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Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
I'm alright and all XD But honestly, I'm so bad at asking for help I dont really promise people I will anymore.

Sister: "Call me if bạn ever need help."

Me: "Honestly probably wont."

Sister: "I mean if someones following bạn hoặc something."

Me: "I mean I guess I can say Ill probably promise that if Im in big danger I can."

I'm just not used to hoặc really comfortable when I need help actually telling people I need it and actually receiving it. Its not like I dont think I can đã đăng hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã bình luận…
Its just that when I think I should my mouth freezes up, my brain starts telling me all the reasons I shouldnt, and just a bit of personal pride and stuff. Thats kinda why its a huge thing when I go "Hey I need bạn help / advice" hoặc "Hey can I be honest about how I feel about this" (<-usually something negative) hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã bình luận…
Cos most of the time when I get to that point, it means I put active effort into both getting help and active effort into getting past my natural discomfort and inability to mention it in order to share which is actually a lot of trust XD hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã bình luận…
Its not an offense for me not to since sometimes I just dont feel like getting help and that isnt odd since I like to handle my stuff on my own fairly often, but still XD hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
*curls up in corner*

Davis dorms wont let me bring my knives

*depression* đã đăng hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
bởi the way I dont think đám mây is gonna live too much longer. I think his age combined with his disability and stuff is getting to him. Hes notably weaker lately đã đăng hơn một năm qua
TheLefteris24 đã bình luận…
Sorry to know about that. I have been through it. In the end, it is simply innevitable. Pretty sure he lead a contented Life so far. I believe this counts a lot when taken into consideration !!!! hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã bình luận…
Yeah XD I got him knowing his life span would be shorter than the others and that he was probably not the healthiest due to birth defects. It was pretty much the reason I chose him in fact. Cos the people selling him was tyring ot hind him under a bàn and I knew it would be hard to find an owner that would take good care of him hoặc ones that could take care of him better than me so I took him to make sure that despite his health condition, I could keep him happy and alive as long as he could hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã bình luận…
So if he dies, itll be sad, but Ill be glad I gave him a good life and a better one than he probably would have gotten otherwise. hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
Am I too flamboyant at times?

*throws glitter in the air* đã đăng hơn một năm qua
TheLefteris24 đã bình luận…
That's a given. I do not believe anyone in here would say otherwise !!!! hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
Nothing helps thêm than waking up to having your parents having a really loud stupid argument right in the morning than looking through an old yêu thích JRock band again that bạn some how forgot about for a while.

#LetsGoT.M.Revolution đã đăng hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
Fuck I wanted to write and ended up watching Sengoku Basara Game scenes and listening to their OPs again. đã đăng hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã bình luận…
For the record, I did start nghề viết văn hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
It honestly kind of shocks me and scares me at the same time.

Am I going to have an actual friend irl that is close to me?

Of course I have my boyfriend, but theres a difference between that and a friend. Like for a boyfriend, it becomes much like a partner hoặc family member

Like... an actual friend... Its been so long since I've had an actual close friend irl, I dont really remember what it is like đã đăng hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
So looking into who was the lead writer for the Hollywood Undead songs, most of my các sở thích were made bởi Johnny Three Tears followed bởi Danny prolly.

Makes sense that most of the ones that I love, have a lot of amazing verses, that also were done bởi J3T XD

Seriously tho, J3T's choice in lyrics are amazing. Hes a Milton người hâm mộ too apparently. I might add John Milton's Paradise Mất tích to things to do soon prolly. đã đăng hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã bình luận…
I've had that book on the hàng đầu, đầu trang of my danh sách of things to read for a while. I jsut kinda got scared of actually trying to read cos when I fail hoặc cant focus hoặc struggle to it has a chance of making me panic over my mental health progress hoặc my future XD hơn một năm qua
wantadog đã đưa ý kiến …
Who here thinks an bài viết where Riku and I try to guess each others tentative hàng đầu, đầu trang 10 Video Game OSTs would be cool?

Warning tho. She has no time. đã đăng hơn một năm qua
TheLefteris24 đã bình luận…
Video Game OSTs huh? As someone who loves that particular aspect, I would certainly find it pretty cool. các bài viết like these are always welcome !!!! hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
:sad:

Ronnie, A Game Theorist, killed himself and from what MatPat says, he was in a really similar situation to me so I feel the pain since his battle parallels a little too closely to that of which I do. Personality, problems with personality, and role with Những người bạn and all...

Anyone, if bạn ever feel like bạn need to talk to someone, send me a message. I dont care if Im unrelated hoặc anything into the topic. Ill hear bạn out and support bạn <3 đã đăng hơn một năm qua
TheLefteris24 đã bình luận…
^ Always remember that the same applies for bạn too, Riku. We're here for bạn !!!! hơn một năm qua
TheLefteris24 đã bình luận…
Once again, my deepest condolences for Ronnie !!!! hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
bạn ever get anxiety over a good thing? Like... all the physical symptoms of anxiety but like... in no where on bad reasons?

