I miss you, I miss you. I miss bạn so much I hate myself for it. I remember the memories of when I was crazy in tình yêu with you. My memories keep looking for bạn but find that you're not here with me anymore.

[i]I miss you, I miss you. I miss bạn so much I hate myself for it. I remember the memories of when I was crazy in tình yêu with you. My memories keep looking for bạn but find that you're not here with me anymore.[/i[

The tiếp theo day, after eating breakfast, bạn and Randy go to the bờ biển, bãi biển together. It's kinda empty cuz it's early in the morning. bạn and Randy just wore regular clothes to the beach...

Chapter 12: Take My Breath Away

Landon walked around the park and he remembered times that his mom and him walked around here.

Landon knew one ngày he'll walk around the park with Britney.

Landon walked back to the hospital.

Jamie was holding Britney.

Cynthia was in the room too with a cup of coffee.

Landon kissed his mom's cheek and then he kissed Jamie.

"Where did bạn go?" asked Jamie

"I took a walk," đã đưa ý kiến Landon

"So did bạn call your boss?" asked Cynthia

"Three days off" đã đưa ý kiến Landon

"Good" đã đưa ý kiến Jamie

"I can't wait to spend time with my little girl" đã đưa ý kiến Landon

Landon was holding Britney.

At 3:54...

Chapter 9: Breathe

Landon was running through the halls to see his father.

Landon didn't stop and he made it in the room, and there was Jamie holding to Worth's hand.

Landon looked at Jamie and Jamie's eyes are tearful.

"He's strong," đã đưa ý kiến Jamie

"I know he is," đã đưa ý kiến Landon

The peacemaker was going up and down.

Jamie looked at it and then she stands up and looked at Landon.

She kissed Landon.

"When he wakes bạn talk to him kay" đã đưa ý kiến Jamie

"Kay" đã đưa ý kiến Landon

Jamie left,

Landon stayed in the room and he looked at his father.

Landon pulled up a chair tiếp theo to his father side.

Landon was just looking at him...

I lie awake driving myself crazy thinking of you. I made a mistake when I let bạn go. I drive myself crazy, wanting bạn the way that I do.

You've still been avoiding Randy as much as possible, yet yearning for him thêm as days pass by. It's been a tháng since bạn and Randy haven't đã đưa ý kiến a single word to each other.

**Randy's POV**

I'm such a mess! Look at me! Tossing and turning in my bed. It's been 5 hours since I've tried to go to sleep. **gets up and goes to the living room, watching TV** Ugh all these stupid soap operas. Isn't there anything good on? ...man...I was such a fool. How good was...

After a few weeks pass, you've been getting much sicker. bạn can feel it and bạn can see it. Whenever bạn look in the mirror, bạn see a pale face, small dark circles, and white lips. Your rosy cheeks have turned to paleness and nothing but paleness. You've been feeling much weaker and you've been sucking at bóng rổ lately. Your coach notices and he talks with bạn about it.

Coach: So Jamie. How is it?
Jamie: ...you should know coach...I'm losing it.
Coach: What can bạn do Jamie? bạn need to rest. bạn can't play.
Jamie: What? But...but I tình yêu playing. I can't just stop.
Coach: Then at least you...

Chapter 11: Baby Boom

Jamie was nine months; Landon was working at a drug store and going to school.

One ngày Jamie walked to her father 's house.

Jamie knocked on the door and Camilla opened the door.

"Hello Mrs. Carter" đã đưa ý kiến Camilla

"Hello Camilla bạn look nice today" đã đưa ý kiến Jamie

"Thank you, your dad have been waiting for, please come in," đã đưa ý kiến Camilla

"Thank you" đã đưa ý kiến Jamie entering the house.

Jamie looked around the house some things changed and some things remained the same.

Jamie looked at the phòng bếp, nhà bếp there was Hegbert making súp for lunch.

Jamie moved and she stands there watching her father...

Landon saw his son walking to the car he looked visibly annoyed. A young blonde girl was talking to him she carried a bible her hair in a ngựa con, ngựa, pony tail she wore jeans and and hoodie. She reminded him of... Jamie. He sighed as his son sat down in the car. Kevin was 15 and spending this week with him and the tiếp theo with his mom. Anna he had met her in Collage they hadn't worked. ''That Jessie Annoys me sooo much'' he ranted.

