January 29, 2016,

I asked "are bạn sure bạn don't want me to stay a few thêm days?" Kyle đã đưa ý kiến "trust me AJ; I've got everything under control! Let's just enjoy our last night together before bạn leave tomorrow on tour." I sat down on the giường and đã đưa ý kiến "I was really excited to leave; but now I'm a little worried!" Kyle asked as he put our four tháng old daughter Addison on to the changing bàn "worried? Why? bạn can trust me with Carter and Addison while you're gone!" I đã đưa ý kiến "it's not that that am worried about! I'm so used to bạn keeping me under control and out of trouble! It's pretty much going to be just me on my own for nine months! I'll be lucky if my manager even talks to me thêm than once a day! That leaves a lot of time for me to get into trouble! That's what I am worried about!" He đã đưa ý kiến "I know that you're worried about that; but just remember what bạn have to come trang chủ to! Two children that tình yêu bạn and a husband that would do anything for you!" I asked "promise that you'll have the nursery painted and decorated bởi the time I get back?" Kyle rolled his eyes and đã đưa ý kiến "yes babe; I promise!" I asked "promise me that the house will not be a disaster when I come trang chủ in nine months?" He đã đưa ý kiến "I can't guarantee that the house will be perfect when bạn get back; but it'll be decent." I shut off the light on the nightstand and Kyle asked "you're going to sleep already?" I đã đưa ý kiến "yeah; I have a long nine months ahead of me of lots of work; I need my rest." He đã đưa ý kiến seeming disappointed "okay; I understand." I asked "why? What's wrong? Did bạn want me to stay awake?" He đã đưa ý kiến "no; nevermind." I đã đưa ý kiến "okay" and rolled over as I turned the TV on.

January 30, 2016,

I woke up and noticed that it was still dark outside. I looked over at the clock which đã đưa ý kiến 4 AM on it and realized that I wasn't going to be able to fall back asleep. I got out of giường and walked down the hallway and into Carter's room. As he slept I climbed into giường and laid tiếp theo to him. I looked at how peaceful he was and then looked around his bedroom. There were posters of the Power Rangers, Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles, SpongeBob SquarePants, and ngôi sao Wars all over the walls. It kind of reminded me of what this bedroom looked like when it was my room.

I chuckled as I stared at Carter's tiny feet sticking out from the bottom of his blanket and I carefully slipped his feet under the covers. I kissed his forehead and made my way downstairs. I went into the phòng bếp, nhà bếp and got a bowl out of the dishwasher. I grabbed a box of Lucky charms out of the pantry and sat down on the living room đi văng after pouring myself something to eat.

I turned on the TV and flipped through the channels. I noticed "Michael Jackson's this is it" was playing on MTV and decided to watch it; even though there was only about two phút left before it ended. Just as it switched to the channel, the words "dedicated to Prince, Paris, and Prince Michael the một giây a.k.a. Blanket” flashed across the screen. I paused the TV and looked up to the sky as I đã đưa ý kiến "I hope I'm doing the right thing bởi going on tour again dad! I have a bad feeling about this! I have too much going for me to mess it all up! My family is counting on me; but bạn know how Hollywood is! They chew bạn up and spit bạn out faster than bạn can defend yourself!"

I was interrupted bởi Kyle asking "who are bạn talking to?" I asked "what are bạn doing up?" He đã đưa ý kiến "I got up to go to the bathroom and noticed that bạn weren't there tiếp theo to me in bed." I đã đưa ý kiến "I really don't know if I should leave! I have a really bad feeling about this! I wish bạn could go with me!" He đã đưa ý kiến as he sat down tiếp theo to me "I wish we could to; but Carter's too busy with school right now and Addison is still really small. It just wouldn't be a good idea to subject her to all those germs with her weak immune system. Maybe when the kids are older we can go with bạn tiếp theo time." I sighed and đã đưa ý kiến "I don't know if there's going to be a tiếp theo time Kyle." Kyle asked confused "what do bạn mean?" I đã đưa ý kiến "TBS called and they want to make a reality hiển thị about our life after the tour is over. I agreed to do it because I just want to be able to make money without having to go anywhere. I put my life into our family! I just think that the superstar years are behind me!" Kyle asked "do bạn hear yourself right now? Being a famous musician was your dream ever since bạn were a little kid! bạn can't just throw all the hours bạn put into it away! I know once bạn get back out on that stage that you'll find yourself again! You're losing touch with who bạn are and bạn need to spend some time putting yourself first; instead of everyone else! I know bạn tình yêu all three of us; but bạn need a break and the best break for bạn right now is the music!"

