As he stepped off the plane he was shocked to find Wilson waiting for him there at the gate. He stood there for a moment looking at his friend. He noticed a cast on Wilson’s wrist. Dominica had told him that Wilson had gotten hurt that day. It had been several months so he wondered just how bad Wilson had gotten hurt. They maintained eye contact and held it as House made his way slowly toward Wilson.
Wilson was prepared for the usual sarcacism from House, but he was met with a completely different man.
“How did bạn know I was flying trang chủ today?”
"Dominica called me."
"You can't tell women anything."
House waited for Wilson to break the silence but he was not forthcoming with conversation.
“How is the wrist” House asked him?
It’s in a cast House. How do bạn think it is?
“I am sorry Wilson.” I wasn’t thinking ………..
“No bạn were thinking! bạn were thinking about the same thing bạn always think about!”
“You were thinking of yourself!” bạn are your highest priority!
“You’re right”, but I am trying to make some changes.
“I know House I have heard this speech before.” Why are bạn here? Why did bạn come back?
Apparently so bạn could meet me at the airport and yell at me.
“Don’t worry, the only thing I wanted to do was come and face bạn and tell bạn what a bastard bạn really are! It has nothing to do with your real father not claiming bạn either! "I want nothing to do with bạn House!”
They started to walk away but House stopped. He had come to face his wrongs and to amke peace.
Wilson! Wilson! Please wait! I am sorry. I know that doesn’t fix it but I am sorry. I have had time to deal with who I am and what I have done. I know I hav ebeen a jerk.
Wilson began to walk away.
Wilson!!.... bạn are family. The only one I have left.
“Then bạn don’t have any family House because I am done with you.”
Wilson please!
There is one thing House, “Cuddy left a letter and told me if I ever saw bạn again to give it to you.” He pulled the letter from his áo, áo khoác and handed it to House.
Wilson I ……………………….
Wilson heard him but he kept walking.
“I am done with you.” Those words beat against his soul like a hammer. He had heard them before in the same tone with the same frustration and aggravation. He had heard them from “her.”
With an envelope in hand that held a letter from her he headed trang chủ and he had asked Dominica to give him the night alone. When he walked into the apartment he thought all the memories would be there waiting on him. They were but the ones that flooded his mind now were of her and them. He sat down and pulled the letter from his áo, áo khoác and he slowly opened it wondering maybe if she had lined it with anthrax.
He began to read:
House,
bạn really are a self centered son of a ………… I can’t believe that bạn would have done this. Did bạn ever think about Rachel? She could have been in that dining room House. How could bạn have done this? I knew bạn were capable of hurting me but I never thought bạn would do anything like this. I never thought bạn would do anything that would endanger Rachel hoặc me physically. I see I gave bạn too much credit.
bạn said,” give me another chance.”
“I can do better”, bạn said.
"I care about bạn and I care about Rachel."
Do bạn remember any of that?
bạn do anything to avoid pain and bạn pour your pain out on anyone stupid enough to care anything about you. For years I lied for you, I broke every rule that I put into play at that hospital because I believed in you. I gave bạn everything bạn son of a ...I hate bạn for this House.
He put the letter down for a moment and tried to find a way to take a breath. "She hated him." He deserved it but she had loved him in a way noone ever had.
He went to the closet and pulled out a quần vợt shoe that held the last friend he had in it. He pulled the bottle from the shoe and popped the cap. He would always be able to count on vicodin.
Then her words rang in his ear:
“You do anything to avoid pain.” Those words he remembered so well. She had been right all along. Everything he had done in their relationship had been to avoid anything that would have caused him to lose her. Every decision, no matter how bad was to avoid pain. He stared at the pills for a moment and he realized that Cuddy had been the most beautiful thing in his life and he had done all the damage he wanted to do their memories. He went to the sink and poured the vicodin out. He began pouring all the alcohol out too.
"As he went back to the bàn he picked the letter back up."
A few spaces down he saw the words:
“I also tình yêu you.” bạn were the ngày I fell in tình yêu House. bạn were the most exasperating man I had ever met. bạn always thought bạn were right and most of the time bạn were. I remember all those years of your crazy antics and anyone else would have run away screaming but I just kept getting closer and closer to you.
I knew bạn though. I knew who bạn were on the inside. I knew bạn had been hurt and I also knew how warm and loving bạn were capable of being.
bạn were right when bạn đã đưa ý kiến I gave bạn everything bạn wanted because one night bạn gave me everything I wanted.
bạn were my first and ultimately bạn were my last because nobody ever came close to hiển thị me the tình yêu and affection that bạn did. Noone ever loved me the way bạn did. bạn were so tender and so passionate.
I remember how your hands felt sliding down my waist and lifting my áo cánh, blouse over my head and the way bạn looked at me sent waves of passion through me. bạn looked at me as if I were the most beautiful woman bạn had ever saw.
He paused for a moment", as he thought to himself, "you have always been the most beautiful woman I have ever known."
He comtinued reading.
I remember what your lips felt like as they claimed mine and when your body was pressed against mine. I remember the way bạn looked at me when bạn had taken every piece of clothes from me. I remember the groans that escaped your lips when bạn were inside me.
Because I remember those things I will always tình yêu you. bạn did make me better. But I didn’t make bạn better. I became your problem. bạn kept me at arms length distance with pills, alcohol, and lies. Anything to avoid what bạn thought would end in ultimate disaster.
The ngày of my surgery bạn sent people in, hacked my schedule, paid for my test results. But bạn refused to go through it with me. Instead of doing eveything bạn could do to figure out what to do bạn hid and panicked because oyu were afraid of pain.
bạn thought bạn had to be miserable to be a good doctor and I would have gladly listened to bạn about any case. I wanted to be a part of your life and share your life but the only thing bạn shared with me of yourself was sex. I wanted "you." I loved "you."
House, "you are the most incredible man I have ever known", but I am not what bạn need.
I am still so mad at bạn and so hurt that bạn could put my life and Rachel’s in jeopardy. For that I could never trust bạn again. I can never do that to Rachel.
I am leaving to get a new start. I will drop all the charges. But all debts are paid in full and we are done. Everything I have done to hurt bạn hoặc cause bạn pain is now "paid in full."We could have had it all but bạn couldn’t take a chance and ultimately I can’t take any thêm chances on you.
Cuddy
As he held the letter tears began to pour from his eyes like rain. No vicodin, no alcohol, no pain numbing methods would be used. This time he would allow himself to feel the pain.