Like chest tightening and stuff... Is that just excitement then? Uncomfortable excitement?

Google, what is understanding emotions? XD đã đăng hơn một năm qua
Rihanna312 đã bình luận…
Since I have SVD in light form, it sometimes turns good moments into really unpleasant and sometimes even frightening. But it happens rarely and out of my control. But still sucks a lot. Especially when it gets hard to breathe. hơn một năm qua
TheLefteris24 đã bình luận…
I have. Quite a few times really. Mostly because of my worrying that I will mess things up somehow and turn a good thing into the exact opposite. The kind of feeling bạn get when bạn try something for the first time. It usually subsides when I have already gotten into it !!!! hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
Shit. Ninja caught Ligma... đã đăng hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
Really, everyone - especially those who are new - just want someone to tình yêu and accept them. If bạn also can provide the confidence and skill to hiển thị yourself capable of guiding, you'll quickly find there are people willing to follow and heed what bạn have to say.

If anything, that is what leadership is. Accepting and guiding. It actually has little to do directly with responsibility hoặc giving out orders hoặc anything. They just tend to come with maintaining those two. đã đăng hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
Also at this point, I dunno who I relate to in Pandora Hearts anymore.

They are all relatable in different ways.

With that being said, I think Xerxes and Vincent are my các sở thích XD đã đăng hơn một năm qua
TheLefteris24 đã bình luận…
That very fact makes bạn quite Relatable yourself XD I understand that !!!! hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
Me: *watching "Best of Johnny Three Tears Verses"*

Me: Like... all of them? Why not just say "all of Best of J3T" cos his verses are god???"

Honestly I tình yêu J3T too much

...

I also may have been geeking out on Hollywood Undead âm nhạc with my roommate last night since neither of us really ever met anyone else who liked their âm nhạc đã đăng hơn một năm qua
Rihanna312 đã bình luận…
Well... bạn may have found another one. :D HU has been one of my fave bands for like 8 years. Recently went to their buổi hòa nhạc and yes, there isn`t just one best J3T verse, because he`s ngọn lửa, chữa cháy in all of them!!! But when I think about it I also don`t know anyone in partocular who`d be as big người hâm mộ of them as me. hơn một năm qua
Rihanna312 đã bình luận…
particular* hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã bình luận…
^Yasss thêm những người hâm mộ hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
Im sleepy đã đăng hơn một năm qua
wantadog đã bình luận…
I'm dopey hơn một năm qua
TheLefteris24 đã bình luận…
I'm both of the above !!!! hơn một năm qua
wantadog đã đưa ý kiến …
Wrote a story for Riku titled "Two Venezuelen Uncles Fliped the universe away to the Beat" but she was too tired and didn't read it. #Shaming đã đăng hơn một năm qua
wantadog đã đưa ý kiến …
It's kind of nice that I can say literally anything to Riku at any time and have zero repercussions. Man I unleash so much shit XD đã đăng hơn một năm qua
wantadog đã đưa ý kiến …
What is that game called where bạn have a picture of some things and when bạn put them together it makes a phrase? đã đăng hơn một năm qua
wantadog đã đưa ý kiến …
Why is it so early? đã đăng hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
Me: *tapping my fingers impatiently even though I was told it wont happen until after the fall quarter* HMMMM. WHEN WILL I SEE MY AP CREDIT APPEAR ON MY DEGREE TRACKER FOR COLLEGE đã đăng hơn một năm qua
wantadog đã đưa ý kiến …
Time to play a game I like to call "Riku hoặc her bird?"

"Small, cute, with a couple issues that acts tough and is super confident"

Riku?

hoặc her bird? đã đăng hơn một năm qua
TheLefteris24 đã bình luận…
I'll say both !!!! hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
So đám mây also had a badly broken blood feather so I did the procedure myself cos hes old, underweight, and disabled and Im pretty sure theyd want to try to put him down.

#Successful đã đăng hơn một năm qua
wantadog đã đưa ý kiến …
I'm too good at Sonic 3 and Knuckles đã đăng hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
Final Destination probably shouldnt be a childhood nostalgia for me XD

But it is XD I grew up watching these phim chiếu rạp and they were like a regular hype and one of the few family traditions. Watched every single one as they came out. Probably watched all of them at least three times each and the pointless gore and creative yet unrealistic gory ways to die just get better.

I dont really like horror hoặc pointless gore, but Final Destination is special đã đăng hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã bình luận…
Im not gonna say its a well made movie, but god do I like watching it XD hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã bình luận…
Riku watching Rated R Gore films since they first came out hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã bình luận…
Why do I watch this like a comedy XD hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã bình luận…
Theres just so much solid irony hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
*Final Destination at the Racing Speedway*

"You come here to see a crash?"

