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"Yeah, youre probably right. [...] Were probably all insane.. broken. But whose fault is that!? The adults are the ones who broke us! bạn want to hear the truth? .. We're scared" ~Nagisa Shingetsu (DRAE) đã đăng cách đây 10 tháng
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Was gonna make my thông tin các nhân "Just Riku" entirely cause I felt like it but nah. I felt like mixing it up since I didnt have a Danganronpa-specific background.

... quite shockingly actually. đã đăng cách đây 10 tháng
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^ I'm shocked myself !!!! cách đây 10 tháng
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... I just realized now after đọc 'scientific literature' for an Animal Science Assignment a few weeks cách đây that I find đọc "scientific literature" for psychiatry and psychology as just like... a hobby XD đã đăng cách đây 10 tháng
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Just a reminder of the stream on Saturday 2 PM đã đăng cách đây 10 tháng
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On another note, getting a double major in Animal Science (Avian and Behavior specialization) and Psychology in 4 years seems a lot easier than Pre-Vet in 3.5 years XD đã đăng cách đây 10 tháng
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I THINK I FINALLY FIGURED OUT EXACTLY WHAT I WANT TO DO FOR FUCKS SAKE FINALLY THE AMBIGUOUS PIECES OF ANIMAL SCIENCE MATCHED. đã đăng cách đây 10 tháng
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Okay so like I am going to complete my major in Animal Science, Avian Science Specialization and BEHAVIOR Disciplinary Focus. All of that is necessary for the Animal Science degree btw. A specialization and a Disciplinary Focus. But listen here - Im either going to minor hoặc double major in psychology just like I used to plan to for the majority of my middle / highschool career and carry on to get a Doctorate in Animal Behavior and / hoặc Psychology and then go into research for the both of them and essentially try to bridge the câu hỏi marks between animal and human psychology and see how the two could better develop, grow, and understand when looked at each other in a parallel manner. cách đây 10 tháng
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This solves a lot of my issues and pretty much combines my main two interests, obsessions, overwhelming passions, and ties in my otherwise 'random' goals into a larger circle. Like one of the issues with being a Veterinarian was that I felt I would get bored being specialized in that and just working commercially and I wouldnt be learning at the rate I like to. My brain would get bored and Id start to feel like life is dull. As for genetics and convservation, it just seems fun but half baked. I wasnt passionate hoặc THAT curious about it. BUT WHEN bạn GO INTO ANIMAL BEHAVIOR AND PSYCHOLOGY, THEY ARE BOTH HUGE PASSIONS OF MINE AND THEY ARE BOTH RATHER UNEXPLORED TERRITORIES SO THERE IS A LOT OF các câu hỏi AND THINGS TO FIGURE OUT cách đây 10 tháng
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Okay enough of me being a nerd. I just felt some of youd be curious XD cách đây 10 tháng
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But yeah for those of bạn that dont fully understand how problematic dissociative amnesia is when getting mental help

Therapy: So how was your week?

Me: ??????? I can check my notes if bạn like????????

Psychiatry: Okay lets track your progress. In the past two weeks have bạn felt this?

Me: ???????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

Me: WHAT IS TWO WEEKS. HOW COULD I REMEMBER THE PAST TWO WEEKS. MAYBE IVE BEEN GOOD MAYBE I HAVENT WHO KNOWS đã đăng cách đây 10 tháng
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I can probably maybe answer for "The past two days" confidently at best XD cách đây 10 tháng
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On a một giây note, we have a "stale" (someone who joined the band post-Summer Retreat) and my motherly "adoptive" instincts kicked in and I think he thought I was an "upper" / "returner" for a bit until I was like "Oh yeah Im new too so I know how bạn feel" đã đăng cách đây 10 tháng
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97th. Was waiting to be the 100th, but knowing the growing community fanpop's active members number , this might take forever. đã đăng cách đây 10 tháng
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Understandable XD cách đây 10 tháng
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Honestly Ive Mất tích a member hoặc two so its kinda been staying around 95-97 for the past long while cách đây 10 tháng
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Me: *rambling about trước đó mental states to boyfriend* Ah... 10th grade was like the most peaceful năm even though I dont remember any of it.

Me: ....

