You’ve been back in South Dakota for about a month, bạn start school today. None of your Những người bạn know you’re back yet. You’ve just been hiding out in your room. The first 3 weeks were terrible, crying yourself to sleep, stomach aches, throwing up, head aches, hardly any sleep, depression and many other things. The past week you’ve trying to pull yourself together, just for school and your friends. You’ve also been keeping it a secret form your parents that bạn are pregnant, which would explain the throwing up in the mornings. Your terrified to tell your parents that your pregnant, terrified on how to handle it when they find out, terrified to have the baby, to take care of the baby, your just a kid yourself. Also the baby will probably grow up not knowing its father. Even know Marshall đã đưa ý kiến he would come find you, but he probably wont just because that’s how things work in life. bạn still miss Marshall so much, and your somewhat glad your having a baby with him, and your going to keep it because its apart of Marshall. Your in the bathroom making yourself look ‘pretty’ even know bạn don’t really give a shit. Your Mom walks in with that stupid grin on her face, bạn stare at her annoyed.
“You ok?” she asks. bạn nod your head a slightly smile. “Still miss Marshall don’t you?” she asks. Hearing his name makes bạn wanna cry. bạn sigh and just stare at her. “Look, honey, its for the best,” she says.
“I know what you’re trying to do Mom but I don’t think me being this miserable is very healthy for me,” bạn explain hoping she would hiển thị some sympathy for how you’re feeling.
“You’ll get over it, there’s plenty of guys out there,” she say as if that’s supposed to make bạn feel better, even know its not going too, knowing that your having a baby with him. Just looking at that baby is going to make bạn feel pain everyday seeing Marshall inside of him hoặc her.
“Whatever Mom, Im ready to go, so can we just drop the whole Marshall subject and go?” bạn ask her leaving the bathroom grabbing your bag off the hallway floor.
“Yeah,” she says sort of sad but thêm like shes annoyed with you.
The whole car ride to school bạn don’t say a word to your Mother, she don’t talk either, bạn think that she got the idea that bạn were annoyed with her. bạn walk in the room and the first person bạn see is you’re best friend, Annie, who bạn haven’t talked to for about one year. Shes standing with her back towards you. bạn walk up to her and tap her on the shoulder, she jumps and turns around.
“Lily!!” she yells hugging bạn immediately, bạn hug her back.
“Hey! How have bạn been,” bạn ask putting on a happy act, you’re happy to see her but the thing about Marshall is still making bạn wanna cry….
“What are bạn doing back here? I thought bạn were staying in Detroit forever.” she asks.
“Naw, things got…uhh bad with Nick so we had to di chuyển back here,” bạn say.
“What he do?” she asks.
“Stupid shit,” bạn say summing up the best bạn can so bạn don’t have to explain what he did to that poor hobo. Your bother went completely insane once bạn got back to South Dakota so they put bạn him in a psycho ward. Hes been there ever sense bạn moved and bạn haven’t even talked to him.
“Oh, I see,” she says. “Nice dog tag, some guy give that to bạn hoặc something?” she asks pointing to the dog tag around your neck. bạn nod, she lifts it up and stares at it. “Marshall Bruce Mathers III,” she reads, she drops it down. “So was that your boyfriend hoặc something?” she asks.
“Yeah, was…we broke up when we moved,” bạn say sadly.
“Aww, did bạn really like him?” she asks, bạn nod. “Was he cute?” she asks. bạn smile and nod, bạn pull out a picture of bạn and him, hes hugging bạn from behind your hands resting on his, your fingers are laced, and your heads are pressed together its taken outside there’s still snow on the ground and your standing under a cây bởi your house, your mother took that picture. “Aww he is cute,” she says staring at the picture. “You two look cute together,” she says. “You miss him?” she asks handing the picture back to you.
“Yes,” bạn say looking at the picture, bạn flip it over, on the back it says Marshall Mathers and Lily Jones spring of 1987. bạn put the bức ảnh back into your folder and sit down tiếp theo to Annie.
