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“Hi Stel…”
“Hey… Sober?”
He felt how he blushed and looked on the floor.
“Yeah… Think so.”
“Do bạn let me in?”
“Oh… Oh yes of course!”
He tried his best to avoid her gaze. He just didn’t want to see the pitying expression in her face.
“You know why I’m here…”
He nodded. Staring at the ground. She wanted to talk with him. Talk about his problems. Talk about the whiskey and probably about his cuts, too. In short talk about things he was shy for and he didn’t want to discuss.
“So… I think there are lots of things bạn should explain… hoặc at least try to explain.”
“What do bạn expect? Do bạn expect I say sorry and tell bạn the thing with the whiskey was a mistake and I won’t do it again? I wish I could say that… It felt good… to be drunken. Totally drunken. bạn know, when you’re drunken bạn don’t feel pain. Especially this terrible pain in my chest disappears when I’m drunken. And my brain stops to work when I’m drunken. So I can’t think about Reed’s death. I can’t see this pictures again and again. And I can’t imagine how it could be if I wouldn’t have shot. That’s great bạn know. bạn feel pretty free and content then.” He hasn’t really thought about what he’s been saying. But now he realized what he’s conceded. Stella just looked at him. Stunned.
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‘I feel free then.’ Free. Free. He wants to be free… Damn it, Mac! She felt her eyes fill with tears. No! She wouldn’t cry! Not here and not now. But no matter how hard she tried she couldn’t stop the tears that was making his way down her cheek.
“Mac… Please stop that… There are other ways to forget…”
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‘Maaaaaaaac! bạn damned idiot!’
Suddenly he had the severe desire to hit himself!
‘Can’t bạn just one time say something smart, if bạn can’t, at least shut up?!’
“I… I didn’t want to…”
‘Congratulations idiot! bạn made her cry!’
“I’m sorry Stel… I…”
‘Idiot. I-D-I-O-T. Idiot.’
Ohoh… Suddenly she got that look. Determined. Ready to attack.
‘Mac you’ll get a nice speech. Have fun!’
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“You are sorry?! Woah! Listen! The infallible Mac Taylor is sorry! Do bạn really think that will help bạn know? Now after bạn made yourself totally drunk, after bạn cut yourself, after bạn hit on me?! No it won’t! Understand it Mac: You’ve got problems! Lots of problems!”
She couldn’t stop talking. And crying.
“You can tell me as often as bạn want the alcohol helps bạn and makes bạn forget. Maybe that’s the truth but I won’t let bạn bust yourself. bạn need help. And I’ll help you!”
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He didn’t say anything. The first halfway smart reaction today. She was right. Every word was true.
“You’re right.”, he murmured.
‘?! Why did bạn talk bạn idiot?!’
“I’m right? Great! bạn got it! And now let’s start repair you. Did bạn eat breakfast?”
He hadn’t the power to tell her he didn’t want her help. Yes she was right but he did not want her help!
“No I didn’t.”
“Are bạn hungry then?”
No he wasn’t. Since Reed’s death he didn’t eat very much.
“Yes… a little.”
He just couldn’t contradict her.
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This was too easy. Mac is stubborn. Always has been… She was sure he didn’t really want her help.
“Then let’s go eat breakfast somewhere…”
?! Why couldn’t she ask him if he was sure? It feels like she just hadn’t the power…
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“Hi Stel…”
“Hey… Sober?”
He felt how he blushed and looked on the floor.
“Yeah… Think so.”
“Do bạn let me in?”
“Oh… Oh yes of course!”
He tried his best to avoid her gaze. He just didn’t want to see the pitying expression in her face.
“You know why I’m here…”
He nodded. Staring at the ground. She wanted to talk with him. Talk about his problems. Talk about the whiskey and probably about his cuts, too. In short talk about things he was shy for and he didn’t want to discuss.
“So… I think there are lots of things bạn should explain… hoặc at least try to explain.”
“What do bạn expect? Do bạn expect I say sorry and tell bạn the thing with the whiskey was a mistake and I won’t do it again? I wish I could say that… It felt good… to be drunken. Totally drunken. bạn know, when you’re drunken bạn don’t feel pain. Especially this terrible pain in my chest disappears when I’m drunken. And my brain stops to work when I’m drunken. So I can’t think about Reed’s death. I can’t see this pictures again and again. And I can’t imagine how it could be if I wouldn’t have shot. That’s great bạn know. bạn feel pretty free and content then.” He hasn’t really thought about what he’s been saying. But now he realized what he’s conceded. Stella just looked at him. Stunned.
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‘I feel free then.’ Free. Free. He wants to be free… Damn it, Mac! She felt her eyes fill with tears. No! She wouldn’t cry! Not here and not now. But no matter how hard she tried she couldn’t stop the tears that was making his way down her cheek.
“Mac… Please stop that… There are other ways to forget…”
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‘Maaaaaaaac! bạn damned idiot!’
Suddenly he had the severe desire to hit himself!
‘Can’t bạn just one time say something smart, if bạn can’t, at least shut up?!’
“I… I didn’t want to…”
‘Congratulations idiot! bạn made her cry!’
“I’m sorry Stel… I…”
‘Idiot. I-D-I-O-T. Idiot.’
Ohoh… Suddenly she got that look. Determined. Ready to attack.
‘Mac you’ll get a nice speech. Have fun!’
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“You are sorry?! Woah! Listen! The infallible Mac Taylor is sorry! Do bạn really think that will help bạn know? Now after bạn made yourself totally drunk, after bạn cut yourself, after bạn hit on me?! No it won’t! Understand it Mac: You’ve got problems! Lots of problems!”
She couldn’t stop talking. And crying.
“You can tell me as often as bạn want the alcohol helps bạn and makes bạn forget. Maybe that’s the truth but I won’t let bạn bust yourself. bạn need help. And I’ll help you!”
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He didn’t say anything. The first halfway smart reaction today. She was right. Every word was true.
“You’re right.”, he murmured.
‘?! Why did bạn talk bạn idiot?!’
“I’m right? Great! bạn got it! And now let’s start repair you. Did bạn eat breakfast?”
He hadn’t the power to tell her he didn’t want her help. Yes she was right but he did not want her help!
“No I didn’t.”
“Are bạn hungry then?”
No he wasn’t. Since Reed’s death he didn’t eat very much.
“Yes… a little.”
He just couldn’t contradict her.
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This was too easy. Mac is stubborn. Always has been… She was sure he didn’t really want her help.
“Then let’s go eat breakfast somewhere…”
?! Why couldn’t she ask him if he was sure? It feels like she just hadn’t the power…
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