn a virgin?
Him- yes and proud :D
Me- me too!!
And after that it was ngẫu nhiên talk. After a couple weeks, I did the oddest things. I told him one night, "I tình yêu you." he đã đưa ý kiến the same thing. Ever since, we barely ever sext, our conversations go for like 2 hours of laughing, talking, and smiling. The only arguments we have are
"I tình yêu bạn most"
"I missed bạn more"
"Why would bạn shun me?"
And its all for play.
Chris is sweet as Sean, not as sexual. Chris is a wonderful guy though he has a rough past. We barely talk about our pasts. He has never made me cry and Sean only has when we broke up.

I care and tình yêu for both guys, yet it's hard. Yes, Chris will make some things sexual but doesn't ask for anything. He doesn't like too. Sean asks but I'm afraid his mom might catch him.
Please help.
I know I'm only 14 but both make me feel as beautiful as any girl out there. They make me feel like a Queen when I feel as if I don't need to feel like that. My therpist tried helping me on the Sean thing and told me what Laura told me. Set the rules, which I did and he didn't listen. I want to give him another chance but I'm with Chris. Yet both are far away. All three of us have trust issues, so makes the relationship stronger with the long distanced.
Being 14 and being young, I know. But there are 8 năm olds dating. I'm going to be a freshman, my older brother told me to ngày guys in my school, which I'm afraid of. They would never ask me out, I'm not rich hoặc popular. I go to a private school only because my old school picked on me a lot.
Thank bạn all and if bạn want, message me your advice, otherwise bạn may post here.
Thank bạn again! Have a nice year! School năm hoặc work whatever works :p