>”Meredith , I think we need to talk.” was all he said, his voice cold and resentful, the look on his eyes indicated a mix of confusion, pain and anger.
>”Ok then talk.”
>”They’re mine, aren’t they?”
>”Yes…”
>”Damn it Meredith, how could bạn hide from me the fact that bạn were pregnant with my children.”
>”They are not your children, they are my children, I was there for their first steps, their first words, for everything, I am working 12 hours a day, am a single mum and still I’m there for everything, bạn never were so bạn have no right calling them your children.”
>”And whose fault is that? Do bạn think that if I knew I wouldn’t like to be there for all three of you?”
>” If bạn came here to fight, bạn might as well leave, I’m not in the mood for it and I don’t want to scare the kids with the voices. What’s in the past is in the past Derek, we can’t change that.”
>”Yeah but that doesn’t change the fact that I have two four year-old kids that don’t even know me.”
>”They know you! They know you! I’ve talked to them about you, cause they kept asking, JD knows that his middle name Derek is because of bạn and Cass knows that her middle name Emma is from your mother. They know bạn are a neurosurgeon and that bạn fix peoples’ brains, in fact chim giẻ cùi, jay wants to become a neurosurgeon too when he grows up, he is really smart he is definitely going to make it. They know bạn leave here in Seattle and that bạn tình yêu fishing, another thing bạn have in common with JD, I swear this kids is like a replica of you. And they also have your last name… Shepherd. Their name is Grey-Shepherd and not Grey, Derek.”
Derek was now softer and he had become fascinated at the amount of information Meredith had just revealed him about his children. But what hit him the most…. Shepherd, after everything that had happened she wanted her kids to have his last name, she acknowledged him as their father, long before he knew anything about them.
>”I was going to tell you” she admitted silently, “I really was, I was coming to your office but I found bạn in the nurses’ station hiển thị the house plans of our dream house to that nurse. The kisses and the hugs in the hall did indeed bother me but I could handle it, I was used to watching bạn with another women, it was the same as Addison. But watching bạn revealing to her our future, I couldn’t take it Derek. I know I was being selfish but I couldn’t, so I left. bạn seemed happy, happier than bạn were when we were together, she was a better women, so I walked away. “ her voice was a level upon whisper and she could tell she was ready to break down in sobs but she didn’t want to reveal her vulnerability to him.
Derek didn’t know what to tell. He was stunned. So he đã đưa ý kiến the only coherent word he could pronounce at that moment. ”Meredith…”
>”Don’t Derek…” she cut him, “please just don’t say anything, I can’t take anymore of your lies” she đã đưa ý kiến with a defeated voice.
>”I’ve never lied to you” he stated firmly. “Every single thing I told bạn was real, I tình yêu bạn Meredith, I do, but bạn won’t let me. I know I’ve made mistakes and I know I’ve hurt bạn but all I am asking is a chance to hiển thị bạn how much I tình yêu you. These four years Meredith, were the worst of my life. I didn’t know where bạn had been, no one would tell how bạn were, I was a living ghost trying to breathe without bạn tiếp theo to me. When I was with Addison I continued to live because I… because when I’d come to the hospital I could see you, even from far away, I could catch a whiff of you.” He admitted something he never had. He now had tears filling his dreamy blue eyes, who were matching the cloudy morning sky of Seattle.
Meredith could see how upset and how truly sorry he was. She extended her hand towards him and he immediately took it.
>”Come upstairs, they have already fallen asleep but bạn could see them.” She told him.
Derek felt happier that he had in four years. Meredith would let him see Jaden and Cassidy.
Derek walked into their room. The side of Cass’s giường was a bit messy, with lots of búp bê and teddy-bears on the floor as well as clothes thrown all over the place. The side of Jaden’s giường was thêm neat. It had a small fishing pole and ferry-boat toys carefully placed on a dresser as well as some balls on the floor. His tim, trái tim was filled in delight when he saw the two sleeping figures. He went to sit in the middle after kissing both of them on the cheek and whispering how much he loved them and how he’d never leave them. Meredith was on her bedroom, lying completely awake on the bed, staring at the ceiling. After a while Derek walked in.
>”They are perfect” he đã đưa ý kiến calmly.
>”Yes they are,” stated Meredith “ they are both amazing.”
>”Thanks Mer, thank bạn for letting me see them, I know I don’t deserve your forgiveness but I would really want to have a place in their life.” He đã đưa ý kiến hesitantly.
>”Um..It’s getting late Derek” she said, while missing his eyes.
>”Right yes, I’m going now, thanks again” he replied sincerely.
He was walking out of the room when he heard Meredith’s voice,
>”Maybe if bạn would like… I mean we’ll be here for at least one thêm week, maybe bạn could spend the ngày with them, let them get to know you.” She suggested.
>”I’d tình yêu that !” he đã đưa ý kiến with excitement that made him seem like a child who was just được trao a new toy.