''How so?'' Landon asked.

''She so perfect shes so nice, Luke called her a chó cái, bitch today and she just promised to pray for him''. He stopped to take a breath. ''And that bible God''....

Chapter 14: tình yêu and Happiness

Jamie was getting changed to her black dress. She was putting on a little blush and she was putting on lip gloss. Hegbert comes in.

"Hey Jamie" đã đưa ý kiến Hegbert

"Hey dad" đã đưa ý kiến Jamie

"What's new with you?" asked Hegbert

"Oh nothing, Sunday Landon and I are coming for church, Britney sleeping over a Những người bạn house," đã đưa ý kiến Jamie

"Can't wait to see bạn guys there," đã đưa ý kiến Hegbert

"Okay Britney should be in her room," đã đưa ý kiến Jamie

"Thanks sweetie" đã đưa ý kiến Hegbert

Landon came walking in the house and he saw Britney watching t.v.

Britney run up to Landon and she hugged him.

"Hey Brit how was...

***Randy's POV***

Randy sees bạn go to the bathroom alone, wanting to wash your face. He held his tears back well, not letting one single drop fall when being with you.

Randy: I'm gonna go out to get some air.

Randy walks out of the hospital and sits on the stairs. His held back tears fall to the ground like a smooth river flowing. He covers his hand to his mouth, trying to not make any noises. The hình ảnh of bạn crying your tim, trái tim out, shouting that bạn wanted to live, comes to his mind...

***your POV***

You see Randy sitting there, moving his shoulders up and down as if he were crying.

Jamie: Randy....

Heaven
It had been 3 hours from the Jamie and Landon wedding. She was so beautiful in that dress. Landon looked breathlessly as she came down the aisle. She smiled at Landon and never wanted to be without him ever again.
"I somberly swear to take Jamie Elizabeth Sullivan to be my lawfully wedding wife" Landon said. "I somberly swear to take Landon Rollins Carter to be my lawfully wedding husband" Jamie said. "I pronounce bạn husband and wife" Hegbert said.
After the wedding
They had a big reception with so many people. The cake was huge. All Landon's Những người bạn were there. Jamie was happy that she...

Randy goes in your room when the doctor đã đưa ý kiến it was ok. He sees bạn sleeping and he can smell the bleach from cleaning up your blood. He grabs a chair and sits tiếp theo to you. He holds your hand and feels it cold. He warms them up for bạn bởi breathing on them. Randy starts tearing up again and his tear drops fall on your hand. He quickly wipes them off your hand...

You wake up to see Randy asleep on the chair tiếp theo to your bed. bạn look around and bạn realize your in a hospital. bạn can't remember anything that happened to bạn before except the dizziness bạn felt back at Randy's house. bạn smile...

I tình yêu you, I only need you. Everytime I look at you, my words change. It feels like the sun is shining down on me, giving me the warm feeling that bạn are my one and only last love.

The whole day, bạn and Randy hang out together with his brothers and Angie. bạn guys just all hang and chill together wherevers..

**at night**

You tuck in Angie again and bạn hear a knock on your door. It's Randy again.

Jamie: *smile* Oh it's bạn again.
Randy: *smile* Can I?
Jamie: Sure.

Randy plops onto your giường and gets under your covers. bạn follow right after and bạn Kiss him lightly.

Jamie: Ugh tomorrow's school.
Randy:...

****

Winter vacation is finally over and bạn guys all go back to school...

Shawn: xin chào Taylor. bạn think we can talk?
Randy: Uh sure.

Shawn and Randy go to the back of the school and they just stand there...

Shawn: Ok. I wanna be truthful and I wanna be as simple as possible too. bạn should let go of Jamie.
Randy: ...*kinda laughs* What?
Shawn: bạn should let go of Jamie. I mean bạn haven't even broke it with Lauren.
Randy: Oh...I totally forgot about her.
Shawn: See. Your just playing them.
Randy: Shawn, buddy, I know bạn like Jamie a lot but she's mine. I like her and she likes me. Lauren is just...unrequited...

Is my tình yêu really that bad? Everyone is happy when they're in love, but I'm here crying. Why am I hurting so much? I would leave anything for this tình yêu to happen...

