“Pump! Pump!” went my pounding tim, trái tim as I trembled across the deserted hallway of school. As I looked around in this hall of nothingness, I realized that I was the fist person here. However, I had the feeling that I was being watched, and followed. It was not a good feeling
I didn’t mind getting to school early because I always liked watching the other kids scatter out on the playground one bởi one, and watching them tham gia different games. I was too afraid to play the games that the other boys played. Football and their aggressive chasing games just seemed dangerous, and I couldn’t stand the thought of getting hurt and taking a risk.
“Craackk!” I quickly jumped up, and pounded my feet on the rough cement ground. My head spun back like throwing a Frisbee in reverse. I had stepped on a wooden, arrowhead necklace. I looked back, too frightened and too shy to see if I was being watched. There, standing right behind me, was an alien like figure. It had four bulging eyes and slimy green skin that drooped into a long cloak. It oddly had an old Stanford baseball mũ lưỡi trai, cap on its head. It opened its snake looking mouth, and spoke to me.
“ You! bạn stepped on my necklace. For that, bạn must take me to your leader!” It explained in a high pitched and robotic tone.
“ U-um b-bbut, bạn want Mrs. Simon?” I asked
“Yes! Agree, hoặc I will curse bạn with nightmares!”
“ bạn cc-can’t t-take Mrs. S-simon,”
“ Well than! I will curse bạn with nightmares!” I stared at the alien, and the alien stared at me with its four silvery eyes, breaking the laws of hypnosis. I tried to speak, but these words were clogging up my throat; Who are you, how do bạn control my dreams, Why do bạn want Mrs. Simon, and how the heck did bạn get that stanford baseball cap?
After that long school day, I was nervous for bed. I shook while eating bữa tối, bữa ăn tối even though we had quesadillas, my favorite. I trembled while brushing my teeth. When I got in my bed, it took 1,200 sheep, and 200 pages of that encyclopedia I used as a stepping stool, to finally fall asleep. I envisioned a peculiar and scary dream; I was walking down that same hallway, and I saw that same creature. In the background there was scary, and horribly creaky violin music. It seemed as if I was hearing a 4 năm olds first violin recital.
In my dream, I told the creature, “ I need bạn to make it stop! Your nightmare is killing me!” but the creature just gave me that devil like glare. It opened its mouth and showed its sharp teeth. I ran away into a hall where there were a few people from my class. I felt relived, but they just looked at me pointlessly. I was as bewildered as when Alice fell down a hole, and realized she was going to be late for something she didn’t even know about. How could they just sit here and do nothing. I was being chased bởi an alien! Then all of a sudden a thought ran to me, and knocked me out with a club; The kids didn’t see me. The alien grabbed me and cupped its slimy hands over my neck, but before I could experience death, I woke up with my tim, trái tim pounding repetitively. I thought in my head; I can’t do in real life what I did in that horrible dream. That couldn’t happen. I didn’t meet a real alien, hoặc did I. My head was a spiral of các câu hỏi and thoughts.
The tiếp theo morning, I shook and trembled down that hallway like a shivering hamster. I heard that same violin âm nhạc in my head.
“ Hello again,” đã đưa ý kiến the high-pitched voice behind me. “ Did bạn have a good night sleep? Haa Haa Haa!” I didn’t say anything. “ You’re to shy to talk to me? Pretend I’m one of you’re Những người bạn bạn talk to.”
Then it all hit me in the face like a baseball bat knocking me flat on the ground; I never talk to my Những người bạn so I’d never talk to an alien, but most important I’d never make a friend. I ran away. At lunch, I sat at an actual bàn with a whole crowd of kids. I was nervous to say anything. What if they laughed at me? I remembered what the alien said, “Pretend I’m one of you’re Những người bạn bạn talk to.” That’s what I needed; a friend. I finally decided I needed to face my fear. Instead of fear facing me, and controlling everything I do.
Suddenly someone mentioned something about Survivor. Survivor was my yêu thích show, so I was sure to have a response. My words were boomerangs full of courage. They flue up to my mouth and then curved back to my vocal chords. Finally, those boomerangs Mất tích their touch and curl, and flue straight out of my mouth and into a few sentences.
“ Oh yeah! Did bạn see the part were J.T Mất tích the immunity idol?” I asked
“ That was so dumb. I can’t believe he did that. There’s one tonight,” đã đưa ý kiến the kid sitting across from me.
“ Oh, cool! I’ll see bạn tomorrow, and we can talk about it,” I said.
“ That sounds like a plan,” and after that, I knew that was just a start to a new friendship.
