CHAPTER 18
It has been 2 days, 3 hours, and 25 phút and 3 seconds. Since I have been sitting here, thinking. Thinking of everything that has happened the last few days. I have killed both the một giây most powerful ma cà rồng in our world. I killed Jane and Alec. I still feel as though I failed. I failed my family. I failed my daughter. Though these days that I have been thinking I have been sitting in my room as still as a statute, not moving hoặc breathing. Scared that realty will come down fast and harder then I would like it to.
“Bella, honey, what are bạn thinking?” My beloved asked. It has been the first time anyone has talked scene we came in this room. I don’t mind the silence. I miss it even.
“Nothing” I stated. I know I am lying but I don’t want to worry him and everyone down stairs. Who with no doubt are listening to every word for answers? I feel as though I should tell him but I can’t bring myself to do it. “Nothing at all” I đã đưa ý kiến again with thêm convened then last time.
“Bella, don’t lie to me. I have known bạn for almost for 8 years. Don’t bạn dare lie to me. All it’s going to do it destroy us. So please Bella, just talk to me.” He said. He had a string of worry in his voice. Though Edward was always hiding it and covered it with a light hint of a teasing tone.
“Edward, are bạn sure bạn want to know?” I asked hoping he would say no but he shakes his head yes. So I go into explain everything. Well kind of everything. “Fine. bạn asked for it.” I Sighed. Then begin. “I feel as though I failed bạn and my daughter, my own daughter. Who I wasn’t there for, instead I was battling the most ridiculous ma cà rồng in this lifetime. I failed this family. I feel as though I don’t deserve to be in this family. I don’t belong in this family. bạn guys are saints compared to me. God, I killed the most powerful ma cà rồng one bởi one. I also still have Aro and I have this weird feeling as though I may have to fight them just to follow through with the deal. I also have to make sure I find someone that will do a good job of being leader instead of having to be taken down later down the road.” I took a deep breath. This really wasn’t needed. “Edward, I am a monster. There is no taking back that I am. I am the one who killed two people not in even a few days ago. I am the one who is willing to kill Aro and everyone else who gets in the way of my family even if it kills me in the progress. Worst of all I am the worst mother, wife, also the worst person and also worst person to be in a family with.” I stated all of this in less than a một phút rant. I was upset with myself. I was mad at myself. I just wanted to crawl in giường and sob and cry the tears I will never be able to shed. He was going to convene me I didn’t do anything and say I am wrong but I don’t believe him. “Edward Mason Cullen, don’t bạn dare.” I yelled. “Just don’t bạn dare tell me I am wrong and that nothing I đã đưa ý kiến was right.” I screamed. “Don’t bạn DARE!!!” I seethed. I could tell just bởi the look in his eyes that he was planning on doing just that. “Please Edward. Just don’t.” I stated. I fell into his arms and sobbed for everything and anything.
“Bella, I know bạn don’t want to say anything but I feel as though it’s my job to say something. I also know it’s my job to care and help. Bella, bạn have not failed. bạn have won. bạn have won back our freedom and our time to spend endless time together with OUR daughter and OUR family because of you. Bella, bạn belong with our crazy, messed up family. Yes indeed bạn have killed Jane and Alec but that doesn’t make bạn a crazy monster. It makes bạn the wife that I tình yêu and makes bạn the amazing mother bạn are. It makes bạn the daughter and sister –in –law that they love. Yes, I wouldn’t be surprised if bạn had to take down Aro and bạn won. Though let us help bạn when it comes to that part. Please? “He took a breath and looked at me and held me tighter. “ Bella Cullen, bạn are no monster because your number one reason for fighting was for your family. I would have done the same if I knew what was going on” He said. He stared down at and started laughing. “We would all do that if need be. Don’t ever forget that. Don’t allow yourself to forget that bạn are not alone. That bạn have a whole big family downstairs and bạn have Neisse and I. I will always be bởi your side. If bạn let me.” He stated and he kissed me. We were soon interrupted Emmett.
Yeah Bells were all here for you. No matter what kind of trouble bạn are in. bạn got to help. Even though what bạn did out there was killer. It was amazing. bạn got to teach me how to do some of that crap bạn did.” I laughed and đã đưa ý kiến maybe. “Oh, no maybes. I get a defiantly from bạn missy. I understand bạn are stubborn as hell. God, did we just realize how stubborn bạn were when bạn pushed us all away. Though just because bạn as stubborn as hell that doesn’t mean I won’t beat your ass.” He was standing in front of me with his arms out for a hug and I ran into them. He was my big teddy chịu, gấu that was my big brother that I knew had until now.
“Thanks Emmett. That was good to hear from you.” I said. With the tình yêu had for my yêu thích brother –in-law coming out thickly.