You and Lauren head to the back of the school and she gives bạn a dirty look. bạn get a bad feeling and she pushes bạn and says:

Lauren: Are bạn a f**ing whore?!
Jamie: ...
Lauren: First bạn like him, then bạn break up with him, and now you're with him again?! Are bạn trying to play him?!
Jamie: ...
Lauren: Are you?!
Jamie: The only reason I left him was because of you. bạn đã đưa ý kiến bạn were suicidal...
Lauren: Randy Taylor is mine! Got it?!...

In the middle of the night again, bạn wake up feeling a sharp twisting pain in your stomach. bạn twitch and bạn quickly yet gently di chuyển Randy's hands off your waist. bạn leave the đi văng and bạn run to the bathroom and bạn head to the toilet. bạn just start throwing up and throwing up into the toilet, closing your eyes but feeling the acidic burn in your throat. When your done throwing up, bạn look and bạn see blood in the toilet.

Jamie: Oh god...

**next morning**

You go back to your giường and bạn plop onto the bed, not being able to fall asleep. bạn look up at the ceiling, just staring into the...

Randy: Y-yah sure. Come in.

Randy lets Shawn in the house and Brad sees him. Brad's face turns to >:0 and he says:

Brad: I'm glad your here Shawn cuz now I need to give bạn what bạn deserve.

Brad is about to cú đấm Shawn but his dad sees this and shouts:

Tim: xin chào xin chào hey!! What the hell is wrong with bạn Brad?
Brad: Dad...you don't even know what he did to Jamie.
Tim: What did he do huh?
Shawn: I tried to rape her sir.
Tim: I'm sorry I didn't catch that.
Shawn: I tried to rape her...sir.
Tim: ...you know what how DARE bạn try to pull something like that to a poor, sick girl and-

While saying that, the...

Even though bạn might never be bởi my side again, I will never forget you. bạn won't understand how happy I was with you. When those memories come bởi me, I will be thankful.

Randy: I want to Jamie really...but I can't let you. I don't wanna get hurt bởi bạn again.
Jamie: ...
Randy: And besides...what about Shawn? And what about Lauren? bạn always cared for them thêm than bạn did for me hoặc for you.
Jamie: ...
Randy: I'm sorry Jamie...
Jamie: Then at least drop me off at my house. That's the least bạn could do...right?
Randy: Of course.

You grab Angie and bạn sit in the back ghế, chỗ ngồi of Randy's car with Angie...

Jamie: H-huh?
Randy: I like bạn Jamie. Not just as a friend but thêm than that.
Jamie: ...I...
Randy: I know your going through a really tough time. I mean your grandma just died, bạn just broke up with your boyfriend, and...and your health.
Jamie: ...what?
Randy: I know...about your leukemia.
Jamie: ...
Randy: But Jamie...I want to help you. I don't want bạn to go through this alone.
Jamie: Randy...I want bạn to leave.
Randy: Wh-what?
Jamie: I want bạn to leave.
Randy: B-but-
Jamie: Randy...*tears* leave...
Randy: ...

Randy gets up and walks out your door. bạn hear him get in his car but something pulls...

Why won't bạn understand my heart? Even if it's not me, can't it just be me? I've never had this want for anyone before. Can't it be me? Can't it be me in this life time, hoặc can it be me in the tiếp theo life time? Even if bạn promised today is the end, I won't be afraid...

Randy parks in your driveway tiếp theo to Shawn's car and bạn see Shawn squatting down at your porch. He sees bạn and Randy and bạn get out of the car with Randy. bạn quickly get Angie and bạn walk tiếp theo to Randy, in case Shawn might do something to him. Shawn walks up to bạn and he starts yelling.

Shawn: Where the hell were you?!?!?...

**October**

So a whole tháng passed bởi and bạn and the whole group have gotten closer, esp. Randy. bạn and Shawn have started to barely hang out outside of school and bạn spend the rest of your time either studying, sleeping, eating, hoặc hanging out with both Angie and Randy.

**Friday**

Randy: So what do bạn wanna do this weekend Jamie?
Jamie: Um I don't know. My grandma wants me to go to church with her but I'm not all that spiritual.
Randy: Oh. Well what days bạn going?
Jamie: Saturday night and Sunday for a regular service.
Randy: Oh. Well we can hang out at your church then so bạn won't be bored....