Me: .... maybe it wasn't peaceful after all and I only say it was because of all the years, I dont remember any of 10th grade. đã đăng cách đây 10 tháng
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My boyfriend is too cute to be depressed hoặc mopey when talking to on video chat đã đăng cách đây 10 tháng
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I'm so thạch, sữa ong chúa cách đây 10 tháng
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The depressing thing is when bạn pause for a moment and realize bạn wont remember your own proposal. đã đăng cách đây 10 tháng
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"therapist: so how was your week

me: susan i just told bạn last time that i have dissociative amnesia i don't know how bạn are expecting me to answer that question"

That is such a mood đã đăng cách đây 10 tháng
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I legit take notes cách đây 10 tháng
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I will take a note of this and legit not really remember it and in my session go "OH YEAH THAT lol. That was funny." cách đây 10 tháng
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I honest to god do not know how most of the world does it. I am trying my damn hardest here to see if I can get myself to ACTUALLY remember a significant childhood memory with genuine episodic memory and all Im getting is a factual, third person, emotionally barren, summary of what it is using the same words that I use to describe it everytime cause its how my mind registers it

How do bạn people remember stuff XD đã đăng cách đây 10 tháng
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How do bạn people do this XD cách đây 10 tháng
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Fun stream XD Hope bạn guys enjoyed it. đã đăng cách đây 10 tháng
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I certainly did. Looking phía trước, chuyển tiếp to tiếp theo time as well !!!! cách đây 10 tháng
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Im honeslty SUPER hyped to play DRAE for those that can make it XD

I mean Im hyped for the stream but I personally tình yêu DRAE a lot and it seems like such a fitting game to play through since there are people I know who planned to go through the story and all and I just appreciate a lot abotu the game

Plus bạn might get to hear me growl at [her] đã đăng cách đây 10 tháng
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I might try to di chuyển the weekly time an giờ hoặc two earlier to see if I can make the time work for thêm people tiếp theo week. Currently trying to figure out a good time for everyone XD cách đây 10 tháng
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A relatable feeling. Still having mixed feelings about anyone who hasn't gone through the first two Games. Regardless, having just the general idea about the first entry at least will still make the experience enjoyable enough !!!!. cách đây 10 tháng
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I decided Imma gather a Live National Dex on PokeBank cause someone on my floor did it and I helped them evolve the last few they needed and it sounded fun XD đã đăng cách đây 10 tháng
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TFW bạn find a song that tears bạn between your tình yêu of giáng sinh and bạn tình yêu of nicely edgy songs XD

Why so edgy about giáng sinh XD Its so nicely edgy that its kinda enjoyable but like :v I like it but :v Why hurt giáng sinh like this :v đã đăng cách đây 10 tháng
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Guys đã đăng cách đây 10 tháng
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I might tình yêu my man thêm than birds cách đây 10 tháng
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Idk its genuinely hard to say, but I just homestly might. Maybe notably thêm idk. I shouldnt claim such things when fluffy cách đây 10 tháng
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Fluff is the realist yo v: cách đây 10 tháng
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I NEED TO STOP GETTING ALL FLUFFY OVER MY MAN BEFORE BED. I NEED TO SLEEP DAMN IT đã đăng cách đây 10 tháng
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*collects steam cards while working on really long and tedious Animal Science bài viết reading* đã đăng cách đây 10 tháng
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I dont think anyone on here really understands how much I tình yêu mt boyfriend and how blessed I am to have him in my life.

Lowkey may hoặc may not now be kept up thinking about it đã đăng cách đây 10 tháng
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I cant wait to make him my waifu officially cách đây 10 tháng
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Riku: *complains how tired she is*

Riku: *stays up playing Showdown with Lefteris* đã đăng cách đây 10 tháng
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I can not stop listening to súng thần công, pháo in D XD Its too peaceful đã đăng cách đây 10 tháng
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.... why do I have a better emotional memory for my RP characters than I do for my own life?

XD Like Ive always loved Pachbell's súng thần công, pháo in D, but there was a really sweet scene over a wedding in one of my RPs where it was played and the sheer joy, happiness, and warm peace amongst chaos and terror for the groom was just so great and it boosted how much I loved súng thần công, pháo in D đã đăng cách đây 10 tháng
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Maybe I RPed so much it was bad for me and encouraged dissociation, maybe the reason I could get THAT far into feeling the emotions of my characters came at a huge cost, but I wont say I dont have some good memories and emotions through them. Especially during a time when everything else in the world was distant, numb, and empty. Sure it probably caused some harm, but in the moment it was the savior to my world and I did get some good memories - albiet not mine - out of it cách đây 10 tháng
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I used to be a severe maladaptive daydreamer cách đây 10 tháng
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For those that haven't kept up with the polls, if anyone wants to tham gia in and watch me play through some games, I will probably be playing games on Saturdays Pacific Coast Time.