“Your welcome, Bells. Now how about bạn come down stairs and explain what the hell happened.” Emmett said. I looked at Edward in a silent look asking if it would be okay and if he would come with me. He just nodded and picked me up and ran down the stairs into the living room bring me down also.
“GUYS!” I yelled. “We need to talk everyone meet up in the living room.” I yelled. I walked over to the coach where my daughter was sitting and I grabbed onto her not letting go just letting her cry and sob into my shirt.
“I am so sorry honey” I said. “I tình yêu bạn baby girl” I đã đưa ý kiến and hugged her again. Edward sat down tiếp theo to us and wiped away the tears falling down her cheeks.
10 phút later
Everyone filled into the room taking any ghế, chỗ ngồi available. I took a deep breath before I looked at everyone and saw confusion and a million other expressions but the one that stand out the most is tình yêu and concern and relief and worry. Once everyone realized I was ready all hell broke loose.
It has been 2 days, 3 hours, and 25 phút and 3 seconds. Since I have been sitting here, thinking. Thinking of everything that has happened the last few days. I have killed both the một giây most powerful ma cà rồng in our world. I killed Jane and Alec. I still feel as though I failed. I failed my family. I failed my daughter. Though these days that I have been thinking I have been sitting in my room as still as a statute, not moving hoặc breathing. Scared that realty will come down fast and harder then I would like it to.
“Bella, honey, what are bạn thinking?” My beloved asked. It has been the first time anyone has talked scene we came in this room. I don’t mind the silence. I miss it even.
“Nothing” I stated. I know I am lying but I don’t want to worry him and everyone down stairs. Who with no doubt are listening to every word for answers? I feel as though I should tell him but I can’t bring myself to do it. “Nothing at all” I đã đưa ý kiến again with thêm convened then last time.
“Bella, don’t lie to me. I have known bạn for almost for 8 years. Don’t bạn dare lie to me. All it’s going to do it destroy us. So please Bella, just talk to me.” He said. He had a string of worry in his voice. Though Edward was always hiding it and covered it with a light hint of a teasing tone.
“Edward, are bạn sure bạn want to know?” I asked hoping he would say no but he shakes his head yes. So I go into explain everything. Well kind of everything. “Fine. bạn asked for it.” I Sighed. Then begin. “I feel as though I failed bạn and my daughter, my own daughter. Who I wasn’t there for, instead I was battling the most ridiculous ma cà rồng in this lifetime. I failed this family. I feel as though I don’t deserve to be in this family. I don’t belong in this family. bạn guys are saints compared to me. God, I killed the most powerful ma cà rồng one bởi one. I also still have Aro and I have this weird feeling as though I may have to fight them just to follow through with the deal. I also have to make sure I find someone that will do a good job of being leader instead of having to be taken down later down the road.” I took a deep breath. This really wasn’t needed. “Edward, I am a monster. There is no taking back that I am. I am the one who killed two people not in even a few days ago. I am the one who is willing to kill Aro and everyone else who gets in the way of my family even if it kills me in the progress. Worst of all I am the worst mother, wife, also the worst person and also worst person to be in a family with.” I stated all of this in less than a một phút rant. I was upset with myself. I was mad at myself. I just wanted to crawl in giường and sob and cry the tears I will never be able to shed. He was going to convene me I didn’t do anything and say I am wrong but I don’t believe him. “Edward Mason Cullen, don’t bạn dare.” I yelled. “Just don’t bạn dare tell me I am wrong and that nothing I đã đưa ý kiến was right.” I screamed. “Don’t bạn DARE!!!” I seethed. I could tell just bởi the look in his eyes that he was planning on doing just that. “Please Edward. Just don’t.” I stated. I fell into his arms and sobbed for everything and anything.
“Bella, I know bạn don’t want to say anything but I feel as though it’s my job to say something. I also know it’s my job to care and help. Bella, bạn have not failed. bạn have won. bạn have won back our freedom and our time to spend endless time together with OUR daughter and OUR family because of you. Bella, bạn belong with our crazy, messed up family. Yes indeed bạn have killed Jane and Alec but that doesn’t make bạn a crazy monster. It makes bạn the wife that I tình yêu and makes bạn the amazing mother bạn are. It makes bạn the daughter and sister –in –law that they love. Yes, I wouldn’t be surprised if bạn had to take down Aro and bạn won. Though let us help bạn when it comes to that part. Please? “He took a breath and looked at me and held me tighter. “ Bella Cullen, bạn are no monster because your number one reason for fighting was for your family. I would have done the same if I knew what was going on” He said. He stared down at and started laughing. “We would all do that if need be. Don’t ever forget that. Don’t allow yourself to forget that bạn are not alone. That bạn have a whole big family downstairs and bạn have Neisse and I. I will always be bởi your side. If bạn let me.” He stated and he kissed me. We were soon interrupted Emmett.