I knew I just made a friend, but I still hadn’t solved my bad dreams problem. I knew I needed the courage to confront that alien. That night I didn’t shake through everything I did. Instead, I was determined to talk to that alien, and not let my nightmare get into my head. I couldn’t let fear control me. Finally, I fell asleep after 997 sheep, and 40 thêm pages of that encyclopedia. I saw another dream where I stood up to the alien, and it almost ate me. However, I didn’t let some nightmare stop me do what I was determined to do. The tiếp theo morning, I thought out exactly what I was going to say to the alien. I was finally in that hallway.
“ Hello again! Do bạn like my hat? Muy-ha-ha-ha?” đã đưa ý kiến the devious alien.
“ I do not like your hat. Alien, I think it’s about time bạn listen to me! I bel-!”
“ I was wrong!” Interrupted the alien. “ bạn are the leader. bạn were worthy enough to confront a frightening alien and overcome your fear. I worship your courage. No nightmares will come to you. My village has something for you.” The alien took out the chuỗi hạt, chuỗi hạt cườm I had stepped on. “Keep this so that you’ll remember me, and the time bạn overcame your fear,” calmly đã đưa ý kiến the alien.
“Thank you.” I replied. The alien and I smiled at each other, and walked away.
I will always worship the time I met this alien, and overcame my fear.
I didn’t mind getting to school early because I always liked watching the other kids scatter out on the playground one bởi one, and watching them tham gia different games. I was too afraid to play the games that the other boys played. Football and their aggressive chasing games just seemed dangerous, and I couldn’t stand the thought of getting hurt and taking a risk.
“Craackk!” I quickly jumped up, and pounded my feet on the rough cement ground. My head spun back like throwing a Frisbee in reverse. I had stepped on a wooden, arrowhead necklace. I looked back, too frightened and too shy to see if I was being watched. There, standing right behind me, was an alien like figure. It had four bulging eyes and slimy green skin that drooped into a long cloak. It oddly had an old Stanford baseball mũ lưỡi trai, cap on its head. It opened its snake looking mouth, and spoke to me.
“ You! bạn stepped on my necklace. For that, bạn must take me to your leader!” It explained in a high pitched and robotic tone.
“ U-um b-bbut, bạn want Mrs. Simon?” I asked
“Yes! Agree, hoặc I will curse bạn with nightmares!”
“ bạn cc-can’t t-take Mrs. S-simon,”
“ Well than! I will curse bạn with nightmares!” I stared at the alien, and the alien stared at me with its four silvery eyes, breaking the laws of hypnosis. I tried to speak, but these words were clogging up my throat; Who are you, how do bạn control my dreams, Why do bạn want Mrs. Simon, and how the heck did bạn get that stanford baseball cap?
After that long school day, I was nervous for bed. I shook while eating bữa tối, bữa ăn tối even though we had quesadillas, my favorite. I trembled while brushing my teeth. When I got in my bed, it took 1,200 sheep, and 200 pages of that encyclopedia I used as a stepping stool, to finally fall asleep. I envisioned a peculiar and scary dream; I was walking down that same hallway, and I saw that same creature. In the background there was scary, and horribly creaky violin music. It seemed as if I was hearing a 4 năm olds first violin recital.
In my dream, I told the creature, “ I need bạn to make it stop! Your nightmare is killing me!” but the creature just gave me that devil like glare. It opened its mouth and showed its sharp teeth. I ran away into a hall where there were a few people from my class. I felt relived, but they just looked at me pointlessly. I was as bewildered as when Alice fell down a hole, and realized she was going to be late for something she didn’t even know about. How could they just sit here and do nothing. I was being chased bởi an alien! Then all of a sudden a thought ran to me, and knocked me out with a club; The kids didn’t see me. The alien grabbed me and cupped its slimy hands over my neck, but before I could experience death, I woke up with my tim, trái tim pounding repetitively. I thought in my head; I can’t do in real life what I did in that horrible dream. That couldn’t happen. I didn’t meet a real alien, hoặc did I. My head was a spiral of các câu hỏi and thoughts.
The tiếp theo morning, I shook and trembled down that hallway like a shivering hamster. I heard that same violin âm nhạc in my head.
“ Hello again,” đã đưa ý kiến the high-pitched voice behind me. “ Did bạn have a good night sleep? Haa Haa Haa!” I didn’t say anything. “ You’re to shy to talk to me? Pretend I’m one of you’re Những người bạn bạn talk to.”
Then it all hit me in the face like a baseball bat knocking me flat on the ground; I never talk to my Những người bạn so I’d never talk to an alien, but most important I’d never make a friend. I ran away. At lunch, I sat at an actual bàn with a whole crowd of kids. I was nervous to say anything. What if they laughed at me? I remembered what the alien said, “Pretend I’m one of you’re Những người bạn bạn talk to.” That’s what I needed; a friend. I finally decided I needed to face my fear. Instead of fear facing me, and controlling everything I do.
