Suspicion

So, bạn tell me
That I’m the most beautiful girl you’ve ever met
And now you’re going on
On how bạn can’t get me out of your head
Has no one filled bạn in
That I don’t do things I might regret
So bạn can pack up your little act
‘Cause I’m not falling for that

‘Cause I’m out of your league
You’re not even close to good enough for me
When I open my tim, trái tim
It’s gotta be right from the start
I know you’re wildest fantasies
But they don’t match with reality
So bạn can beg on your knees
You can’t get me

Now bạn tell me
That I should be thankful to have bạn around
And that instead of being...

I’m not bitter
I’m just being picky
I’m not cold
I’m just being lonely
I’m not lost
I’m just undiscovered
Living in my shell of safety
Building walls up once again

‘Cause I am afraid
That when I’d give bạn my tim, trái tim it might break
But I know
That when I’d give bạn my tình yêu
I gotta give bạn all I have
Leave nothing out

I’m not broken
I’m just being scarred
I’m not hateful
I’m just playing it hard
You can reach me
If bạn try hard enough
But if you’d rather not stay, just walk away
And don’t waste both of our time

‘Cause I am afraid
That when I’d give bạn my tim, trái tim it might break
But...

Got no reason to cry
I’m okay
Got no reason to hide
I’m okay
Got no reason to run from life
Or to fake a smile
Everything’s perfect this way
I’m okay

Bury me while I’m still breathing
Haunt me while I’m still sleeping
Torture me while I’m still feeling
Everything’s perfect this way
I’m okay

Got no place to run to
But I’m okay
Got no heaven to go through
Still I’m okay
Got no idea what to do
Or how to live without you
But everything’s perfect this way
I’m okay

Bury me while I’m still breathing
Haunt me while I’m still sleeping
Torture me while I’m still feeling
Everything’s perfect...

Ain't it sad
How I'm pushing people away
Refuse to let them in
All because of you
Ain't it sad
How I'm trying to di chuyển on
But you're controlling my heart
Ever since I fell in tình yêu with you

And even though I can only think about nothing but you
I still need to wake up and face the truth

'Cause bạn are
Everything I'll never have
I wish I could go back
To where I Mất tích my head
So I could erase that moment
I'm everything you'll never know
If this is how the story's supposed to go
Then I'd take a piece of paper and my favourite pen
And I'd write it all over again

I won't cry
This pain's too deep
to be lightened with...

Daddy thinks I’m afraid
I’m afraid of never finding a tình yêu that fits me
Well, he’s right in a way
Because everyday I fear thêm that we will never be

I’m zoning out on bạn and I can’t breathe
You’re haunting my thoughts so I can’t sleep
And even though I know we could never be
I don’t wanna lose this fantasy

Can I just close my eyes
And imagine bạn are tiếp theo to me
Can I just pretend my life
to be so much thêm than it seems
Can I just ignore the pain
Can I please vượt qua, cross your way
It’s so hard to keep it inside
I just wanna tình yêu you, can I

Mommy mocks the fact I once
I once loved bạn but doesn’t...

Boy, I hate you
Why bạn have to be the way that bạn are
If only bạn were different
It would make it much easier for me to di chuyển on

I thought bạn finally belonged to the past
But who am I kidding, you’re a tình yêu that seems to last

My tim, trái tim breaks whenever I think of you
And my soul dies ‘cause I know it will never be true
It’s getting thêm obvious everyday
I’m in tình yêu with you, again

It’s getting harder
To di chuyển on without bạn every day
But bạn don’t even know me
I should just get a life and go my own way

My tim, trái tim breaks whenever I think of you
And my soul dies ‘cause I know it will never be true...

Here I stand
My tim, trái tim beating out of my chest
Here I stand
Trying to leave it all to rest

I'm taking small steps forward
Big steps backwards
'Cause this is the last where I wanna be
I'm swallowing my fear
And I'm gathering my courage
'Cause you're the last person I wanna see

But if I wanna get over this I need to get through this
There can't be no healing without pain
And I can't conceal it
And I won't believe it
That all of it would've been in vain

You promised I'd never be
Anything I saw in me
You didn't I'd make it to the big leagues
You never thought I'd stand a chance
But yet here I am
At some place bạn will...