I think this week I might start Danganronpa Another Episode again for bạn all XD Time is still to be determined

It depends if I am kept in the football game hoặc not. đã đăng cách đây 10 tháng
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link cách đây 10 tháng
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I think Lefteris caught a lot of the first playthrough I did XD cách đây 10 tháng
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And Imma go through [her] again for yall to share the game with bạn XD cách đây 10 tháng
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Im so honestly sleep deprived. How am I awake rn? XD đã đăng cách đây 10 tháng
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I'm a Queen. đã đăng cách đây 10 tháng
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Nah not really though XD Im so weak to flirtatious begging though. ((Also may have been a bit of a residue from calming down from a snap to which I was five giây from making my dad grovel)) cách đây 10 tháng
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Honestly, for those that know, Lacie from Pandora Hearts looks almost scarily like Aderis so Im usually really careful about using her icon, but I kind of feel like its a good fit for my mood and honestly I tình yêu Lacie XD cách đây 10 tháng
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#Himedere !!!! cách đây 10 tháng
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Ah yes, it wouldnt be me coming trang chủ if my dad doesnt throw something.

RIP the cute japanese animal cup đã đăng cách đây 10 tháng
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Actually I dont think the cup broke cause its probably like some really good plastic hoặc something but now theres wine all over the floor which IS NOT my problem. cách đây 10 tháng
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Honestly tho. Great boyfriend helped a lot XD cách đây 10 tháng
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APPARENTLY WE GOT A NEW BIRD TO THE FLOCK đã đăng cách đây 10 tháng
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Awwwww Avery and Lucy were preening each other in an awkward manner XD Seems like they MIGHT be dating XD

Well thêm like Lucy was preening Avery buuuuut XD Its cute. Theyre growing up. đã đăng cách đây 10 tháng
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.... HMMM

>goes trang chủ and back to college for three weeks before coming back for Christmas
>has a paper due on the 30th
>has a week of marching practice for the last game on the 1st
>has finals on the third week
>dying? đã đăng cách đây 10 tháng
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Also behind as hell in Chem XD But yeah. Ill figure it out XD cách đây 10 tháng
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Also the thing about my therapist is that he calls me out on somethings. Such as "You use your memory as an excuse a lot but bạn can remember. bạn just dont want to. And even if bạn dont know how, it doesnt mean bạn cant."

Im not going to lie. I kinda try to hide it from myself but there are some occasions that I know that if I push I CAN remember something but there is a lot of natural resistance to it and just an extreme distaste to thinking about it even just on the surface level so đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
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I often allow myself to go "Welp, it took thêm than five giây and a tiny tiny bit of effort to remember. Guess I cant remember it". Its not always an excuse that I try to keep from admitting to myself that its an excuse, because a lot of the time I really cant hoặc I can only barely remember hoặc I just flat out dont know how to find the memories hoặc how to connect with the emotions of the time cách đây 11 tháng
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But I do know I compulsively let myself throw the "Cant remember it. Guess we cant think about it" really quickly and often prematurely. cách đây 11 tháng
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Im in a constant journey of going to things I find normal and being ".... is that normal hoặc is that part of my messed up mental health" cách đây 11 tháng
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Its weird. Being trang chủ literally feels like I was moved to an entirely different world but in a like... good way I think?

Was I really that shit đít, mông, ass dissociated to hell and back at college? đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
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It honestly makes college just seem like some odd dream I had hoặc something like that. Its really odd. I mean its not THAT odd for me since cognitive distortions and attachment to the world / my memory has always been odd cách đây 11 tháng
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MY ANKLE HURTS LIKE SHIT FOR SOME REASON XD

I mean it is my hurt one but like :v Its been recovering and suddenly it started hurting again ;-; đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
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Did bạn overwork it? cách đây 11 tháng
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Probably tbh XD cách đây 11 tháng
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Kill me XD Jkjk cách đây 11 tháng
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Honestly Im kinda glad I have gotten better at keeping myself from freaking out / getting depressed over things I can't control and things I know Ill manage / survive through. Not to say I do it all the time as well as Id like, but it saves me a lot of breakdowns that quickly build upon one another

