Ari & Rachel ♥ Article: ☾happy anniversary, my moon☽

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posted by fairfarren

what i felt when i first met you

'sup girl. i don't even know how to start this hoặc what to say but i'm a writer so imma wing it. there's like a galaxy worth of stuff i could say but then again it's like i can only grasp a constellation worth when i'm grasping. it's strange, sitting down and pouring out your tim, trái tim and soul. it makes bạn vulnerable and open to the world in a weird way, but bạn know everything about me anyway so it's not like it matters. anyway. so. when we met. hmm. that nostalgia man. i've already told bạn like a million times how i sat in my laundry room trying to get wifi to talk to you. it's a special memory for me, how there was always something in me that reached out to bạn even though bạn were no thêm than a stranger to me, no thêm than a passing wanderer in life. and yet, something drew me to you, something i still can't pinpoint even to this day. but as we talked, we got closer and i tried to treasure every second. there have been times where i have been a horrible person, a horrible friend and i have mistreated bạn and taken advantage of you. and there have been some horrible falling outs between us, in which i do not look upon often, but when i do, it's with a sorrowful countenance (excuse your resident literature buff lmao). but the point is, bạn have always accepted me. accepted all sides of me. without question. and i appreciate that thêm than bạn know. that kind of loyalty and understanding cannot be earned hoặc gained hoặc bought. somehow i was lucky enough to meet you, to meet such a kind, honest person. and i have tried to accept each side of bạn as well and i hope i have done a good job. if i achieve nothing else in life, i will have wanted to be a good friend. if, before bạn die, i am that to bạn then my life will have been worth living.
i tình yêu you. i tình yêu the angry rachel, the passionate rachel, the procrastinating rachel, the sweet rachel, the clingy rachel, the hilarious rachel, the deep rachel, the sad rachel. i tình yêu them all. bởi now you're probably tired of đọc your name haha sorry. but i just want bạn to know that. i tình yêu the sides i can't fathom, the sides i've forgotten, the sides i've not mentioned. i even tình yêu the sides that irritate me, that annoy me. i even tình yêu the sides i hate. don't ask me how hoặc why but i just do. and i always will. if bạn ever need me for anything, i am bởi your side. bạn are eternally stuck with me. thank bạn for blessing me with your life, your presence, your soul. thank bạn for giving me this connection i can never replace, return, hoặc trade.
we've been together four years. for years. that's crazy. years. touching someone's life so much they want to talk to bạn everyday, they're interested in every aspect of your life, they are your best friend. it feels like a century. it feels like a moment. i wouldn't have believed someone if they told me i would be this close to you, that bạn would mean this much to me. but now i can't imagine a world without you. fate hoặc god hoặc whatever, they were fucking smart to pull us together. we need each other. we build each other up when we're torn down. we wouldn't be here without each other. it's so weird to look upon. as an outsider, i don't think i could understand our friendship. it is a singular one. it is one in a hundred million. it's special. it's special to me, it's special in general. damn. how. i tình yêu our crazy (THREE HOUR?!?!) conversations, how we can go from Disney princesses to the crevices of our soul, how we can tell each other everything, how we can talk about everything. not everyone can do that. not everyone can have that. i am so fucking lucky, i swear to god. thank you.
i tình yêu you. those three words are so simple and yet hold so much. bạn are everything to me. i tình yêu you, my moon. and i will always be your sun.

"what do bạn see, when bạn look at me?
don't cover my scars, let them bleed
tell me, is this how it's supposed to be?
well then, i'm so, i'm so happy.
we don't need rehab."

lmao i got one vàng for this aMaZiNg article? i do tình yêu you, cuốc đất, hoe :p