"Nah I like to watch them go around and around in circles OF COURSE I want to see a crash" đã đăng hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
"The trumpet is widely known for drawing in thêm extroverted children. They can be bold, brash, have nervous energy and even tend to be dominant and ambitious. This is due to the nature of the trumpet, which is usually a lead instrument playing a higher melody."

Yep đã đăng hơn một năm qua
JetBlack_ đã đưa ý kiến …
There is something about pandora hearts and bungou stray chó xD đã đăng hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã bình luận…
Oh? hơn một năm qua
wantadog đã bình luận…
Is it that it tries to fit 10 volumes of information into the first three chapters of the manga? hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã bình luận…
^XD hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
Negative Trait of my Dissociative / Memory Inept Brain: I rarely ever feel the same way I felt when I went to sleep and thus struggle to remain consistent in therapy and conversations and arguments and can rarely hold my ground to long term major decisions that might be hard

Positive Trait of my Dissociative / Memory Inept Brain: I rarely ever feel the same way I felt when I went to sleep and thus pretty much 'reset' each morning despite negative moods / thoughts đã đăng hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã bình luận…
It actually thêm so a habit I apparently picked up when I was really young. According to my older sister horrible shit would happen one day, then Id go to sleep and remember none of it. Much less severe these days as its only really my emotions and will and any emotions related to anything the prior day, but its much mroe tame hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã bình luận…
And thats regardless of if the ngày was really good hoặc really bad. Very few things actually register in my memory with emotions attached hơn một năm qua
wantadog đã đưa ý kiến …
Pandora Update

Unsure on Gil. He đã đưa ý kiến some relatable shit but like...it kinda like spawned a little thing where I created a thêm accurate version of what he đã đưa ý kiến so like...unsure on Gil đã đăng hơn một năm qua
wantadog đã bình luận…
I tried rewriting the quote but it didn't flow well hơn một năm qua
wantadog đã bình luận…
Eh nevermind. No new point for Gil hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
I dont think I've ever written a gay couple I tình yêu thêm than Nora and Lu Stevenson in the RP Wanta and I have.

While Nora never appears in the main cast, the two of them make an adorable couple and even cuter and better parents. đã đăng hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
Neewwww thông tin các nhân đã đăng hơn một năm qua
JetBlack_ đã bình luận…
tình yêu it. hơn một năm qua
TheLefteris24 đã bình luận…
It really looks great. I tình yêu it as well !!!! hơn một năm qua
BlindBandit92 đã bình luận…
Noice hơn một năm qua
GDragon612 đã bình luận…
OMG I fucking tình yêu it!! *-* hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
Honestly, Lucy is so attention needy XD đã đăng hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
Seriously tho. Its still laughable my dad thinks bạn can get a decent computer for $200 đã đăng hơn một năm qua
Rihanna312 đã bình luận…
This makes me feel bad, because a few months cách đây I was about to buy a new computer and in my book decent started from €700 and up 😳 Have bạn showed him what specifics fall under $200? Maybe he`ll understand that bạn can only play solitaire on that. Even there sometimes tends to be really good deals for extra cheap prices. hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã bình luận…
Oh yeah Im like 99% sure hes trying to low ball me XD Since he refuses to let me input money, he promised hed work with me and honestly I know how to get him to be reasonable XD hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã bình luận…
In my book, barely decent starts at like $500 and up when on discount XD hơn một năm qua
wantadog đã bình luận…
If only there was a newly Full Time employee who offered to match whatever bạn put in for the computer hơn một năm qua
wantadog đã đưa ý kiến …
:v I'm mad at Riku. đã đăng hơn một năm qua
wantadog đã bình luận…
She đã đưa ý kiến I'm not allowed to pitch in to get her a good computer for Davis since her dad only wants to pay $200 hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã bình luận…
Nah its very easy to pull strings on him. hơn một năm qua
wantadog đã bình luận…
Humph hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
Can someone get me a pillow? Apparently that wore me out from "could sleep but not at all tired" to like...

"Im so tired I cant figure out any new ideas for stories hoặc really create words to speak, I wanna sleep and am yawning every minute" đã đăng hơn một năm qua
GDragon612 đã bình luận…
welcome in da club riku need so much sleep these days too, feeling that i ate drugs hoặc drunk to much hơn một năm qua
GDragon612 đã bình luận…
kat buys riku a bunch of pillows hơn một năm qua
wantadog đã đưa ý kiến …
"Do stuff I guess" - Wantadog2018 đã đăng hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
xin chào if anyone wants to know one variation of dissociation and depersonalization, Im right here.

I somehow ended up entirely numb cause my brain kept working me with unnecessary trauma shit and I took too long to determine if I wanted to dig deeper and ruin my mental state for processing something, cutting it off entirely and dissociating unnaturally which is worse than this, hoặc just letting myself sleep and forget it all

And now Im just sitting here pretty darn empty. đã đăng hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã bình luận…
And that actually turned out to be a really short thing cos between my boyfriend and Wanta both stubbornly being stupid concerned dumbasses kinda ended up clicking with me and kind of giving my traumatized shithole brain a little bit of what it needed hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã bình luận…
Its nice to see some people have my back and genuinely really care for me as much as those two do. hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
I am honestly tired of PTSD and trauma and feeling extreme anxiety and lack of safety for no reason.