Probably a good part of it is actually being on medication, but it is also a good part also just handling myself better I imagine. đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
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Cause when bạn let your opportunity to relax hoặc have fun because something makes bạn upset, bạn get even thêm upset cause of that and it just builds up like a mountain that just doesnt work cách đây 11 tháng
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So yeah. Kinda figured out that for the tiếp theo two years I might be stuck between working and being uncomfortable and relatively isolated to being extremely drained and a bit easily overwhelmed until I can get my boyfriend up north and thus have my environment thêm stable cách đây 11 tháng
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Cause uncontrolled unplanned breakdowns are bad, but like... controlled, timed ones are really helpful and useful when bạn dissociate a lot and can get comfortable enough. cách đây 11 tháng
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.... Ive been away from trang chủ for two months and it legit feels like I was only gone for maybe a week at most save for the first few phút of "Holy shit human touch".

Like Im not saying "Everythings just as it was left" cos there actually isnt much. It just legit feels like that whole time vanished :v I know I was at college for two months and it was long and tiring :v Weeeiiiirrrddd đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
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I swear to fucking god XD My brain better not throw away those two months already. Theres some interesting shit there :v cách đây 11 tháng
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Dude so excited to go trang chủ tomorrow XD I get to see my birds again as well as my boyfriend and even some of my old band kids probably \(-- 3 -)/ đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
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That is great to know. Have a good time. Make the most of it !!!! cách đây 11 tháng
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Bad Memory?

Cons: A lot of things mainly obvious

Pro: I can still be surprised at the end of an anime Ive already watched twice over đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
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.... to be entirely honest I dunno how braced Ill be for Smokey's inevitable death in like.... 5-15 years from now :v

Like Im alright not taking her with me since shes considerably old and well integrated into the current flock cause the di chuyển up north could be dangerous for her and cos my mom can take care of them well, but I dunno. She was a major part of the good things of my childhood that I dunno. đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
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For all of bạn that dont really understand how old parrotss live, even cockatiels, one of the shortest living parrots, Smokey, potentially one of the oldest that I got in the summer of 3rd-4th grade ((was probably a little under a năm old))

I got her when I was about 8. Shes currently about 10 years old, maybe a bit older. She will live anywhere from until Im.... 23 up to 38.

Lucy, who hatched July 2017, is a little over one năm and will live until Im 42 if cared for right. đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
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Maybe even longer for both of them. cách đây 11 tháng
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Honestly, I am ever thankful for it, but the whole "wounded, cold person who can be helped and fixed to be soft" is a huge trap and like.... 90% of the time it doesnt really go out to the end. A small but notable amount of the population are like "Id tình yêu a traumatized partner" hoặc "Oh Id tình yêu a yandere" hoặc what not, but its honestly not a good idea

My boyfriend was honest to god crazy for taking the chance with me after half the things I did and staying after I did other things. đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
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Quite honestly if I wasnt stubborn on getting better, it could have easily turned into a long term abusive relationship faster than I could have held myself back. Yeah I have an amazing relationship with him now that we worked through all of that, but seriously... not something bạn should put your bets on. cách đây 11 tháng
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Its honestly kinda gross how romanticized the "cold and cruel traumatized" character is. cách đây 11 tháng
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This is so true! cách đây 11 tháng
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Okay so its likely that I actually do have genuine multiple personalities and in this session, for the first time in years and possibly to my memory, I actually roughly experienced a general vague memory that had almost all of the emotion behind it

And while that sounds horrible, its legit what Ive been kind of wanting because its the only thing I have been unable to work on in my mental health cause I resist so naturally against it myself that even in this session đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
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I had to very forcefully make sure I didnt dissociate hoặc let myself escape it cách đây 11 tháng
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It took him not letting me dodge it and escape it and a very forceful but balanced amount of me forcing myself without letting myself get distracted and escape bởi focusing too much on forcing myself cách đây 11 tháng
TheLefteris24 đã bình luận…
Very interesting. I see now what bạn mean bởi him doing a good work !!!! cách đây 11 tháng
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Man its been so long since I so quickly and suddenly cut off emotion. đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
2ntyOnePilots đã bình luận…
Relatable. Good luck ‘big sis- Riku’. Hope that gets fixed up for bạn soon. cách đây 11 tháng
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Well Imma get fucked in the đít, mông, ass bởi a 60% weighted final. đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
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Which wouldnt be a huge deal if either A) I didnt get a C+ on the last midterm because of one stupid calculation error (cause I would have otherwise gotten an A) and B ) If I wasnt learning from fucking textbook because my professor has an accent bạn cant fucking understand cách đây 11 tháng
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What a fucking ngày ruiner. cách đây 11 tháng
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^ cách đây 11 tháng
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IM SAD

