This is the letter Carter wrote Abby when he was in the Congo. I found it on NBC's website, and thought I'd share it with you! Enjoy!
Dear Abby,
bởi the time bạn read this letter, Luka should be an toàn, két an toàn in America and bạn will probably be wondering why I'm not with him. Before bạn go blaming yourself let me just say, it's not you, it's me - and I know even as I write this that you're going to think that's a breakup cliché, but if bạn could just try and hold back your judgment - and your condemnation - for a minute, maybe bạn will actually be able to understand what I'm trying to say. Being here has changed me in ways I never imagined. It put everything in perspective. County, Gamma's death, you. Well, me and you. We just had to work so hard at everything. Too hard, bạn know? When I think back on our last năm together, everything appears hazy, muddled. And in the Congo, everything is very clear. People are suffering. I can help them. They need me. In a way that bạn don't.
You're much stronger than bạn think. bạn don't need me, Abby, and I don't think bạn ever really did. We both know we would work better unfettered. I think that at one point bạn convinced yourself that I was the right guy for bạn - reliable and safe, and I don't know, stable - but I don't think that that's what bạn really want. When we were just friends, it was safe. Maybe we even put each other on pedestals, I don't know. And then when we were finally together, it didn't become what either of us thought it would be. I didn't end up being what bạn expected, and bạn didn't end up being…sorry, I'm rambling.
I gave bạn as much as I could, but it wasn't enough. Clearly, there were a lot of things going on in your life that were thêm important, understandably. Eric's disease, your mother. Your life is complicated, and I didn't fit into that mix very well, did I? I tried to help, but then when I needed you…I don't know.
The light is dying. I don't want to waste any thêm kerosene.
I don't know how long I'm going to end up staying here. Don't wait for me.
I also want to say thank you. bạn are still one of the most amazing people I know.
Love,
Carter
Dear Abby,
bởi the time bạn read this letter, Luka should be an toàn, két an toàn in America and bạn will probably be wondering why I'm not with him. Before bạn go blaming yourself let me just say, it's not you, it's me - and I know even as I write this that you're going to think that's a breakup cliché, but if bạn could just try and hold back your judgment - and your condemnation - for a minute, maybe bạn will actually be able to understand what I'm trying to say. Being here has changed me in ways I never imagined. It put everything in perspective. County, Gamma's death, you. Well, me and you. We just had to work so hard at everything. Too hard, bạn know? When I think back on our last năm together, everything appears hazy, muddled. And in the Congo, everything is very clear. People are suffering. I can help them. They need me. In a way that bạn don't.
You're much stronger than bạn think. bạn don't need me, Abby, and I don't think bạn ever really did. We both know we would work better unfettered. I think that at one point bạn convinced yourself that I was the right guy for bạn - reliable and safe, and I don't know, stable - but I don't think that that's what bạn really want. When we were just friends, it was safe. Maybe we even put each other on pedestals, I don't know. And then when we were finally together, it didn't become what either of us thought it would be. I didn't end up being what bạn expected, and bạn didn't end up being…sorry, I'm rambling.
I gave bạn as much as I could, but it wasn't enough. Clearly, there were a lot of things going on in your life that were thêm important, understandably. Eric's disease, your mother. Your life is complicated, and I didn't fit into that mix very well, did I? I tried to help, but then when I needed you…I don't know.
The light is dying. I don't want to waste any thêm kerosene.
I don't know how long I'm going to end up staying here. Don't wait for me.
I also want to say thank you. bạn are still one of the most amazing people I know.
Love,
Carter