Yeah Bells were all here for you. No matter what kind of trouble bạn are in. bạn got to help. Even though what bạn did out there was killer. It was amazing. bạn got to teach me how to do some of that crap bạn did.” I laughed and đã đưa ý kiến maybe. “Oh, no maybes. I get a defiantly from bạn missy. I understand bạn are stubborn as hell. God, did we just realize how stubborn bạn were when bạn pushed us all away. Though just because bạn as stubborn as hell that doesn’t mean I won’t beat your ass.” He was standing in front of me with his arms out for a hug and I ran into them. He was my big teddy chịu, gấu that was my big brother that I knew had until now.
“Thanks Emmett. That was good to hear from you.” I said. With the tình yêu had for my yêu thích brother –in-law coming out thickly.
“Your welcome, Bells. Now how about bạn come down stairs and explain what the hell happened.” Emmett said. I looked at Edward in a silent look asking if it would be okay and if he would come with me. He just nodded and picked me up and ran down the stairs into the living room bring me down also.
“GUYS!” I yelled. “We need to talk everyone meet up in the living room.” I yelled. I walked over to the coach where my daughter was sitting and I grabbed onto her not letting go just letting her cry and sob into my shirt.
“I am so sorry honey” I said. “I tình yêu bạn baby girl” I đã đưa ý kiến and hugged her again. Edward sat down tiếp theo to us and wiped away the tears falling down her cheeks.
10 phút later
Everyone filled into the room taking any ghế, chỗ ngồi available. I took a deep breath before I looked at everyone and saw confusion and a million other expressions but the one that stand out the most is tình yêu and concern and relief and worry. Once everyone realized I was ready all hell broke loose.
I'm sooo sooo sooo sorry i haven't đã đăng in like forever but I have a MAJOR writer's block. I will try to post thêm of my Unspoken story when i do not have writer's block
sincerely,
kayla
srry for all the extra space
sincerely,
kayla
srry for all the extra space
Hello, My Name Is: Death
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Later that day, Jerek was visiting with Verona, and I was bored off my ass. I was wanting to talk to Tabra, but every time I approached him, he was suddenly busy. We had people on watch guard, and Shropee didn't need me to do anything, so I was bored. Very. Bored.
"I'm bored." I đã đưa ý kiến to cây ô rô, hoa huệ, holly who was walking past me.
"Like I care!" She snapped, and continued on her way.
"Well." I got to my feet, and started off to see how Verona's doing.
When I got to the bottom of the steps, Jerek ran out of the room. "I'll be back. I'm getting Shropee."
"Wait. What? Why?" I asked. "Is she okay?"
"She's awake." Jerek called over his shoulder, and I gasped.
Verona's awake? Verona's awake. Verona's awake.
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[FOURTEEN]
Later that day, Jerek was visiting with Verona, and I was bored off my ass. I was wanting to talk to Tabra, but every time I approached him, he was suddenly busy. We had people on watch guard, and Shropee didn't need me to do anything, so I was bored. Very. Bored.
"I'm bored." I đã đưa ý kiến to cây ô rô, hoa huệ, holly who was walking past me.
"Like I care!" She snapped, and continued on her way.
"Well." I got to my feet, and started off to see how Verona's doing.
When I got to the bottom of the steps, Jerek ran out of the room. "I'll be back. I'm getting Shropee."
"Wait. What? Why?" I asked. "Is she okay?"
"She's awake." Jerek called over his shoulder, and I gasped.
Verona's awake? Verona's awake. Verona's awake.
Hear out my tortured soul
For I have nowhere else to go
bạn captured my dead, Nữ hoàng băng giá heart
Now yours and mine’ll never be apart
bạn took my breath away
And in my tim, trái tim you’ll always stay
bạn are my life now
Believe me, for this I vow
My Công chúa tóc xù and trusting love
From the heavens above
I’ll do everything for you
And I’ll always be true
When bạn called out my name
My life had never been the same
bạn kept my feet on the ground
‘Cause my purpose had been found
Your Sô cô la brown eyes
Are honest and wise
Through them I could see
How bạn irrevocably tình yêu me
For I have nowhere else to go
bạn captured my dead, Nữ hoàng băng giá heart
Now yours and mine’ll never be apart
bạn took my breath away
And in my tim, trái tim you’ll always stay
bạn are my life now
Believe me, for this I vow
My Công chúa tóc xù and trusting love
From the heavens above
I’ll do everything for you
And I’ll always be true
When bạn called out my name
My life had never been the same
bạn kept my feet on the ground
‘Cause my purpose had been found
Your Sô cô la brown eyes
Are honest and wise
Through them I could see
How bạn irrevocably tình yêu me