>”Derek” she added “ I um… would bạn like to sleep here tonight? Its late and until bạn reach the trailer it will be morning again.” She wasn’t sure about this but she had missed him and now he was in front of her standing here smiling and she was afraid that if he left everything would disappear and she would be alone again.
>”Sure, but are bạn ok with it? I mean really ok?”
>”Yeah I am.”
>”Ok I’ll crash at the couch.”
>” bạn can um… I mean if that is also ok with you… bạn could, I mean we could…how can I say it… bạn could sleep here on the giường with me. Jut sleep, on the giường I mean. It’s big and the đi văng is old and small and your back will probably hurt in the morning. I mean we’re both adults we can sleep in the same bed. So yeah, if bạn want bạn can sleep with me here.” She finished and let out a relieved sight.
>”What?” he asked!
>”These four years, were the worst for me too, besides the kids everything else had fallen apart, I missed bạn and I still tình yêu bạn and I want us to have a chance as a real family…but Derek, if you’re going to hurt me again, I need to know now, I don’t want to give bạn the key to my tim, trái tim again only to have it broken for once thêm because now I have JD and Cass to think of and I’ll never allow anything to hurt them!” Meredith đã đưa ý kiến with a firm voice as she was fidgeting with her wrist waiting for Derek’s answer!
Derek smiled at her and saw that she was still confused, so he approached her, gently place a hand at the small of her back and another hand at the back of her head and leaned down and kissed her. Soft kinda like a habit something that they would do for the rest of their lives, because he was never ever leaving her again, so unless she backed off he was going to be with her for the rest of their lives. Meredith immediately hugged him, while smiling through their Kiss which she deepened.
>”I tình yêu you…” Derek whispered in her ear once they broke off the kiss.
>”I tình yêu bạn too, I always have. “ Meredith replied without a hint of hesitation.
Derek smirked in his own unique arrogant way, a smirk that reminded her of their children who both would give her this kind of smirk when they’d achieve making her do something they wanted. And at that point she knew she was making the right choice letting Derek in once again. They always loved each other, they just had a weird way of hiển thị it, however this time it would all be different. They have their kids to think about. Derek would never hurt them and after not being with the tình yêu of his life for four years he’d sure as hell never make a similar mistake to his trước đó ones, a mistake that would cause him to lose Meredith once again. And she on the other side was far thêm mature and stable, she is available for a clear, truthful relationship. No thêm back and forth … they only di chuyển phía trước, chuyển tiếp from now on.
>”Ok then talk.”
>”They’re mine, aren’t they?”
>”Yes…”
>”Damn it Meredith, how could bạn hide from me the fact that bạn were pregnant with my children.”
>”They are not your children, they are my children, I was there for their first steps, their first words, for everything, I am working 12 hours a day, am a single mum and still I’m there for everything, bạn never were so bạn have no right calling them your children.”
>”And whose fault is that? Do bạn think that if I knew I wouldn’t like to be there for all three of you?”
>” If bạn came here to fight, bạn might as well leave, I’m not in the mood for it and I don’t want to scare the kids with the voices. What’s in the past is in the past Derek, we can’t change that.”
>”Yeah but that doesn’t change the fact that I have two four year-old kids that don’t even know me.”
>”They know you! They know you! I’ve talked to them about you, cause they kept asking, JD knows that his middle name Derek is because of bạn and Cass knows that her middle name Emma is from your mother. They know bạn are a neurosurgeon and that bạn fix peoples’ brains, in fact chim giẻ cùi, jay wants to become a neurosurgeon too when he grows up, he is really smart he is definitely going to make it. They know bạn leave here in Seattle and that bạn tình yêu fishing, another thing bạn have in common with JD, I swear this kids is like a replica of you. And they also have your last name… Shepherd. Their name is Grey-Shepherd and not Grey, Derek.”
Derek was now softer and he had become fascinated at the amount of information Meredith had just revealed him about his children. But what hit him the most…. Shepherd, after everything that had happened she wanted her kids to have his last name, she acknowledged him as their father, long before he knew anything about them.
>”I was going to tell you” she admitted silently, “I really was, I was coming to your office but I found bạn in the nurses’ station hiển thị the house plans of our dream house to that nurse. The kisses and the hugs in the hall did indeed bother me but I could handle it, I was used to watching bạn with another women, it was the same as Addison. But watching bạn revealing to her our future, I couldn’t take it Derek. I know I was being selfish but I couldn’t, so I left. bạn seemed happy, happier than bạn were when we were together, she was a better women, so I walked away. “ her voice was a level upon whisper and she could tell she was ready to break down in sobs but she didn’t want to reveal her vulnerability to him.
Derek didn’t know what to tell. He was stunned. So he đã đưa ý kiến the only coherent word he could pronounce at that moment. ”Meredith…”
>”Don’t Derek…” she cut him, “please just don’t say anything, I can’t take anymore of your lies” she đã đưa ý kiến with a defeated voice.