I CANT tham gia THE "Mental HEalth in Award Winning Movies" FIRST năm SEMINAR BECAUSE IM TOO AHEAD IN UNITS AND CAUSE I HAVE TOO MANY CLASSES

I JUST WANT TO DISCUSS AND TALK TO PEOPLE ABOUT MENTAL HEALTH AND WATCH phim chiếu rạp REVOLVING IT :VVVV đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
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NOTE TO SELF CALL COUNSELING AND FIGURE OUT HOW LATE I CAN hủy bỏ IN CASE MY MIDTERM GETS PUSHED BACK AGAIN.

ALSO FIGURE OUT PASSING PERIOD.

Thank you, this as been a reminder from Riku who wants to go back to sleeping after her classes got canceled at 7 AM and couldnt go back to sleep out of both joy and her brain not letting her since there were things to do because of it. đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
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Honestly Yandere Dev is miserable and I stopped being a supporter cause I kinda gave up on the fact his project would be completed but honestly I might go back to supporting him more. hoặc at least giving his thing a một giây chance. I kinda felt bad before but at least hes aware and working on things. đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
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Ugh. When bạn are here trying to keep a decent sleep schedule and your roommate wont get off the phone on a school night at 1:30 AM after bạn asked nicely at 1:00 AM and just passive aggressively asked again. đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
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Why not use ear plugs? cách đây 11 tháng
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Cos I couldnt sleep with earplugs cách đây 11 tháng
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I could honestly live with only birds and my boyfriend and I would be happpppy. đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
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I want my flock back ;-; cách đây 11 tháng
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ALSO THE LIKE BURNT / CHAFED / DAMAGED SKIN FROM USING CRUTCHES WITH A TANK hàng đầu, đầu trang BURNS SO BAD WHEN I PUT LOTION ON Jesus CHRIST I FEEL LIKE ITS ON ngọn lửa, chữa cháy đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
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*heavy conversation and analysis about the cooperate religion of BTS*

*sends a ngẫu nhiên bird video three giây after* đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
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That actually happened and is the best summary of me cách đây 11 tháng
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I swear to god my mom gave me a tim, trái tim attack XD

She abruptly started calling me which isnt TOO odd and I was like "Im busy, what is it?" and she just đã đưa ý kiến "Lucy" XD

So I quickly dropped everythign and answered it and it was just Lucy hanging out with her and being a really good bird XD đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
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I honestly dont understand how people can just sit and piss their life away online.

Id be thêm producitve if my piss đít, mông, ass brain would function and actually get motivated but the lack of physical movement is making me honest to god unmotivated mentally and thus cant focus hoặc really enjoy anything >.> đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
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Honestly kinda hate my leg right now. I have a three ngày weekend Im spending being a hermit in my house cause I cant go out anywhere and socialize hoặc so anything. Im literally just sitting on my đít, mông, ass watching anime, watching youtube, and occasionally doing some homework hoặc whatever. No real video games to play since Im still doing Hakuoki and not interested in any others. No real socialization cause Im a cripple. đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
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Without class hoặc band hoặc anything I just lowkey kinda realize how shit as boring life is. I need something to be passionate over hoặc something to learn from hoặc something / someone interesting but Im just fukcing sitting here doing the same thign over and over again. Like wtf cách đây 11 tháng
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If Im just gonna sit and waste these tiếp theo few days can I at least not be involved in it and just fastfoward? I get a bit weird when I realize how monotonous life is and I dont particularly like it cách đây 11 tháng
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Krul might make my waifu danh sách XD đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
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IM SO SHOOK. WHY ARE MY FIRST BATCH OF ROOKIES DOING SENIOR SPEECHES?! ARENT THEY STILL LIKE FRESHMEN

WHY DID THEY GROW UP ALREADY?!?! đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
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I request a bird video in my club's video section if anyone has any. đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
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"a bird videos" cách đây 11 tháng
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Sure cách đây 11 tháng
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So Im trying to analyze BPD, OSDD-1B, and DID to see if what I do and experience is thêm fitting to one of the three hoặc just seeing them in the context of eachother and its honestly really interesting. I dunno if Ill post it on "Just Shut Up" hoặc as an bài viết but wow.