Is there a place I could waiver out of it hoặc like.... give it to one of those tumblr shitlords that think having mental disorders is cool..? đã đăng hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã bình luận…
Fuck. Took way too long trying to decide which way to go with it and now Im just emotionally numb again. Ah well. hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã bình luận…
I really want to kinda just sleep even though Im not tired hoặc anything. Seems easier that putting effort to keep myself entertained hoặc to dig deeper into that crap pile hơn một năm qua
wantadog đã đưa ý kiến …
Munakata: "Sorry for making bạn do this"

Chisa: "Say my name and it's even!"

Munakata: "No"

Riku: "Sorry for making bạn do this"

Wanta: "Call me your best friend and we're even!"

Riku: "No" đã đăng hơn một năm qua
TheLefteris24 đã bình luận…
Lefteris: ''Call me bởi a nickname like I do for bạn and we're even!'' hơn một năm qua
TheLefteris24 đã bình luận…
Riku: ''Maybe tiếp theo time'' hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã bình luận…
I do a lot of things I mean to do out loud just in my head hơn một năm qua
wantadog đã đưa ý kiến …
I scared Riku with how badly the Aoi thing is taking its toll on me đã đăng hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
I am so bored đã đăng hơn một năm qua
TheLefteris24 đã bình luận…
#RelatableAsAlways !!!! hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
FUCK I WAS PLAYING FORTNITE ON SOLO AND GOT SECOND

THE GUY WHO WON HAD LIKE 5 HP AND SINCE HE WAS RUNNING FROM ME I WAS PRETTY SURE HE WAS LOW ON AMMO hoặc SOMETHING

SO FUCKING CLOSE UGH đã đăng hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
Me: Haha. Yeah the diagnosis with PTSD still is sometimes hard for me to believe since my mind has trouble believing it was really that bad.

Therapist: Well when bạn start to câu hỏi it, just ask yourself [insert pair of các câu hỏi that blantantly Bpoint out that it was very shitty]

Me: *spending the rest of the ngày frequently and randomly getting pulled into fixations and bad memories of đã đưa ý kiến shiftiness* Aha... bạn are right. đã đăng hơn một năm qua
wantadog đã đưa ý kiến …
I'd like to give a quick shoutout to a special person in my life that really has helped me throughout the last couple days when I've been going through a rough spot and facing some big decisions in my life. This person always made me laugh, made me emote even in anger, kept me on the straight and narrow, and even showed me their weak side.

So Remae from the game Spiral Scouts. Thanks! bạn made me feel good for a bit.

#BuyTheGame đã đăng hơn một năm qua
TheLefteris24 đã bình luận…
bạn really got me there, I must admit !!!! hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
So the official final set of diagnoses from the probable last session with my therapist is PTSD with Dissociation, OCD, Trichotillomania, and GAD đã đăng hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã bình luận…
Oh and Chronic Stress hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
Take the shitty hand bạn get dealt, accept it, and make something amazing from it.

Life is really never ever a fair thing. Some people are born with a shit ton of wealth, loving families, and everything they could want. Some people are born in absolute poverty, abusive and broken households, and in the middle of the perhaps a deadly war hoặc gang territory.

The thing is, bạn cant really change what hand bạn were dealt. All bạn can do is adapt and morph it. đã đăng hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã bình luận…
I dont have the worst hand. I have a less than ideal and kind of shitty hand but not the worst. As do others who follow this club and all. The thing is though, its possible to change đã đưa ý kiến weaknesses into strengths and use it to grow if bạn think about it hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã bình luận…
Personally, I take the hand I was dealt and use it to push reason to grow and to use it as a basis to let myself reach out to others better. hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
I'm the kind of friend that to get close, bạn have to pay increasing work and effort into understanding and figuring out the bumps that naturally come with being close to me, but once things smoothen out I am also the type to pay it off extremely XD

Cos Im really driven and really goal orientated and good at planning and getting thigns done. Im also really good with mental health and struggles and have heard SO many stories of people both with mental and non mental health struggles đã đăng hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã bình luận…
Monetary issues? I can probably help. Mental health issues? Gotcha. Suicidal? Talk to me, Ill make sure bạn walk out alive. Cant get your life together? Lets figure out something we can do. No passions in life? Lets figure out something for bạn to work towards. Never seen things in life? Lets fix that. Family issues? Gotcha. hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã bình luận…
Then even better, if [I] cant help you, I have contacts that probably can help me help you. hơn một năm qua
wantadog đã đưa ý kiến …
Riku is a Formula One.