>”I’ve never lied to you” he stated firmly. “Every single thing I told bạn was real, I tình yêu bạn Meredith, I do, but bạn won’t let me. I know I’ve made mistakes and I know I’ve hurt bạn but all I am asking is a chance to hiển thị bạn how much I tình yêu you. These four years Meredith, were the worst of my life. I didn’t know where bạn had been, no one would tell how bạn were, I was a living ghost trying to breathe without bạn tiếp theo to me. When I was with Addison I continued to live because I… because when I’d come to the hospital I could see you, even from far away, I could catch a whiff of you.” He admitted something he never had. He now had tears filling his dreamy blue eyes, who were matching the cloudy morning sky of Seattle.
Meredith could see how upset and how truly sorry he was. She extended her hand towards him and he immediately took it.
>”Come upstairs, they have already fallen asleep but bạn could see them.” She told him.
Derek felt happier that he had in four years. Meredith would let him see Jaden and Cassidy.
Derek walked into their room. The side of Cass’s giường was a bit messy, with lots of búp bê and teddy-bears on the floor as well as clothes thrown all over the place. The side of Jaden’s giường was thêm neat. It had a small fishing pole and ferry-boat toys carefully placed on a dresser as well as some balls on the floor. His tim, trái tim was filled in delight when he saw the two sleeping figures. He went to sit in the middle after kissing both of them on the cheek and whispering how much he loved them and how he’d never leave them. Meredith was on her bedroom, lying completely awake on the bed, staring at the ceiling. After a while Derek walked in.
>”They are perfect” he đã đưa ý kiến calmly.
>”Yes they are,” stated Meredith “ they are both amazing.”
>”Thanks Mer, thank bạn for letting me see them, I know I don’t deserve your forgiveness but I would really want to have a place in their life.” He đã đưa ý kiến hesitantly.
>”Um..It’s getting late Derek” she said, while missing his eyes.
>”Right yes, I’m going now, thanks again” he replied sincerely.
He was walking out of the room when he heard Meredith’s voice,
>”Maybe if bạn would like… I mean we’ll be here for at least one thêm week, maybe bạn could spend the ngày with them, let them get to know you.” She suggested.
>”I’d tình yêu that !” he đã đưa ý kiến with excitement that made him seem like a child who was just được trao a new toy.
>”Derek” she added “ I um… would bạn like to sleep here tonight? Its late and until bạn reach the trailer it will be morning again.” She wasn’t sure about this but she had missed him and now he was in front of her standing here smiling and she was afraid that if he left everything would disappear and she would be alone again.
>”Sure, but are bạn ok with it? I mean really ok?”
>”Yeah I am.”
>”Ok I’ll crash at the couch.”
>” bạn can um… I mean if that is also ok with you… bạn could, I mean we could…how can I say it… bạn could sleep here on the giường with me. Jut sleep, on the giường I mean. It’s big and the đi văng is old and small and your back will probably hurt in the morning. I mean we’re both adults we can sleep in the same bed. So yeah, if bạn want bạn can sleep with me here.” She finished and let out a relieved sight.
>”What?” he asked!
>”These four years, were the worst for me too, besides the kids everything else had fallen apart, I missed bạn and I still tình yêu bạn and I want us to have a chance as a real family…but Derek, if you’re going to hurt me again, I need to know now, I don’t want to give bạn the key to my tim, trái tim again only to have it broken for once thêm because now I have JD and Cass to think of and I’ll never allow anything to hurt them!” Meredith đã đưa ý kiến with a firm voice as she was fidgeting with her wrist waiting for Derek’s answer!
Derek smiled at her and saw that she was still confused, so he approached her, gently place a hand at the small of her back and another hand at the back of her head and leaned down and kissed her. Soft kinda like a habit something that they would do for the rest of their lives, because he was never ever leaving her again, so unless she backed off he was going to be with her for the rest of their lives. Meredith immediately hugged him, while smiling through their Kiss which she deepened.
>”I tình yêu you…” Derek whispered in her ear once they broke off the kiss.
>”I tình yêu bạn too, I always have. “ Meredith replied without a hint of hesitation.
Derek smirked in his own unique arrogant way, a smirk that reminded her of their children who both would give her this kind of smirk when they’d achieve making her do something they wanted. And at that point she knew she was making the right choice letting Derek in once again. They always loved each other, they just had a weird way of hiển thị it, however this time it would all be different. They have their kids to think about. Derek would never hurt them and after not being with the tình yêu of his life for four years he’d sure as hell never make a similar mistake to his trước đó ones, a mistake that would cause him to lose Meredith once again. And she on the other side was far thêm mature and stable, she is available for a clear, truthful relationship. No thêm back and forth … they only di chuyển phía trước, chuyển tiếp from now on.