Disclaimer: I do not own House, the characters, hoặc the song. However the story is mine.
Probably my last update till wednesday. Let me know what bạn think and if I should continue :)
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The door to Cuddy's office burst open. She looked up expecting to see House, but instead she saw Wilson.
"Oh what a wonderful costume House," she đã đưa ý kiến tiredly.
"Sorry. I need to talk to you."
"I'm guessing this has nothing to do with the hospital so that means it has to be about House. What did he do now?"
"Nothing surprisingly. Well it's thêm like what he said," Wilson đã đưa ý kiến studying her.
"Oh and what did he say," she wasn't all too curious, but it had to be somewhat important if Wilson came to talk to her.
"He told me about your conversation around lunch time.."
"And that's why your here," she đã đưa ý kiến interrupting him.
"No it's thêm like what he đã đưa ý kiến after he told me." Wilson could tell she was a little thêm interested now.
"Care to share what that is," she asked suddenly curious.
"He đã đưa ý kiến he walked out when bạn asked if he wanted things to stay the way they are between bạn two. I asked him why he walked out and he đã đưa ý kiến that bạn were happy, bạn deserve to be happy, and he didn't want to mess up your dreams of a perfect family." Wilson stopped as he noticed tears began to appear in her eyes.
"I'm fine go on," she đã đưa ý kiến after a few minutes.
"He also đã đưa ý kiến that he didn't fit into that picture and he was happy as long as bạn were. He also đã đưa ý kiến he could never make bạn happy." Wilson stopped again as he saw that Cuddy had a fresh batch of tears running down her face.
"Are bạn alright," Wilson asked unsure.
"I'm fine. Please Wilson, tell me your serious and your not lying?"
"I'm completely serious. He đã đưa ý kiến that bạn were over him and he wants to be with you, but he can't."
Cuddy silently nodded. Wilson was beginning to worry about her until she spoke up.
"I'm not over House. But bạn already know that. Feelings like that don't just dissapear. Why does he think he can't be with me?"
"Because your with Lucas and bạn seem happy with him," answered Wilson surely.
"I need to talk to him," she đã đưa ý kiến determined.
"I agree," đã đưa ý kiến Wilson with a smile.
Cuddy walked out of her office quickly in tìm kiếm of House.
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House left work early and he was sitting at trang chủ trying to focus on the tv. He was confused and he couldn't get his mind off Cuddy. He was beginning to thingk he made the wrong decision bởi giving up so easily. Maybe I should have at least tried to fight for her, he thought. His thoughts were interrupted bởi a knock on the door. He knew that knock. She had a distinct knock so he could always tell it was her. He got up and opened the door and looked at her questioningly.
"What's up?"
"Wilson told me about your conversation."
House's face quickly turned to one of fear. He couldn't believe Wilson had told her. Now he had no idea what was going to happen hoặc how bad he had messed up.
"Don't worry your not in trouble," she đã đưa ý kiến as she saw the panic in his eyes.
Relief quickly flooded his face, but it was again replaced with fear.
"Ok so what do bạn want," he asked curiously.
"I just wanted to say thank you. I had no idea bạn actually cared that much about me to put your happiness behind mine."
"Um...your welcome?" House had honestly no clue how to respond to that.
"I'm not finished. I also wanted to tell bạn I care about bạn just as much. And I feel the same way about bạn as bạn do me." She had no idea where this burst of courage came from, but it was working to her advantage.
"And how do I feel about bạn Cuddy," he asked wanting to hear her say it.
"...I...maybe I should go," she đã đưa ý kiến suddenly all courage gone.
House grabbed her arm and pulled her into his apartment when she was about to leave.
"Let's try this again Cuddy. How do I feel about you?"
She suddenly felt trapped and she wanted out. She could feel herself switch into defensive mode.
"I don't know House. How do bạn feel about me," she asked suddenly turning the tables.
"You know how I feel about you, bạn just won't admit it since bạn đã đưa ý kiến bạn feel the same way. If bạn did you'd be able to say it," he đã đưa ý kiến like it was the most obvious thing.
"You haven't exactly đã đưa ý kiến it yourself House," she shot right back.
House turned and limped to his bedroom. Cuddy followed him not letting the conversation come to an end there. She walked into the room to find him sitting on his bed. She went and stood in front of him.
"Come on House I want to hear bạn say it," she urged. Her voice rising with each word.
There was a long pause and she suddenly heard a mumble from House.
"What I didn't hear that," she said.
"I đã đưa ý kiến I tình yêu you," he shouted.
She looked at him shocked. She didn't think he would actually say it, but she felt like she was floating on air after hearing him say it. Quickly she walked towards him and put her hands on his cheeks. She dipped her head preparing to Kiss him, but was stunned when he suddenly pushed her away and stood up.