MARSHALLS POV>>>
The past tháng you’ve been thinking about Lily and bạn have also tried nghề viết văn some raps about her, but its just to damn depressing for you, bạn cant write anything. Ronnie thinks your crazy and so does everyone else. It’s the first năm of ninth grade. bạn miss Lily so much your trying to get over her but its been hard, all bạn have is pictures, bạn keep them in a shoe box under your bed. And bạn tell yourself everyday that someday bạn are going to find Lily no matter what it takes, you’re going to find her…
LILY’S POV>>
Its lunch time, school has gone ok, and all your Những người bạn keeping asking bạn why you’re back. bạn kept telling them that bạn would let them know during lunch time so bạn wont have to repeat yourself 6 times. Your walking to the lunch bàn with one of your Những người bạn Chelsea. Everyone else is already at the table, bạn sit down tiếp theo to Mary and Chelsea. “So are bạn gonna tell us why bạn moved back here?” Chelsea pipes up after about 5 phút of silence.
“Damn, it so sounds like bạn guys are disappointed that I came back,” bạn say.
“No, we just wanna know what Nick did that was so bad,” Chev says. bạn sigh…
“Well he got into drugs, and shit then he killed a hobo,” bạn say. They all stare at bạn like your kidding. “Im serious!” bạn sort of yell.
“He killed someone! Sweet!” Chev cheers, he likes violence. A teacher walking bởi stops and stares at bạn guys. “A movie,” Chev says quickly.
“Ahh,” he says nodding, she walks away. bạn sigh.
“Nice one,” bạn say and toss a piece of carrot at Chev, it hits him on the forehead and falls to his lap. He glares at you, and bạn giggle. He shakes his head.
“Stop flirting at the table,” Kathy says.
“What the fuck!?” bạn yell at her. “We’re not flirting for cryin out loud!” bạn yell.
“Seems like it,” Kathy says laughing.
“I don’t like Lily like that thank you,” Chev says then takes a drink of milk.
“So…. Do bạn like boys?” Chelsea says laughing.
“Sick no!” Chev yells and throws the carrot at Chelsea. bạn laugh.
“You guys should stop before we get yelled at,” Annie says annoyed.
“Aww is someone upset?” Chev says staring at her.
“No,” she says with a smile then throws a Skittle at Chev. bạn shake your head.
“Ok, I really think we should stop,” bạn say. They all stop laughing and stare at you. “Thank you,” bạn say.
“Hey, Annie told me bạn had a boyfriend back in Detroit, and she đã đưa ý kiến bạn showed her a picture can I see it!?” Jessie says being all jumpy and in your face about it. bạn stare at her for a few seconds, once she realizes your being serious she stops smiling and looks at bạn seriously. “Well?” she says after a while. bạn reach into your bag and pull out a green folder, bạn pull out the picture bạn showed to Annie this morning and hand it to Jessie, she grabs it quickly.
“Don’t bend it!” bạn scream at her.
“Ohh calm down, I wont,” Jessie says staring at the picture of bạn and Marshall. “Whats his name?” Jessie asks, as he hands the picture to Kathy.
“Marshall,” bạn say trying not to get sad.
“Hes hot!” Kathy says. bạn glare at her. “Not that I would wanna ngày him hoặc anything,” she adds. The picture goes around the whole table, Chev looks kind of angry when hes looking at it, he hands it back to bạn after about a second.
After school bạn walk trang chủ with Annie, she lives a few houses from you….
“I think Chev likes you,” she says randomly. bạn stop walking and stare at her.
“Uhh?” bạn ask.
“Well did bạn see how he acted around you, and how he looked mad about the picture of Marshall,” she says. “I think hes jealous,” she says.
“So?” bạn say.
“Do bạn like him?” she asks.
“I.. no, I just got out of a relationship that Im not over yet,” bạn say. “ I really liked Marshall,” bạn say. bạn place your hand on your stomach randomly.
“Do bạn have something bạn have to tell me?” she asks.
“No?” bạn say thêm as a câu hỏi rather than a straight answer.
