bạn rush past me
long brown curls flying
face down
body boed
i frown
i get up and follow see bạn sprawled on the đi văng in your dressing room
as i scoop bạn up in my arms
your face
pressing into my chest
as bạn cuddle closer to me
like a child
my voice questioning softly
"what's wrong?"
your voice replying
as it cracks
as tears fall from your eyes
perfect spheres
splashing down
from dark Sô cô la brown irisis
"he cheated on me"
my arms tighten around your fragile form
as bạn whimper out another confession
gleaming white teeth softly nibbling onto yor màu hồng, hồng dâu, dâu tây glossed lips
"i...i think i loved him"
can bạn hear my tim, trái tim breaking as bạn đã đưa ý kiến those words
bạn loved him
not me
I'm just the friend
older brother
always there for you
but never the way i wanted it to be
your protector
but not your lover
a tear of my own falls down from my eye
bạn raise your head
as bạn run a delicate finger along my face
feeling the wet streak it left behind
bạn whisper my name
"joseph..."
bạn ask softly
"are bạn okay?"
i won't be ok
as long your hurt
as long bạn tình yêu him
bạn lean closer
concern temporarily masking the pain in your eyes
as bạn repeat my name and question
"joe...are bạn okay?"
a sweet scent of apples wafts towards me
distracting me from your words
your perfume
my pulse beats faster
my tim, trái tim beating like a drum
your hand still lying on my cheek
bạn lean closer still
and around bạn my hands curl into fists
fighting off the temptation
to tell bạn how i feel
with one simple gesture
a kiss
bạn lean your forehead against mine
a curl slipping down
as your thumb slowly moves over my tear stained cheek
as your own tears fall on my lap
your name escapes my lips
a soft murmer
your thin fragile arms bọc around me
trying to comfort on the tattered couch
black pillows resting around us
so different from the two broken children on it
mourning for what they can't have