"Your with Lucas, Cuddy. I'm with Lydia. bạn can't be with me. We both know bạn would be miserable with me."
"You don't know that House. I want to be with you, but I need some sort of stability. I tình yêu bạn too," she added the last part silently.
"I can't give bạn stability. I'm an ex-drug addict and I'm miserable."
"House bạn do give me stability. As shocking as that is for bạn to believe, bạn do. I go to work knowing your gonna cause some sort of trouble, I know to set aside money for lawyer costs from law Luật sư đấu trí against you. And exactly your an 'ex'-drug addict. bạn aren't anymore and maybe bạn wouldn't be as miserable if bạn had someone there constantly."
"Cuddy, god knows I want to be with you, but I can't. I'm not gonna stop bạn from getting the life bạn deserve and the life bạn deserve isn't with me," he đã đưa ý kiến sadly as he walked away from her.
"House please, don't run away from me," she pleaded.
"I'm not running Cuddy. I'm just being rational. I won't subject bạn to a life miserable with me."
"It's hard to be miserable when your with the one bạn tình yêu House," she stated honestly.
"Which is exactly why your happy with Lucas."
"I tình yêu Lucas, but not like I tình yêu you," she added the last part quickly as House's face fell from her statement.
"But bạn still tình yêu him. Go Cuddy. Be happy," House đã đưa ý kiến meeting her eyes.
"I'm trying House, right now," she said. She wasn't willing to let things go for some reason. She had been so convinced before that House was the worst things possible and now she refused to let him go.
House on the other hand wanted things to just go away. He was trying to get away from her and he was failing miserably. The truth was he didn't want to let her go, but he didn't want to make her so unhappy after he had seen her so happy with Lucas. They were both getting frustrated knowing they weren't on the same page. They weren't even in the same library.
"Cuddy please let this go," House begged. House never begged and that shocked Cuddy, but she was holding her ground.
She walked up to him and planted her lips on his. He didn't respond at first, but he quickly gave in. Cuddy pulled away reluctantly and looked at him.
"Now tell me bạn didn't feel anything and that bạn want me to leave," she said.
House just looked at her. He couldn't think straight anymore. Any rational thoughts he had went out the window with that one kiss. Instead of answering he lowered his lips to hers again. Looks like she wasn't leaving after all. At least not tonight.
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"Let's start over,
I'll try to do it right this time around.
It's not over,
Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground.
This tình yêu is killin me,
But your the only one.
It's not over."
'It's Not Over' - Daughtry
Probably my last update till wednesday. Let me know what bạn think and if I should continue :)
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The door to Cuddy's office burst open. She looked up expecting to see House, but instead she saw Wilson.
"Oh what a wonderful costume House," she đã đưa ý kiến tiredly.
"Sorry. I need to talk to you."
"I'm guessing this has nothing to do with the hospital so that means it has to be about House. What did he do now?"
"Nothing surprisingly. Well it's thêm like what he said," Wilson đã đưa ý kiến studying her.
"Oh and what did he say," she wasn't all too curious, but it had to be somewhat important if Wilson came to talk to her.
"He told me about your conversation around lunch time.."
"And that's why your here," she đã đưa ý kiến interrupting him.
"No it's thêm like what he đã đưa ý kiến after he told me." Wilson could tell she was a little thêm interested now.
"Care to share what that is," she asked suddenly curious.
"He đã đưa ý kiến he walked out when bạn asked if he wanted things to stay the way they are between bạn two. I asked him why he walked out and he đã đưa ý kiến that bạn were happy, bạn deserve to be happy, and he didn't want to mess up your dreams of a perfect family." Wilson stopped as he noticed tears began to appear in her eyes.
"I'm fine go on," she đã đưa ý kiến after a few minutes.
"He also đã đưa ý kiến that he didn't fit into that picture and he was happy as long as bạn were. He also đã đưa ý kiến he could never make bạn happy." Wilson stopped again as he saw that Cuddy had a fresh batch of tears running down her face.
"Are bạn alright," Wilson asked unsure.
"I'm fine. Please Wilson, tell me your serious and your not lying?"
"I'm completely serious. He đã đưa ý kiến that bạn were over him and he wants to be with you, but he can't."
Cuddy silently nodded. Wilson was beginning to worry about her until she spoke up.
"I'm not over House. But bạn already know that. Feelings like that don't just dissapear. Why does he think he can't be with me?"
"Because your with Lucas and bạn seem happy with him," answered Wilson surely.
"I need to talk to him," she đã đưa ý kiến determined.
"I agree," đã đưa ý kiến Wilson with a smile.
Cuddy walked out of her office quickly in tìm kiếm of House.