“You do don’t you, bạn have a secret,” she says with a smile. “Tell me I wont tell anybody I promise, if I do bạn can hate me forever and bạn don’t ever have to talk to me again,” she says, bạn know her saying this she wont tell anybody, she never has told anybody anything before that bạn have told her not too… but you’re still afraid to tell her… “Well…?” she asks. bạn stop on the side walk bởi a old abandoned house and stare at her….wondering if bạn should tell her that your going to have Marshalls baby hoặc not tell her…
“You ok?” she asks. bạn nod your head a slightly smile. “Still miss Marshall don’t you?” she asks. Hearing his name makes bạn wanna cry. bạn sigh and just stare at her. “Look, honey, its for the best,” she says.
“I know what you’re trying to do Mom but I don’t think me being this miserable is very healthy for me,” bạn explain hoping she would hiển thị some sympathy for how you’re feeling.
“You’ll get over it, there’s plenty of guys out there,” she say as if that’s supposed to make bạn feel better, even know its not going too, knowing that your having a baby with him. Just looking at that baby is going to make bạn feel pain everyday seeing Marshall inside of him hoặc her.
“Whatever Mom, Im ready to go, so can we just drop the whole Marshall subject and go?” bạn ask her leaving the bathroom grabbing your bag off the hallway floor.
“Yeah,” she says sort of sad but thêm like shes annoyed with you.
The whole car ride to school bạn don’t say a word to your Mother, she don’t talk either, bạn think that she got the idea that bạn were annoyed with her. bạn walk in the room and the first person bạn see is you’re best friend, Annie, who bạn haven’t talked to for about one year. Shes standing with her back towards you. bạn walk up to her and tap her on the shoulder, she jumps and turns around.
“Lily!!” she yells hugging bạn immediately, bạn hug her back.
“Hey! How have bạn been,” bạn ask putting on a happy act, you’re happy to see her but the thing about Marshall is still making bạn wanna cry….
“What are bạn doing back here? I thought bạn were staying in Detroit forever.” she asks.
“Naw, things got…uhh bad with Nick so we had to di chuyển back here,” bạn say.
“What he do?” she asks.
“Stupid shit,” bạn say summing up the best bạn can so bạn don’t have to explain what he did to that poor hobo. Your bother went completely insane once bạn got back to South Dakota so they put bạn him in a psycho ward. Hes been there ever sense bạn moved and bạn haven’t even talked to him.
“Oh, I see,” she says. “Nice dog tag, some guy give that to bạn hoặc something?” she asks pointing to the dog tag around your neck. bạn nod, she lifts it up and stares at it. “Marshall Bruce Mathers III,” she reads, she drops it down. “So was that your boyfriend hoặc something?” she asks.
“Yeah, was…we broke up when we moved,” bạn say sadly.
“Aww, did bạn really like him?” she asks, bạn nod. “Was he cute?” she asks. bạn smile and nod, bạn pull out a picture of bạn and him, hes hugging bạn from behind your hands resting on his, your fingers are laced, and your heads are pressed together its taken outside there’s still snow on the ground and your standing under a cây bởi your house, your mother took that picture. “Aww he is cute,” she says staring at the picture. “You two look cute together,” she says. “You miss him?” she asks handing the picture back to you.
“Yes,” bạn say looking at the picture, bạn flip it over, on the back it says Marshall Mathers and Lily Jones spring of 1987. bạn put the bức ảnh back into your folder and sit down tiếp theo to Annie.
MARSHALLS POV>>>
The past tháng you’ve been thinking about Lily and bạn have also tried nghề viết văn some raps about her, but its just to damn depressing for you, bạn cant write anything. Ronnie thinks your crazy and so does everyone else. It’s the first năm of ninth grade. bạn miss Lily so much your trying to get over her but its been hard, all bạn have is pictures, bạn keep them in a shoe box under your bed. And bạn tell yourself everyday that someday bạn are going to find Lily no matter what it takes, you’re going to find her…
LILY’S POV>>
Its lunch time, school has gone ok, and all your Những người bạn keeping asking bạn why you’re back. bạn kept telling them that bạn would let them know during lunch time so bạn wont have to repeat yourself 6 times. Your walking to the lunch bàn with one of your Những người bạn Chelsea. Everyone else is already at the table, bạn sit down tiếp theo to Mary and Chelsea. “So are bạn gonna tell us why bạn moved back here?” Chelsea pipes up after about 5 phút of silence.