I kissed Kyle and got off of the đi văng and đã đưa ý kiến "I guess you're right." He walked over to me and wrapped his arms around my waist as I stood at the phòng bếp, nhà bếp sink. He đã đưa ý kiến "I know I'm right!" I đã đưa ý kiến as he kissed my neck several times "I'm going to miss bạn so much!" He whispered seductively in my ear "you don't leave for another two hours!" I playfully bit my lip and asked "so; what are bạn suggesting?"

Kyle picked me up and threw me over his shoulder as he ran up the stairs. I whispered "be quiet; I don't want to wake the kids up because if Carter knows I'm leaving he'll throw a huge separation anxiety induced fit!" Kyle tossed me on the giường in our bedroom and shut the door as I asked "what are bạn doing?" He turned on the water in the vòi hoa sen that was over our huge Jacuzzi tub." He carried me into the bathroom and tossed me into the Jacuzzi with my pajamas still on. I laughed and asked "what the hell are bạn doing?" He đã đưa ý kiến "don't worry about your clothes! They'll be off in a few minutes!"

I shrieked as the ice cold water rained down on me from the showerhead. I turned off the vòi hoa sen and started to run the water from the faucet. I asked "why is the water so cold?" He đã đưa ý kiến "it's going to take a few phút to warm up because the pipes froze last night! They are almost unfrozen; so it should be warmer any một phút now."

After stripping off his clothes, he climbed into the Jacuzzi and đã đưa ý kiến "you weren't kidding when bạn đã đưa ý kiến the water was cold! Thank God bạn didn't put the drain plug in to start filling the tub because this water is freezing!" I đã đưa ý kiến "I hope it warms up soon!" To keep ourselves warm, we started a passionate make out session. One thing led to another and bạn get the point.

As we lay there in the Jacuzzi with our bodies pressed up against each other, Kyle đã đưa ý kiến "I tình yêu bạn so much!" He ran his fingers through my blonde fauxhawk and I đã đưa ý kiến as I bit his bottom lip "I tình yêu bạn too! Do bạn want me to check and see if the water is warm enough now to start filling the tub?" He đã đưa ý kiến "yes; go ahead." I turned the water back on and screamed as I chuckled while scolding hot water hit my foot. I yanked my foot out of the way and đã đưa ý kiến "it's definitely hot now!"

As we sat there waiting for the huge Jacuzzi to start filling up with water, I đã đưa ý kiến "I'm going to be so lonely without bạn sleeping tiếp theo to me every night! Nobody to talk to! Just me in a big empty hotel room!" He đã đưa ý kiến "just know that I'm going to be feeling just as lonely as bạn are when bạn leave." I hit a button to make the water come out faster because it still wasn't that full. Then I realized I hit the wrong button. Sudsy bubbles came out of all the holes inside the Jacuzzi at full blast. Kyle chuckled and asked "aren't bạn going to shut off the bubbles?" I frantically hit the button over and over again. I chuckled as I đã đưa ý kiến "oh no; I think the buttons stuck!"

Before we knew it, Kyle and I were completely buried in bubbles. I managed to pull the drain plug with my foot; but that really didn't help the situation. I managed to dig myself out of the bubbles and pulled Kyle out with me. We both burst out laughing as the tub started to overflow with bubbles. Kyle asked "what are we going to do?" I looked at the clock on the tường and đã đưa ý kiến "Frank going to be here any một phút and I'm not even dressed yet!" Kyle desperately shoved both of his socks into the hole that the bubbles for coming out of. He đã đưa ý kiến "that should buy us some time!"