Im a Ford Pickup thats left in the backyard till bạn need a lift đã đăng hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
I dont think Ill ever die TRULY satisfied with life. I can be 90, saved ninty bird species, millions of birds, changed many lives, warped and washed away the stigma of mental health, had a family, mastered forty languages, mastered multiple instruments, mastered multiple combat styles, got multiple PHDs and all that

And I will STILL find things I would have wanted to find more. đã đăng hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã bình luận…
If I dont keep learning and dont keep evolving who I am and developing, I dont feel like Im living. And thats NOT bad. Its WONDERFUL. I feel so alive chasing goals and plans. Its not that whole "Once I get all this, I can relax" - no. Its "Once I get all this, I can explore thêm of the amazing interests of this world". hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã bình luận…
When I die, Ill be glad I did everything I did and its posisble for me to be at peace (cos theres a chance I wont if its a shitty death) but I dont think there will ever be a time in my life where I no longer have any strict goals hơn một năm qua
TheLefteris24 đã bình luận…
That is quite Relatable. It makes me glad to see others feeling that way as well. Life is a constant struggle. Constant Improvement is a major part of it !!!! hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
Huh. Despite being someone who isnt one to believe conspiracy theories and never was quite into Avril Lavigne, the theory that she died and was replaced ACTUALLY has some notable evidence XD

Its interesting. I could somewhat buy it đã đăng hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
Personally, I try to make it out to be the best that it can be and accept it, but its quite painful and frightening to know your problems with memory and knowing youll probably forget many things much faster than one shout and things no one else would

If bạn go off to Davis, will bạn actually remember all the fun bạn had with people and how much bạn care about them when bạn return 3 months later? Did bạn forget hoặc did it just not happen? What was it like being depressed? What about happy? đã đăng hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã bình luận…
The bright side of it is I am very nicely trapped in the moment and future plans. I can get myself excited for my goals and plans. I can enjoy whatever is in the moment cos I things that happened a few hours cách đây feel like days, and days feel like months and months feel like years cách đây hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã bình luận…
Anyways Imma go to sleep hơn một năm qua
wantadog đã bình luận…
I am Rikus memory hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
Tfw bạn FEEL that night time depression sneaking up

But bạn ALSO wanna read some Pandora Hearts đã đăng hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã bình luận…
Prolly read some then sleep hơn một năm qua
wantadog đã đưa ý kiến …
USB = Unsuspectingly Saucy Butthole đã đăng hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
Honestly shocked and disgusted with people. đã đăng hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã bình luận…
Major faith in humanity and Những người bạn Mất tích hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã bình luận…
Seriously anyone who thinks thats funny and okay is disgusting as hell hơn một năm qua
GDragon612 đã bình luận…
same here hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
One a một giây note, Im incredibly disgusted, sickened and pissed off with people from my band cos one of my band children and his family had a small song bird fly into their house and instead of saving it (even when it was easy to save and grab) they decided to FILM the mèo hunting and killing it while finding a shit ton of amusement out of it.

One kid was like "Oh should we grab the hat (that it was sitting on)?" and then the mom owuld be like "No let it hunt" and everyone had cameras đã đăng hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã bình luận…
Like... are they REALLY finding amusement in watching a helpless bird get killed bởi a cat that PROBABLY wont even actually eat it? Seriously? I mean its KINDA okay if it did because vòng tròn of life, and honestly, I wouldnt mind that bad if they filmed it hoặc something. Because xin chào maybe its an idea of recording nature and shit. Like a snake eating a chuột hoặc whatever. But the commentary PISSED me off. "Oh let it hunt" "Oh lets watch it" "Oh look it got killed lol" hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã bình luận…
And of the 36 people that liked it, only one bothered to bình luận "Why didnt bạn save it? ;-;" while everyone else either didnt care hoặc found it funny as well hơn một năm qua
TheLefteris24 đã bình luận…
I could say a lot about this but bạn already did yourself. People like these disgust me as well !!!! hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
On one note, its Lucys birthday today and he got all sorts of toys and has been hát all ngày like he knows it is his birthday and its great.

Im glad to have such a wonderful bird in my life...... BUT đã đăng hơn một năm qua
TheLefteris24 đã bình luận…
Happy Birthday to him. May he continue to grow and be healthy !!!! hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
Also, I tình yêu the look of slender builds on men.

I'm just saying that.

While I like rounded and curved women cos I tình yêu thick thighs and boobs. ((That being said, my taste is much less strict for women than men since I do tình yêu the extremely flat too and only a bit less than curved))

Slender builds are great. Perfect hugging size. A bit thêm to the feminine side. Less domineering look. đã đăng hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã bình luận…
I really cant stand the idea of being the 'woman' in a relationship. It either has to be off the charts of being able to figure it out and balanced, hoặc I'm the "man" in it. And personally the big and bulky look, while I dont hate it and its not a deal breaker hoặc antyhing, tends to put me on guard. hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã bình luận…
And im not saying no to muscles. Muscles are nice too XD I just think slender frames are niceeee. hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã bình luận…
^^ hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
While I DO tình yêu Davis and STILL tình yêu Davis and had a wonderful trip there, I do have to say the sheer amount they pushed the liberal ideologies and agenda onto everyone was a little... concerning.