“Damn, it so sounds like bạn guys are disappointed that I came back,” bạn say.
“No, we just wanna know what Nick did that was so bad,” Chev says. bạn sigh…
“Well he got into drugs, and shit then he killed a hobo,” bạn say. They all stare at bạn like your kidding. “Im serious!” bạn sort of yell.
“He killed someone! Sweet!” Chev cheers, he likes violence. A teacher walking bởi stops and stares at bạn guys. “A movie,” Chev says quickly.
“Ahh,” he says nodding, she walks away. bạn sigh.
“Nice one,” bạn say and toss a piece of carrot at Chev, it hits him on the forehead and falls to his lap. He glares at you, and bạn giggle. He shakes his head.
“Stop flirting at the table,” Kathy says.
“What the fuck!?” bạn yell at her. “We’re not flirting for cryin out loud!” bạn yell.
“Seems like it,” Kathy says laughing.
“I don’t like Lily like that thank you,” Chev says then takes a drink of milk.
“So…. Do bạn like boys?” Chelsea says laughing.
“Sick no!” Chev yells and throws the carrot at Chelsea. bạn laugh.
“You guys should stop before we get yelled at,” Annie says annoyed.
“Aww is someone upset?” Chev says staring at her.
“No,” she says with a smile then throws a Skittle at Chev. bạn shake your head.
“Ok, I really think we should stop,” bạn say. They all stop laughing and stare at you. “Thank you,” bạn say.
“Hey, Annie told me bạn had a boyfriend back in Detroit, and she đã đưa ý kiến bạn showed her a picture can I see it!?” Jessie says being all jumpy and in your face about it. bạn stare at her for a few seconds, once she realizes your being serious she stops smiling and looks at bạn seriously. “Well?” she says after a while. bạn reach into your bag and pull out a green folder, bạn pull out the picture bạn showed to Annie this morning and hand it to Jessie, she grabs it quickly.
“Don’t bend it!” bạn scream at her.
“Ohh calm down, I wont,” Jessie says staring at the picture of bạn and Marshall. “Whats his name?” Jessie asks, as he hands the picture to Kathy.
“Marshall,” bạn say trying not to get sad.
“Hes hot!” Kathy says. bạn glare at her. “Not that I would wanna ngày him hoặc anything,” she adds. The picture goes around the whole table, Chev looks kind of angry when hes looking at it, he hands it back to bạn after about a second.
After school bạn walk trang chủ with Annie, she lives a few houses from you….
“I think Chev likes you,” she says randomly. bạn stop walking and stare at her.
“Uhh?” bạn ask.
“Well did bạn see how he acted around you, and how he looked mad about the picture of Marshall,” she says. “I think hes jealous,” she says.
“So?” bạn say.
“Do bạn like him?” she asks.
“I.. no, I just got out of a relationship that Im not over yet,” bạn say. “ I really liked Marshall,” bạn say. bạn place your hand on your stomach randomly.
“Do bạn have something bạn have to tell me?” she asks.
“No?” bạn say thêm as a câu hỏi rather than a straight answer.
“You do don’t you, bạn have a secret,” she says with a smile. “Tell me I wont tell anybody I promise, if I do bạn can hate me forever and bạn don’t ever have to talk to me again,” she says, bạn know her saying this she wont tell anybody, she never has told anybody anything before that bạn have told her not too… but you’re still afraid to tell her… “Well…?” she asks. bạn stop on the side walk bởi a old abandoned house and stare at her….wondering if bạn should tell her that your going to have Marshalls baby hoặc not tell her…