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House left work early and he was sitting at trang chủ trying to focus on the tv. He was confused and he couldn't get his mind off Cuddy. He was beginning to thingk he made the wrong decision bởi giving up so easily. Maybe I should have at least tried to fight for her, he thought. His thoughts were interrupted bởi a knock on the door. He knew that knock. She had a distinct knock so he could always tell it was her. He got up and opened the door and looked at her questioningly.
"What's up?"
"Wilson told me about your conversation."
House's face quickly turned to one of fear. He couldn't believe Wilson had told her. Now he had no idea what was going to happen hoặc how bad he had messed up.
"Don't worry your not in trouble," she đã đưa ý kiến as she saw the panic in his eyes.
Relief quickly flooded his face, but it was again replaced with fear.
"Ok so what do bạn want," he asked curiously.
"I just wanted to say thank you. I had no idea bạn actually cared that much about me to put your happiness behind mine."
"Um...your welcome?" House had honestly no clue how to respond to that.
"I'm not finished. I also wanted to tell bạn I care about bạn just as much. And I feel the same way about bạn as bạn do me." She had no idea where this burst of courage came from, but it was working to her advantage.
"And how do I feel about bạn Cuddy," he asked wanting to hear her say it.
"...I...maybe I should go," she đã đưa ý kiến suddenly all courage gone.
House grabbed her arm and pulled her into his apartment when she was about to leave.
"Let's try this again Cuddy. How do I feel about you?"
She suddenly felt trapped and she wanted out. She could feel herself switch into defensive mode.
"I don't know House. How do bạn feel about me," she asked suddenly turning the tables.
"You know how I feel about you, bạn just won't admit it since bạn đã đưa ý kiến bạn feel the same way. If bạn did you'd be able to say it," he đã đưa ý kiến like it was the most obvious thing.
"You haven't exactly đã đưa ý kiến it yourself House," she shot right back.
House turned and limped to his bedroom. Cuddy followed him not letting the conversation come to an end there. She walked into the room to find him sitting on his bed. She went and stood in front of him.
"Come on House I want to hear bạn say it," she urged. Her voice rising with each word.
There was a long pause and she suddenly heard a mumble from House.
"What I didn't hear that," she said.
"I đã đưa ý kiến I tình yêu you," he shouted.
She looked at him shocked. She didn't think he would actually say it, but she felt like she was floating on air after hearing him say it. Quickly she walked towards him and put her hands on his cheeks. She dipped her head preparing to Kiss him, but was stunned when he suddenly pushed her away and stood up.
"Your with Lucas, Cuddy. I'm with Lydia. bạn can't be with me. We both know bạn would be miserable with me."
"You don't know that House. I want to be with you, but I need some sort of stability. I tình yêu bạn too," she added the last part silently.
"I can't give bạn stability. I'm an ex-drug addict and I'm miserable."
"House bạn do give me stability. As shocking as that is for bạn to believe, bạn do. I go to work knowing your gonna cause some sort of trouble, I know to set aside money for lawyer costs from law Luật sư đấu trí against you. And exactly your an 'ex'-drug addict. bạn aren't anymore and maybe bạn wouldn't be as miserable if bạn had someone there constantly."
"Cuddy, god knows I want to be with you, but I can't. I'm not gonna stop bạn from getting the life bạn deserve and the life bạn deserve isn't with me," he đã đưa ý kiến sadly as he walked away from her.
"House please, don't run away from me," she pleaded.
"I'm not running Cuddy. I'm just being rational. I won't subject bạn to a life miserable with me."
"It's hard to be miserable when your with the one bạn tình yêu House," she stated honestly.
"Which is exactly why your happy with Lucas."
"I tình yêu Lucas, but not like I tình yêu you," she added the last part quickly as House's face fell from her statement.
"But bạn still tình yêu him. Go Cuddy. Be happy," House đã đưa ý kiến meeting her eyes.
"I'm trying House, right now," she said. She wasn't willing to let things go for some reason. She had been so convinced before that House was the worst things possible and now she refused to let him go.
House on the other hand wanted things to just go away. He was trying to get away from her and he was failing miserably. The truth was he didn't want to let her go, but he didn't want to make her so unhappy after he had seen her so happy with Lucas. They were both getting frustrated knowing they weren't on the same page. They weren't even in the same library.
"Cuddy please let this go," House begged. House never begged and that shocked Cuddy, but she was holding her ground.
She walked up to him and planted her lips on his. He didn't respond at first, but he quickly gave in. Cuddy pulled away reluctantly and looked at him.
"Now tell me bạn didn't feel anything and that bạn want me to leave," she said.
House just looked at her. He couldn't think straight anymore. Any rational thoughts he had went out the window with that one kiss. Instead of answering he lowered his lips to hers again. Looks like she wasn't leaving after all. At least not tonight.
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"Let's start over,
I'll try to do it right this time around.
It's not over,
Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground.
This tình yêu is killin me,
But your the only one.
It's not over."
'It's Not Over' - Daughtry