It's not so bad when I'm alone, the constant buzzing. The voices dim to a faint hum in the background. If I'm alone in the building, I can almost taste the silence that resides just out of my grasp.
Sweet, blessed silence. I haven't heard it for years now, not since Dad died, and I'm pretty sure I'd give anything just to hear it again. Anything, anyone -- just tell where to deposit them, God, and they're all yours. Just give me silence again.
It all starterpd four years ago, when my dad died in that freak accident. I was 13 then, and didn't quite get it. One ngày Dad was there and my head was empty; then boom, a crash, an explosion, and both of these realities were turned on their heads. Dad was gone and my head was full of strange things.
Of course, it took me a while to figure out what I was hearing. I thought I'd gone mad at first -- my head was constantly full of financial worries, mental rants, sexual fantasies... anything and everything that may go through a person's head at any được trao moment of any được trao day.
I got headaches. I woke up screaming in the night; I couldn't concentrate bởi day. I got carted to doctors, to psychologists, to psychiatrists. I spent some time in a mental ward, but as I was otherwise perfectly sane, no one saw any point in keeping me there for long.
Finally, I realised what it was I was hearing.
Not once did I think, awesome! I can hear people's thoughts! Since ngày one it's always been abut getting rid of them. I've researched it online, done all the exorcism rituals and other things I could find, but nothing's worked. If anything, sometimes it feels like my "range" has grown. If anything. Whatever I do, I can't get rid of them.
I don't really live any thêm as opposed to just exist, staying away from people as much as possible. I've Mất tích all contact with the people who used to be my friends; the only contact I have to the outside world is when Mum brings me food. I don't really live, so I figure dying won't be such a big change. I've already ordered the pills from the online pharmacy and everything. Mum won't be trang chủ when the mailman comes.
Now all I have to do is wait.
I'll be free soon.
In silence.
Sweet, blessed silence. I haven't heard it for years now, not since Dad died, and I'm pretty sure I'd give anything just to hear it again. Anything, anyone -- just tell where to deposit them, God, and they're all yours. Just give me silence again.
It all starterpd four years ago, when my dad died in that freak accident. I was 13 then, and didn't quite get it. One ngày Dad was there and my head was empty; then boom, a crash, an explosion, and both of these realities were turned on their heads. Dad was gone and my head was full of strange things.
Of course, it took me a while to figure out what I was hearing. I thought I'd gone mad at first -- my head was constantly full of financial worries, mental rants, sexual fantasies... anything and everything that may go through a person's head at any được trao moment of any được trao day.
I got headaches. I woke up screaming in the night; I couldn't concentrate bởi day. I got carted to doctors, to psychologists, to psychiatrists. I spent some time in a mental ward, but as I was otherwise perfectly sane, no one saw any point in keeping me there for long.
Finally, I realised what it was I was hearing.
Not once did I think, awesome! I can hear people's thoughts! Since ngày one it's always been abut getting rid of them. I've researched it online, done all the exorcism rituals and other things I could find, but nothing's worked. If anything, sometimes it feels like my "range" has grown. If anything. Whatever I do, I can't get rid of them.
I don't really live any thêm as opposed to just exist, staying away from people as much as possible. I've Mất tích all contact with the people who used to be my friends; the only contact I have to the outside world is when Mum brings me food. I don't really live, so I figure dying won't be such a big change. I've already ordered the pills from the online pharmacy and everything. Mum won't be trang chủ when the mailman comes.
Now all I have to do is wait.
I'll be free soon.
In silence.
;]]]]]] I was bored. And please, no Femonk/Travtina comments.
1. Helena bởi MCR
Because 2 people already covered it and it's full of win.
2. Girlfriend bởi Avril Lavigne
I always find it funny when guys sing it. xD Especially the "Hell yeah, I'm the motherfucking princess!"
3. 17 bởi Jet
Coz he is... 17, I mean. :p
4. NYAN CAT song
He knows all the lyrics. ;]]]
5. Waiting bởi Green ngày (or any of the songs off Warning)
Because I am currently addicted to the song.
6. Destroya bởi MCR
I am a perv ;]
7. Baby bởi Justin Bieber
Coz he lied to us all about doing it.
8. Addicted bởi Simple Plan
Becauseeeee... I dunno. lol
9. I Wanna Be Sedated bởi The Ramones
Because... it rocks.
10. Sing bởi MCR
Appropriate, isn't it?
11. a redneck country song
LOL – Liên minh huyền thoại I dunno any, but it'll be funneh if he does.
12. Time to Dance bởi Panic!
Because I đã đưa ý kiến so.
1. Helena bởi MCR
Because 2 people already covered it and it's full of win.
2. Girlfriend bởi Avril Lavigne
I always find it funny when guys sing it. xD Especially the "Hell yeah, I'm the motherfucking princess!"
3. 17 bởi Jet
Coz he is... 17, I mean. :p
4. NYAN CAT song
He knows all the lyrics. ;]]]
5. Waiting bởi Green ngày (or any of the songs off Warning)
Because I am currently addicted to the song.
6. Destroya bởi MCR
I am a perv ;]
7. Baby bởi Justin Bieber
Coz he lied to us all about doing it.
8. Addicted bởi Simple Plan
Becauseeeee... I dunno. lol
9. I Wanna Be Sedated bởi The Ramones
Because... it rocks.
10. Sing bởi MCR
Appropriate, isn't it?
11. a redneck country song
LOL – Liên minh huyền thoại I dunno any, but it'll be funneh if he does.
12. Time to Dance bởi Panic!
Because I đã đưa ý kiến so.