I could honest to god write a thesis paper on this with how interestingly similar the three - especially BPD and OSDD - are on an outward level. đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
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#TripleHealRainDishPelipper đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
TheLefteris24 đã bình luận…
#SpamProtectAndHealUntilThereIsn'tAnyMorePP !!!! cách đây 11 tháng
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>Sugar Daddy Riku đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
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Lets play the game of "Is this the dissociated part of is that the dissociated part" đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
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I honestly need my flock back. cách đây 11 tháng
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Apologies about the Satou Matsuzaka gif spam XD The wiki feature wasnt working đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
TheLefteris24 đã bình luận…
No need to apologize over adorable Waifu Gif spams. bạn did well !!!! cách đây 11 tháng
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FUCK IM SO DISAPPOINTED. HAPPY SUGAR LIFE WAS SO CLOSE TO THE CLASSICAL SHAKESPEAREAN TRAGEDY ENDING WITH THE WHOLE CAST COMING TOGETHER AT THE END AND DYING ALL TOGETHER IN ONE PLACE BUT THEN THEY YEETED OUT OF THE PLAN AND IT WOULD HAVE BEEN BEAUTIFUL đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
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EEEE. ITS ALMOST THURSDAY. đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
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I tình yêu therapy so much when I have bad weeks on mental health XD cách đây 11 tháng
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Ive kinda been pulling myself through the way I usually do and kind of using band and the trumpet as a crutch a bit. Cause honestly they give off such a nice healthy environment and air. Its soft and I feel so much thêm relaxed around them. Like when the topic of mental health comes up its always sympathetic, empathetic, and just "Oh its good to care for yourself" and all and the world just needs so much thêm of that. cách đây 11 tháng
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Im very grateful. cách đây 11 tháng
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Im still honestly kinda đắng, cay đắng I was disarmed going to college. I like to have at least one dao, con dao on me at all times for just general use hoặc for emergency use hoặc just as a bit of a "dont fuck with me" if Im alone at night. đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
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GOD. Happy Sugar Life thus far is GREAT. Like the stylistic choices to display emotion and mental snaps are really great and as someone who has had very... lets say vindictive / aggressive mental snaps, I feel it is really good representation XD

Also I really like Sato as a Yandere. Better than Yuno I believe. đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
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Holy shit is it amazing. All the characters are mentally fucked and the anime goes about its own ways of addesssing it cách đây 11 tháng
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And displaying it and I fucking tình yêu it but like cách đây 11 tháng
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I need to go to sleep XD But Im fucking hooked god help me cách đây 11 tháng
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Debating between adding thêm to characters hoặc watching Happy Sugar Life. I decided that one since it interested me the most even though I am slightly concerned of certain things not workign well with me but... Ya know #Yolo đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
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Pretty much had a one-on-one sectional practice with one of my section leaders cos no one else showed up and it was actually pretty awesome. đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
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Also I realized one of the best types of people to have around bạn in the case bạn get into an accident hoặc bad situation is someone with like.... anxiety hoặc PTSD cos we are always either mentally braced hoặc physically braced to deal with it.

Cos dude I have pretty much a first aid kit with me whenever I do anything remotely dangerous XD

Like I heard the bike breaks behind me screech like there was an accident turned around and was like "ARE bạn GUYS OKAY I GOT BANDAGES AND SUPPLIES" đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
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I am so doing a meme of this xD cách đây 11 tháng
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^ 👌 !!!! cách đây 11 tháng
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XD cách đây 11 tháng
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I was most definately not almost late for class despite being there 20 phút early because I got too into checking out the birds and psychology sách in the bookstore across the đường phố, street from my class đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
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Me @ My Brain: Make serotonin and dopamine bạn lazy fucker đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
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Honestly it feels like I missed three consecutive days of anxiety medicine and while my ability to remember to take medicine the past week has been bad, I do not think I missed three days.