Suddenly someone mentioned something about Survivor. Survivor was my yêu thích show, so I was sure to have a response. My words were boomerangs full of courage. They flue up to my mouth and then curved back to my vocal chords. Finally, those boomerangs Mất tích their touch and curl, and flue straight out of my mouth and into a few sentences.
“ Oh yeah! Did bạn see the part were J.T Mất tích the immunity idol?” I asked
“ That was so dumb. I can’t believe he did that. There’s one tonight,” đã đưa ý kiến the kid sitting across from me.
“ Oh, cool! I’ll see bạn tomorrow, and we can talk about it,” I said.
“ That sounds like a plan,” and after that, I knew that was just a start to a new friendship.
I knew I just made a friend, but I still hadn’t solved my bad dreams problem. I knew I needed the courage to confront that alien. That night I didn’t shake through everything I did. Instead, I was determined to talk to that alien, and not let my nightmare get into my head. I couldn’t let fear control me. Finally, I fell asleep after 997 sheep, and 40 thêm pages of that encyclopedia. I saw another dream where I stood up to the alien, and it almost ate me. However, I didn’t let some nightmare stop me do what I was determined to do. The tiếp theo morning, I thought out exactly what I was going to say to the alien. I was finally in that hallway.
“ Hello again! Do bạn like my hat? Muy-ha-ha-ha?” đã đưa ý kiến the devious alien.
“ I do not like your hat. Alien, I think it’s about time bạn listen to me! I bel-!”
“ I was wrong!” Interrupted the alien. “ bạn are the leader. bạn were worthy enough to confront a frightening alien and overcome your fear. I worship your courage. No nightmares will come to you. My village has something for you.” The alien took out the chuỗi hạt, chuỗi hạt cườm I had stepped on. “Keep this so that you’ll remember me, and the time bạn overcame your fear,” calmly đã đưa ý kiến the alien.
“Thank you.” I replied. The alien and I smiled at each other, and walked away.
I will always worship the time I met this alien, and overcame my fear.
Glance the other way
Rip your tim, trái tim out
I just don't care anymore
You're useless
And uncaring
bạn know nothing!
Yet bạn pretend bạn do
You're a pretender
A pretender is just a liar in disguise
A pretender is a faker
A pretender hides
A pretender is a maker
Of the dark abyss
bạn told me once
I told bạn twice
Now what?
Do we forget the past?
Live for the future?
hoặc remember and continue on our path?
...Decisions...Decisions...
Left hoặc right?
Up hoặc down?
Wrong hoặc right?
Please give me the answer
For I do not know
Right and wrong any longer
Rip your tim, trái tim out
I just don't care anymore
You're useless
And uncaring
bạn know nothing!
Yet bạn pretend bạn do
You're a pretender
A pretender is just a liar in disguise
A pretender is a faker
A pretender hides
A pretender is a maker
Of the dark abyss
bạn told me once
I told bạn twice
Now what?
Do we forget the past?
Live for the future?
hoặc remember and continue on our path?
...Decisions...Decisions...
Left hoặc right?
Up hoặc down?
Wrong hoặc right?
Please give me the answer
For I do not know
Right and wrong any longer
Chapter 4: Sunny day
These were the days of peace and happiness.
Days were spent in peace and love.
Jack loved his job, even though he wasn't that patient with children who didn't pay attention on his classes.
But, he knew. He was doing something
important, something useful.
And most of all, he knew that his lovely wife
and beautiful little Gwenny were waiting for him
at home.
Dana was amazing at kitchen.
Jack loved everything she made.
One happy family they were.
Like every morning, Jack would go to work,
and Dana would make a breakfast and some coffee to wake them up.
Morning coffee was something wonderful
for both of them.
After having breakfast, Jack would drink coffee
with Dana, looking at her with the same gentle
and passionate tình yêu that never fades.
"I'll see bạn later, darling." - Jack đã đưa ý kiến and
went to work.
Dana was still sitting and enjoying in the coffee,
watching through the window the sunlight.
She could smell the hoa that were growing
in the yard.
These were the days of peace and happiness.
Days were spent in peace and love.
Jack loved his job, even though he wasn't that patient with children who didn't pay attention on his classes.
But, he knew. He was doing something
important, something useful.
And most of all, he knew that his lovely wife
and beautiful little Gwenny were waiting for him
at home.
Dana was amazing at kitchen.
Jack loved everything she made.
One happy family they were.
Like every morning, Jack would go to work,
and Dana would make a breakfast and some coffee to wake them up.