As someone who is moderate, probably a little leaning towards Libertarian, I found it kind of honestly uncomfortable. It was almost cult like to be honest. Talking about lines and verses and explaining what they mean and what they make us feel like and why they are true đã đăng hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã bình luận…
RATHER than discussing it thoroughly and properly, there was a whole "Do this, hoặc else" and a "This is the objective response to the topic / idea and not subjective, so tell me why its right" hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã bình luận…
It was just so super PC hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã bình luận…
I just feel people are too quick to be driven to be nice and make everyone happy and all they miss a chunk of reality hơn một năm qua
wantadog đã đưa ý kiến …
When Wantadogs fucked up mind comes up with shit so weird and unexpected that both he and Riku can't even bring up the energy to acknowledge its existence. đã đăng hơn một năm qua
wantadog đã bình luận…
hàng đầu, đầu trang that, Davis band chick hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã bình luận…
XD hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
[Riku gets boners] đã đăng hơn một năm qua
wantadog đã bình luận…
[Wanta gave Riku a boner] hơn một năm qua
zanhar1 đã bình luận…
Put ur weiners away there are aces here :v hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã bình luận…
XD Wanta was denying his ability to write smut, and while it wasnt smut, it was a sensual scene and he did really good so I have to call him out on it cos I got an empathetic boner for my character :v hơn một năm qua
TheLefteris24 đã bình luận…
Having seen it, I can attest to its Sensuality. Not bad at all. It was certainly a nice part !!!! hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
That feeling when the ngẫu nhiên person bạn met in a UC Davis band chatroom is pretty much on a fanpop Friend level basis with bạn and bạn openly discuss and share many similarities and opinions on mental health, music, classes, etc.

She noticed my extreme passion and drive to learn :v

Is it really that obvious? Shes talked to me in IM for like... less than a week :v đã đăng hơn một năm qua
wantadog đã bình luận…
I've been replaced already..... hơn một năm qua
wantadog đã bình luận…
Hasn't even started at Davis and Wantadog is already old hat hơn một năm qua
wantadog đã bình luận…
#TheOldModel hơn một năm qua
TheLefteris24 đã bình luận…
Great to know. It doesn't really surprise me. Your Passion on certain Subjects has a way of really standing out. One of your charms. Many in here could attest to that !!!! hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
On another note, I tore / bit my finger nails and fingers way too much yesterday out of stress of how annoying the schedule builder was.

My eyebrows are a given.

But my fingers hurt. Especially the right thumb which hurts like a betch, đã đăng hơn một năm qua
wantadog đã bình luận…
bạn shoulda stayed up with me all night XD Clearly the smart play. hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
HUNGER GAMES FOR trường đại học CLASS SEATS BEGINS IN 22 MINUTES

LETS SEE WHO WINS THE TWO CHEM CHAIRS OUT OF THE LIKE 300 STUDENTS WHO WANT IT

I mean there are thêm like.... eight seats for like... a hundred people but still. đã đăng hơn một năm qua
wantadog đã đưa ý kiến …
Whoa. Fortnite got crazy... đã đăng hơn một năm qua
wantadog đã đưa ý kiến …
*lays head down in a depressed manner* đã đăng hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
Put me out of my misery :V đã đăng hơn một năm qua
TheLefteris24 đã bình luận…
bạn need to fight it, Rikubun !!!! hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
Made it to Sacramento XD Tomorrow starts Davis' Orientation đã đăng hơn một năm qua
JetBlack_ đã bình luận…
Let the new journey begin. 👏🏻 hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
Also my anxiety over college has mostly subsided now that I found ONE person who I am a lot like and get along with online XD đã đăng hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
Personally, if bạn ever get concerned of how pointless and meaningless life is, think of it like this.

Life is less like an RPG game hoặc story game

Life is much thêm like a sandbox game. It has no real point hoặc goal, but it is full of opportunities and game mechanics that allow bạn to do so much, experience so much, and explore freely. If bạn learn to work the game mechanics well, bạn can pretty much do anything.

Heck, if bạn work the physics engine đã đăng hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã bình luận…
bạn can do things that might seem impossible hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
Its sad that I am so uncomfortable being alone with my parents for thêm than half an giờ without something actively distracting me hoặc someone to balance it out / distract me đã đăng hơn một năm qua
JetBlack_ đã bình luận…
Daydream might com in handy.. hơn một năm qua
JetBlack_ đã bình luận…
link hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
I LITERALLY HATE THAT MY yêu thích thực phẩm IS BIRD

AND THAT MY yêu thích THING IN THE WORLD IS BIRD

WHY HAST GOD FORSAKEN ME đã đăng hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã bình luận…
LIKE. I COULD STOP EATING PIG. I COULD STOP EATING COW. BUT STOP EATING POULTRY KILLS LIKE 90% OF MY DIET hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã bình luận…
NO BIRD LIFE IS BETTER THAN ANOTHER. ITS LIKE EATING COCKATIELS JESUS. hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã bình luận…
And no, I dont care. XD Dont get me wrong, I tình yêu cows and pigs too. Its just that there isnt the strong instant emotional connection hoặc strong obsession and tình yêu that I have for birds that makes me feel guilty wheneveR I eat it XD Plus I dont eat pork and beef NEARLY as much as I do chicken hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
I just realized I no longer remember any of the physical abuse I witnessed a lot as a kid huh...