I went back out to the bedroom and put my clothes on before running to answer the door. I answered it and Frank was standing there as he asked "what took bạn so long to answer the door? I've been sending out here for a half hour!" I đã đưa ý kiến "trust me; bạn don't want to know." Kyle ran down the stairs and I đã đưa ý kiến "I have to go babe because I'm running late. Tell the kids I tình yêu them and I'll see them soon!" He kissed me one last time and đã đưa ý kiến "I tình yêu you! Have fun; just relax!" I đã đưa ý kiến "I tình yêu bạn too and don't forget to video chat with me at night after the concerts!"

After boarding the bus, I got on my laptop and started to play game of solitaire. A few phút into it, I got bored and started to go through the pictures on my laptop. There were so many of Kyle and I with the kids. I had to stop looking at them because it was making me sad. I'm really starting to wonder if I made the right decision! I didn't really want to leave and I probably would never want to leave if it were up to me!

February 3, 2016,

After a long buổi hòa nhạc in Arizona, I lay on my hotel room giường and my iPad started beeping. I picked it up and noticed that Kyle was trying to video chat with me. I accepted the request and he đã đưa ý kiến "hey; I miss you! How was the concert?" I shrugged it off and đã đưa ý kiến "okay I guess; I want to just come home!" Kyle đã đưa ý kiến "you know; you've been pregnant pretty much the entire time you've been 21. bạn should go out and have a few drinks!" I đã đưa ý kiến with a worried expression on my face "I don't think that's such a good idea Kyle! The idea of me drinking again gives me a bad feeling!" Kyle asked "what's the worst that could happen?" I đã đưa ý kiến "a lot of things!" He đã đưa ý kiến "just have fun; that's all I'm saying! bạn don't have to overdo it!"

I logged off of the video chat and dialed the numbers of a few of my backup dancers. They came up to the room and I opened up the mini fridge. The whole entire door was stuffed with bia bottles.…

February 4, 2016,

I opened my eyes to the sound of someone knocking on the hotel room door and noticed that I was laying face first on the floor. I mustered up the strength to go open the door with my head pounding worse than it ever has before. I answered it and was surprised to see Kyle standing there. He asked "are bạn excited to see me?" I rubbed my head and asked "what are bạn doing here?" He đã đưa ý kiến "I know you've been having a hard time being away from me and the kids; so I decided to give bạn a visit for a few weeks!"

Kyle walked in and noticed the hotel room was a complete disaster, he looked at me and I immediately burst out crying. He hugged me and asked "what's wrong?" I đã đưa ý kiến "I can't do this anymore! I don't want this anymore! I just want to be normal again! I don't want the fame and I don't want the money! All I need is my family! I mean it when I say that I'm done with all this and I want to go home! Don't try to talk me out of it because I think for once in my life I making a good decision! All I remember from last night's grabbing beers out of the fridge! I only had to backup dancers with me and they call me and told me I had 24 beers last night; and was throwing up all over the place!"

I think finally Kyle noticed how badly I wanted my normal life back. He đã đưa ý kiến "come on; let's go home!" As we walked past my manager Frank's hotel room, he asked "where do bạn think you're going? bạn have a contract!" I ripped the contract in half right in front of him and đã đưa ý kiến "not anymore I don't!"

We ended up driving all the way from Arizona back to Los Angeles in Kyle's car; which gave us a lot of time to talk. He đã đưa ý kiến "I'm sorry it took me so long to realize that you're done with being famous! I guess that means that because you'll be trang chủ all the time he take care of the kids I can open up my own body shop! Hey; do bạn ever wonder why your dad put up with bạn and your crap for so long?" I đã đưa ý kiến "sometimes; I just wish I could know exactly what he was thinking!"

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