I wanted to get a very nice dress. I wanted to look nice when we met the Cullens and, if I was being honest with myself, I wanted to look nice for Jasper. I chose a black one with a white sash. It was classy. I also bought a pair of four inch heels, a necklace, a bọc and a clutch. For Jasper, I bought a relatively simple dress áo sơ mi and pair of pants.I found the perfect áo, áo khoác and scarf. They would look very good on him. It was formal, but not as formal as a tux.
I decided it would be a good idea to get something else. Something for the Cullens, Esme in particular. I thought it would be nice to have some sort of gift. A peace offering. Humans did that all the time. hoa perhaps? No. They already had plenty of flowers. Esme was a very talented gardener. Humans had it so easy. They could bring something edible.
I decided to place an order for a table. Emmett was going to break the one in the dining room today. That decision meant I wouldn't have anything in my hand when we met. It probably would arrive long after us, but the bàn would be thêm useful than hoa hoặc something like that. Besides, I found a really pretty one. It had a carved border of hoa and leaves and it was big enough for all of us. I knew we wouldn't be eating, but maybe we could do something else together.
I found myself thinking about Jasper again. I was always thinking about Jasper. I wished he'd come with me. Did he have something else he wanted to be doing hoặc was he just desperate to avoid shopping? What was he doing now? I had no way of knowing that, but I could know what he would do in a few moments. I took a look into the future.
Out of habit, I put the employee to sleep immediately. He dropped on the floor with a gentle thud. I often put my victims to sleep in an attempt to be... humane. He lay peacefully now. I closed the curtains to the store's only window, but didn't bother to close the window itself. I knelt down for my kill, but then I thought of Alice. Alice didn't want me to kill. I'd already committed to humoring her. Slowly, I turned and started to stand up. This was going to take a lot of getting used to.
One step at a time, I struggled to get to the door. "Alice, You're doing this for Alice, For Alice, For Alice, Beautiful little Alice, You're doing this for Alice" I reminded myself over and over. It helped tremendously. I was going to make it, but then, a breeze brushed through the window. I got a fresh, strong, dose of the employee's scent.
I didn't have time to get to Jasper before he hunted the employee. If I rushed toward him now, I would have to watch Jasper take care of the body. I wasn't quite sure I could do that. Of course, I'd slipped before and taken care of the evidence, but I always felt numb after I killed. I wouldn't have that numbness today. I didn't really think Jasper would want me there anyway. In fact, I was nearly positive he wouldn't.
I was surprised to find that I felt worse for Jasper than I did for the employee and his family. Jasper was trying so hard. His face was twisted in genuine pain as he tried to resist his thirst. I couldn't stand seeing him like that. I'd never seen anyone exert so much effort. Poor Jasper.
I decided it would be best to wait for him to meet me. It was a very agonizing wait. I knew that as soon as I was in his arms I would be fine and I was fairly certain I would be able to comfort him as well. If I could just wait until he came, everything would be alright. If he took much longer, I would go and find him.
The body was taken care of. Now I just had to face Alice. I considered running from her, but I could never be that cowardly. I would face the consequences of my actions, no matter how unbearable it may seem. I also considered the slightly less cowardly course of not telling Alice what I'd done. There was no reason to upset her. Yet I couldn't do that either. My eyes were bright red. Even if they weren't, Alice deserved to know what I'd done.
I imagined telling her, trying to phrase my confession. All I could picture was Alice's face. Sometimes I pictured her as looking reproachful. At other times, I pictured her as looking hurt. I wasn't sure which was worse. I walked slowly, but steadily. I would face my mistakes. When I spotted Alice, my pace became even slower than it had been, but I remained steady. She was sitting down and her shoulders slumped a little, making her appear even smaller than she was.
As soon as I tasted her emotions, I knew that she knew. She must have checked my future. That worried me. I really didn't want her unfocused when I wasn't around to protect her. I was about to rebuke her, but then, I remembered what I'd done. I would be the one who would have to endure a rebuke. I was the one who deserved to be in trouble.