Cause apparently if I miss three days in a row it resets hoặc something and thus I never missed three days in a row since I started taking it like... a năm and a half cách đây đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
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Its honestly been a while since Ive been in a point of instability and my mind messing with itself that I have so strongly marked a ngày to 'survive' with it to. cách đây 11 tháng
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Like this is all minor compared to before and its pretty bad so like.... serious các điểm thưởng to younger me cách đây 11 tháng
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She was a beast to deal with all this cách đây 11 tháng
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When bạn own a Cockatoo someday name it Riku xD đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
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Why XD cách đây 11 tháng
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Im honestly not cut out for living with people other than like.... birds and maybe my boyfriend. I could probably also manage living with my PTSD best friend, but unless Im really bonded and/or really really trust them and are comfortable around them, it takes a huge toll on me in the long run

And things get really hard to manage when Im not fully stable because the small things trigger things to start again that I just have to keep to myself and it greatly slows down recovering. đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
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Cause unless its someone I trust and am comfortable with, I get easily set off when Im not fully stable and I know its usually ridiculous and overresponsive due to being unstable and just end up having to keep it to myself cách đây 11 tháng
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But honestly I cant wait to get my own studio. I can handle things so much easier that way. cách đây 11 tháng
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I tình yêu my roommates and they are great people but I dont think its that good for me and all cách đây 11 tháng
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WHY THE FUCK ARE ALL THE UNREQUITED tình yêu ROUTES WORSE THAN THE BAD ROUTES

UNREQUITED tình yêu SOUNDS LIKE THE MEDIUM ONE BUT IN EDO BLOSSOMS ITS THE WORST đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
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Okay so Okita and Hijikata are pretty neck in neck relatable cách đây 11 tháng
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I decided that after I finish Okitas route Imma take a break and watch Happy Sugar Love. Ive been wanting to watch it for a while and just remembered it now that its finished XD đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
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Maybe not actualyl Ill see XD cách đây 11 tháng
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Id probably think Im some Tumblr self diagnoser with all the diagnoses I have but I really dont bring up most of them :v Im actually really shy about askign about them cause I dont wanna be a self diagnoser to the point my first therapist knew I had PTSD for a while but it technically wasnt official for over a năm XD đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
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And Im pretty casual with them cause its just a label, something to look into and understand and reflect on, and somethign to aid in planning further recovery progress cách đây 11 tháng
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Ooof. Apparently the new trumpet section leader this năm in my old highschool band is hospitalized with a collapsed lung and he has a solo for the fieldshow that no one can replace đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
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.... tfw your yêu thích college professor has a lot of negative "Rate My Professor" ratings despite him being literally one of the best public speakers and most engaging teachers???

And its not only me. Like everyone who sits around me also agrees??? đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
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How the fuck XD cách đây 11 tháng
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Imma give him five stars when I finish the class cos tbh sometimes I just go to his class for the energy and engagement in the class. Hes a wonderful lecturer and its a good escape from life for a bit XD cách đây 11 tháng
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Honestly glad I have chickens this morning for lab cause my brain is being fucking retarded cause yesterday was long and a bit problematic plus I got half the amount of sleep I usually do >.> đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
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Starting therapy again after 3 months off and shit is messing with my mind a bit :v cách đây 11 tháng
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She was such a precious hen cách đây 11 tháng
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Also Okita is too relatable too XD đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
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Me: I shoudl actually get a referral for psychiatry before I come close to running out of medication and risk having to go over three days without it. Imma go get that appointment

Me: *goes to the health website*

Website: We have these appointments tomorrow. If they dont work, contact this number for assistance

Me: O-O HOLY SHIT bạn DONT HAVE TO WAIT A WEEK PLUS FOR A DOCTOR APPOINTMENT? IS THIS WHAT NOT SUPER SHITTY MEDICAL SERVICE IS?! đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
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#DowntownDavisDay đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
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I miss my better half XD đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
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My mentally-healthy lifestyle is harder to manage without him XD cách đây 11 tháng
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Cause honestly Im actually like.... 5x thêm efficient with my time and thêm productive and thêm active. I actually study a bit, Im ahead on my homework, and I work well on my projects of interests because I dont spend time just laying down doing nothing hoặc napping hoặc taking pointless walks hoặc other things that are otherwise considered inefficient usage of time cách đây 11 tháng
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Personally I just dont have much of anything better to do XD cách đây 11 tháng
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Bro I need to chill XD

I mean I know I did most of my homework today that I had to do tomorrow so I can make Thursday an almost free day

But like... When I suggest we play something casual and shit like Sims again

Dont go off and be like "Nah we could work on developing characters more" and almost start doing it when bạn have a damn headache XD đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
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Me: *explaining to my innocent roommate about THAT corner of tumblr*

Her: Doesnt it trigger bạn ever?

Me: It actually has in the past but yeah

Conversation: *turns to topic of she who should not be mention*

Me: ha..hahah....ha. No brain lets not get like this đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
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Cntrl Alt xóa that. I do not need to think about it XD cách đây 11 tháng
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Roommate: Do bạn ever write down your feelings hoặc anything?