I REMEMBER remembering it. But I dont remember it itself.

I KNOW it happened, but no matter how much I tìm kiếm my memory files, I genuinely cant find it.

Youd think somehting like that would be embedded deeply but I guess tis the way of repeated trauma. đã đăng hơn một năm qua
JetBlack_ đã bình luận…
Same hơn một năm qua
JetBlack_ đã bình luận…
A weak memory in certain situations is blessed I truly believe that because it deletes all the awful things that a person went through. hơn một năm qua
laugh
GDragon612 đã đưa ý kiến …
Good humor is the health of the soul, sadness is its poison. đã đăng hơn một năm qua
TheLefteris24 đã bình luận…
^ Stay humorous. Stay healthy !!!! hơn một năm qua
laugh
GDragon612 đã đưa ý kiến …
I'm a sarcastic person, and people don't get my humor sometimes. đã đăng hơn một năm qua
cool
GDragon612 đã đưa ý kiến …
The secret to humor is surprise. đã đăng hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
Body = Tense đã đăng hơn một năm qua
wantadog đã bình luận…
Body = Primed hơn một năm qua
TheLefteris24 đã bình luận…
Body = Naked !!!! hơn một năm qua
GDragon612 đã bình luận…
bodycontrol ^^ hơn một năm qua
wantadog đã đưa ý kiến …
Man being stuck in the situation where bạn are not being energized sucks ass. I find that I'm not 100% introverted in that even if I'm alone, I still am not necessarily energized. What recharges my battery is my environment. I could do the same thing with the same people in one setting and not get revved up the same as I do in others đã đăng hơn một năm qua
wantadog đã bình luận…
But right now I'm not in any environment that gives me energy it seems cuz with each passing ngày I'm thêm and thêm worn out and thêm and thêm drained. hơn một năm qua
wantadog đã đưa ý kiến …
A ngẫu nhiên ramble about one of Wantadogs RP characters.

I just really like Kumau because of how he is the most accurate embodiment of his nation that we have so far. He's a patriot. He can do anything because he has the support and strength of his people, urging him on to new heights. Likewise, his people can accomplish whatever they set their mind to because he is there supporting them with all the power he possesses đã đăng hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
I am still learning a lot about my mental health and even thêm specifically on what is normal and what isnt normal and what is likely due to past trauma and shit đã đăng hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
Ugh now Im bingeing Versailles đàn ghi ta, guitar solos. Why do I have such bad impulse control XD đã đăng hơn một năm qua
wantadog đã bình luận…
Called it hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
Why does Kamijo look so young? đã đăng hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
Brain: Remember that song that back in 9th grade even though we werent severely hoặc actively suicidal, almost helped bạn really screwed up mind and the many fictional things in your head that bạn talked to 24/7 that it was both good and okay for bạn to kill yourself?

Me: Yeah.

Brain: It was pretty lets go listen to it again.

Me: Okay.

Me: ...

Me: Wait.

Me: THIS IS A TRAP. :v ITS NIGHT TIME AND bạn WANT ME TO LISTEN TO A POTENTIALLY DANGEROUS SONG đã đăng hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
My hobby is spraying myself with a spray bottle hoặc shooting the spray bottle above me and letting the water fall nicely down on me on hot days

It feels so nice đã đăng hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
Quite frankly dealing with the issues that arise on the biểu tượng Contest and trying to go about them diplomatically is quite a pain in the ass. There is a process Wanta and I go through that makes things relatively simple

Not gonna say the idea of canceling the contest didnt occur to me. Im not going to, but I did contemplate it. đã đăng hơn một năm qua
wantadog đã bình luận…
The bitchy các câu trả lời are getting annoying. Stop chewing us out simply because you’re diễn xuất suspicious. hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã bình luận…
^Not even that. Its just the annoying defensiveness. If bạn didn't do it, just say so and be like "Hey I think this is a missunderstanding" instead of feeling the need to pull up an entire argument that is just sooooo over the top. hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã bình luận…
link hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
Heres the thing though guys.

Its hard to judge someone, hoặc at least it should be. If bạn think about it, every person in the world is human - every person in the world has emotions - every person in the world have their wants, loves, desires, etc - every person has struggles.