Morning coffee was something wonderful
for both of them.
After having breakfast, Jack would drink coffee
with Dana, looking at her with the same gentle
and passionate tình yêu that never fades.
"I'll see bạn later, darling." - Jack đã đưa ý kiến and
went to work.
Dana was still sitting and enjoying in the coffee,
watching through the window the sunlight.
She could smell the hoa that were growing
in the yard.
I lied
I lied to them and got caught
I confessed up and told them the truth
but they get thêm upset
I walk down the dark hallway
into my lonely empty room
I lie on my bed, thinking
I go to di chuyển and I can't
I fall down
pain shooting threw me
they walk in
saying I'm faking to make them feel bad
they walk out
leaving me on the ground
crying out in pain
I finally give up
crawl over to the closet
get the gun and cocked it
put it to my temple and pulled the trigger
life...filled with hate
I've chased down all my demons
but it wasn't enough
mistreated,misplaced,misunderstood.
I lied to them and got caught
I confessed up and told them the truth
but they get thêm upset
I walk down the dark hallway
into my lonely empty room
I lie on my bed, thinking
I go to di chuyển and I can't
I fall down
pain shooting threw me
they walk in
saying I'm faking to make them feel bad
they walk out
leaving me on the ground
crying out in pain
I finally give up
crawl over to the closet
get the gun and cocked it
put it to my temple and pulled the trigger
life...filled with hate
I've chased down all my demons
but it wasn't enough
mistreated,misplaced,misunderstood.
I keep my rhythm
I tap in time,
My âm nhạc is my world
An angry beat inside.
It can crash like a waterfall
hoặc gradually trickle down,
It can make bạn laugh and cry
That powerful sound.
My headphones on my head
The lyrics flowing though,
Filling up my brain
âm nhạc is the thực phẩm I chew.
It can be beautiful, strange
Crazy and cool,
I couldn't live without music
There's a style to suit all.
âm nhạc is like a brand new life
Jumping around your mind,
Each instrument that is played
Is an ingredient to find.
There's nothing quite like music
There's nothing quite like me,
bạn can always find a friend in music
âm nhạc will always be.
I tap in time,
My âm nhạc is my world
An angry beat inside.
It can crash like a waterfall
hoặc gradually trickle down,
It can make bạn laugh and cry
That powerful sound.
My headphones on my head
The lyrics flowing though,
Filling up my brain
âm nhạc is the thực phẩm I chew.
It can be beautiful, strange
Crazy and cool,
I couldn't live without music
There's a style to suit all.
âm nhạc is like a brand new life
Jumping around your mind,
Each instrument that is played
Is an ingredient to find.
There's nothing quite like music
There's nothing quite like me,
bạn can always find a friend in music
âm nhạc will always be.
The pain bạn caused isn't what scarred me
The burning tears bạn left me to shed isn't what burned me
Your last words aren't what hindered me
It was the Legend.
That endless struggle to win
To fight back
To not toss and turn in my bed
That secure feeling I had before you
To feel as a sharp as a pencil lead
Now that loneliness I feel without you
A constant reminder
Feeling my tim, trái tim beat again
Done with the breathtaking moments
And the heart-skipping kisses
To breathe again
Over and Done with
It wasn't those tears
It wasn't those words
It wasn't all that pain bạn left me to bare.
It wasn't the legend bạn were when bạn were here
But the legacy in my tim, trái tim that bạn left!
The burning tears bạn left me to shed isn't what burned me
Your last words aren't what hindered me
It was the Legend.
That endless struggle to win
To fight back
To not toss and turn in my bed
That secure feeling I had before you
To feel as a sharp as a pencil lead
Now that loneliness I feel without you
A constant reminder
Feeling my tim, trái tim beat again
Done with the breathtaking moments
And the heart-skipping kisses
To breathe again
Over and Done with
It wasn't those tears
It wasn't those words
It wasn't all that pain bạn left me to bare.
It wasn't the legend bạn were when bạn were here
But the legacy in my tim, trái tim that bạn left!
There I was. *sigh* Just sitting there, waiting for him. Who? bạn ask? My crush, Patrick Wellsiben, he was the one for me. Let alone, him being THE most được ưa chuộng boy in school, I was known as a loser. I was the omega of the chó sói, sói pack. What am I talking about? Nevermind. My conscience says "Ask him out!", but my guts say "Don't do it you! He's gonna say no!" I don't know what to do! He comes near me and says "Hey." I stand there like a scarecrow smiling. "I feel stupid." "So stupid." Why shouldn't I get the attention from populars? I have short, thick black hair, I wear tank tops all the time, regular jeans and converse. So much for fitting in.