Me: Do bạn want to see what it looked like when I did?

Roommate: .... with how bạn đã đưa ý kiến that, Im honestly scared and will decide to pass on that. đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
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Boi between TwinkleStar mentioning it and Okita's route, Im really remembering how bloodthirsty I used to get when I was really emotionally and mentally unstable. đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
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Honestly as much of a shitty developer that YandereDev is, he hired a good person to create a good theme for the Delinquents and I really honestly tình yêu the theme for its composition and shit đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
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:vvv That feeling when bạn go to sleep and 20 phút later your trumpet chat has one of those great night time ngẫu nhiên bullshit discussions and now bạn wish bạn didnt sleep :v XD đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
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Also my new therapist feels OCPD is a thêm fitting diagnosis than OCD (excluding the fact Trichotillomania is a subtype of OCD) đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
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To be honest might look thêm into it and discuss it thêm with him at some point but I lowkey dont want to accept it XD cách đây 11 tháng
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If I do have it (cause we barely talked about it in the run through of who I am on the first meeting) but I dont want to add one thêm general branch of disorders to my danh sách XD cách đây 11 tháng
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Imma be sad is I become an even larger ball of mental health XD cách đây 11 tháng
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:3 I served as a pivot point for moving my roommate's ngày from depressive as fuck to good again :3

It did cost my Hakuoki time I had scheduled but its nice to see I could help.

Shes now talking to her aunt about stuff and phía trước, chuyển tiếp planning and thats good :3 đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
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Me: Well shit having trouble sleeping

Me: I guess Ill just do the entire week's worth of Econ homework ahead đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
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Homework shouldnt be as calming as it is XD cách đây 11 tháng
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My brain was keeping awake festering on dumb anxieties so I just fed it something else to think about and be busy with XD cách đây 11 tháng
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BTW GAD is short for Generalized Anxiety Disorder cách đây 11 tháng
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I relate to Okita's Tuberculosis rn with how bad my lungs got fucked up bởi my cold XD đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
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Personally I feel that the older bạn get, the larger the responsibility it should be for bạn to provide for the younger generations. Not necessarily so strictly as said, but its part of what makes humans special. We are so capable at passing down information for years to come.

Its the responsibility of older members of society to provide as much learning experience to their youngers so progress can keep moving and everyone's life in net can be easier đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
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In that way, its an older person's responsibility to guide and help the younger people as much as they can because as someone who is older, bạn have a higher ability to be stable and have learned how to manage your own life. On the other hand, kids to young adults are shakey on it and just a little aid in that struggle can leave a large impact cách đây 11 tháng
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Its a bit why Im always a mother that adopts younger people a lot to be honest. I may only be a năm hoặc two older often, but everyone could use a "big sister" "big brother" hoặc "parent" and such a relationship dynamic can help a lot. cách đây 11 tháng
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And Im not saying responsibility like I usually do where its something I know is probably toxic and I feel I have to. I think its just a good rule of thumb. We ourselves might not have our lives together, but thêm often than not, I feel they are thêm Mất tích in life. Some might not have faced the major things like money, work, and all, but if bạn think about it, a little kid loosing his yêu thích toy is super distressing and that in itself is something weve learned to handle and thus its our responsibility to help them and guide them in their way cách đây 11 tháng
TheLefteris24 đã bình luận…
Amen to that !!!! cách đây 11 tháng
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I think I succeeded in taking a break today đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
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Mainly because my dormmates were out pretty much all ngày and thus I was able to finally have a ngày to just relax and all so its KINDA cheating, but fuck I did it XD cách đây 11 tháng
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So I didnt really overcome my mental health obstacles and stuff like I wanted and what would normally be the situation, but I did at the very least complete the task of giving my brain a break and taking a ngày to just relax XD cách đây 11 tháng
TheLefteris24 đã bình luận…
A cookie has been earned !!!! cách đây 11 tháng
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YEp Souji shows potential for beign relatable too as I expected XD Im starting his route now đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
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I honestly tình yêu my boyfriend and how much he accepts my weirdness and bullshit XD He literally just openly accepted and went along with me calling him "my uke" XD đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng
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He is quite honestly just everything I could ever want in a partner and stuff I didnt think were necessarily even possible to actually find XD cách đây 11 tháng
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BFRBs + Athletes foot REALLY isnt a good combo XD đã đăng cách đây 11 tháng