** just wanted bạn to know how much i tình yêu bạn JT and i never meant to hurt bạn bởi fighting with bạn and i just want bạn to know that every word bạn read is true as hell -Bee **

Ok, bạn know how i used to tell bạn that i got these vibes sometimes? Well, the ngày i found out bạn went to the hospital....i kept going to your thông tin các nhân and thinking "omfg something is wroong" and then Chris ((smart dude:)) đã đăng the bad news on your tường and obviously i was the first to know..on fanpop.... and i was like freaking out and ....i remembered fighting with bạn Sunday night..and i felt HORRIBLE omg..i was cryin. Then i didnt know what to do with myself, right? well then i told JayJAy and she just felt as bad as i did...and Chris kept telling us.."its not your fault, dont beat yourself up" and then i knew i had to tell Cherry, and i was scared cause i knew if i took the news hard, she would probably take it harder...but she did pretty well and she tried to blame herself..but i didnt let her..i had to take the blame and i told everyone if they wanted to blame someone i had to be blamed and i probably should have known something was wrong the moment bạn told me your headaches were back and i didnt get the bad vibes till the tiếp theo day...well then i had to get off cause i was just going to cry, and cry and cry some more..so i got off and i just lay there freaking out and i didnt know what to do with myself..well then that night i had a beautiful nightmare...**i wanna cry again** ok in my dream..i was with quả anh đào, anh đào and Spunky Jay..we went to the hospital and it was kinda funni (NOT HAHA FUNNI thêm LIKE I CANT BELIEVE IT FUNNI) that i could smell the hospital and here the beep beep of the intercom and we me and quả anh đào, anh đào and chim giẻ cùi, jay reached your room Chris was already in there with bạn but bạn were hooked up to all these wires and we us three girls walked in it was like bạn knew we were there and bạn woke up and me and quả anh đào, anh đào and chim giẻ cùi, jay just shrieked and cried and hugged eachother so hard and damn i could feel that hug .....but then the sucky part was that i woke up in a cold sweat crying cuz i didnt get to see the end of the dream and cuz it was the first time i ever dreamed about bạn hoặc quả anh đào, anh đào hoặc Spunky chim giẻ cùi, jay and i know for sure Chris...


but i wanted to tell bạn this cause i just want bạn to realize that i never really mean all those things i say about bạn and i just want bạn to know that i dont hate bạn and that i have ALWAYS LOVED bạn JSUT AS MUCH AS AS I tình yêu quả anh đào, anh đào AND JAYJAY AND JORDAN i hope bạn know that and i never wanna hurt bạn again and i promise i will try to keep my cool and my head ok? Cause i was also brought up not to let people get the best of me and i was brought up pretty much like bạn were ....i hope bạn get better and i am praying for you




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Bianca<3