Some might be smaller than others, some might be insane hoặc invalid. The thing is that somewhere in their head, their behavior and beliefs make sense and are something they feel is necessary, whether đã đăng hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã bình luận…
they are aware of it hoặc not hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã bình luận…
So personally, I have trouble full on judging someone (at least long term) for things they do and all. Personally, if I wasnt so open and so genuinely trying to figure it out myself, Id probably be disgusted with myself and my actions, but personally, I know I am working my hardest on figuring out what feels right and what is okay. People behave interestingly based on their stories, what they want, what they lacked, what they never had, what struggles theyve been through, hoặc what struggles theyve never had hơn một năm qua
TheLefteris24 đã bình luận…
Well said. Personally, I always try to place myself in the shoes of others before I judge them. It has certainly được trao me thêm insight !!!! hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
That feeling when bạn get up to brush your teeth and grab something to eat cos bạn are hungry

But instead go pee, then go back to your bàn and now have to try again. Ugh XD đã đăng hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
Honestly Im not even gonna keep it a secret since its not my natural personality to do it

Im đọc Pandora Hearts cos its actually an anime I loved and intentionally neglected for years so I could read without much memory of it. It also had a huge impact on me like... three hoặc so years cách đây so its really interesting

Its likely going have my new biểu tượng Contest entry đã đăng hơn một năm qua
TheLefteris24 đã bình luận…
Hype 👍 !!!! hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
REALLY good time at the Fourth of July celebration yesterday. It was a lot of fun and the peopel there were great. Kinda felt like a normal family for once

....

Also I somehow dont remember much of any of it still tho.

Just a huge fog.

Thats the level of my memory đã đăng hơn một năm qua
wantadog đã đưa ý kiến …
Riku has really put me into a dilemma. She compared me to a character from an anime/manga I haven't seen so I can't even look into it to see how accurate it is đã đăng hơn một năm qua
TheLefteris24 đã bình luận…
Same lol. Although I did some research on each Character. Just for the Personality part though. I'm planning on getting on with this Series soon. Seems quite interesting !!!! hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã bình luận…
^Muahahahaha hơn một năm qua
wantadog đã đưa ý kiến …
Rikus new mô tả of my personality: "Mopey poutiness" đã đăng hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
Dude, for all the things I find New York to be kinda dumb for, requiring elementary, middle, and highschools to teach their students about mental health is definitely one I am NOT on that thuyền for. đã đăng hơn một năm qua
laugh
GDragon612 đã đưa ý kiến …
banging your head against a tường burns 150 calories an giờ đã đăng hơn một năm qua
GDragon612 đã bình luận…
ouch XD hơn một năm qua
wantadog đã đưa ý kiến …
Being as obsessive as I am is monotonous. đã đăng hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
To be honest, I just want my free meat and chips and soda Ill get at the đường phố, street party my boyfriend's family invited me to. Like... the carnivore in me is happy. The "Drinks Dr. Pepper Like Beer" in me is happy XD

The me who loves absolutely loud noises is happy especially since the neighbors have a literal súng thần công, pháo they light and try to get the loudest noise out of.

Is it legal? Maybe, maybe not.

Do they keep running it back and forth between the nhà để xe and the street? Yes. đã đăng hơn một năm qua
JetBlack_ đã đưa ý kiến …
Is trà even good for parrots? 🤔
I’m watching Youtube 👀 đã đăng hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã bình luận…
Well some but I would typically avoid it since there are a lot of things bạn have to keep an eye out for that ARENT in the trà to make sure they are okay for the bird to have (caffinee, flavors, specific chemicals, etc) hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã bình luận…
It could be good for them if bạn find the an toàn, két an toàn ones but not too much to my taste hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
For those that I didnt tell, tiếp theo session with my therapist we are going to go over the possibility of a dissociative disorder diagnosis rather than leaving it as just 'dissociative tendencies' to perhaps make my transfer to a new therapist easier when I get around to it.

So xin chào we might see if I fit into one hoặc not XD

Cos it might just be C-PTSD. Might have gotten extreme enough to be thêm than just C-PTSD which has dissociative symptoms. *shrugs* đã đăng hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
Keep Talking and Nobody Explodes makes me want to die :v đã đăng hơn một năm qua
wantadog đã bình luận…
Trust me. We tried hơn một năm qua
GDragon612 đã bình luận…
boom!! hơn một năm qua
wantadog đã đưa ý kiến …
Me and Riku are playing Keep Talking and Nobody Explodes.

Riku: "It looks like a vòng tròn with a little toupee"

Me: "?"

Riku: "Or like an upside down 9"

Me: "...you mean a six?"

Riku: "...oh ya" đã đăng hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã đưa ý kiến …
ME AND MY MOM MANAGED TO CONVINCE MY DAD HE MIGHT BE GROWING A TAIL đã đăng hơn một năm qua
Riku114 đã bình luận…
Oh man, taking advantage on his lack of any science-based education made up for his snotty bình luận on the vet bill being not worth it hơn một năm qua
wantadog đã bình luận…
Well if bạn think about it... hơn một năm qua