I love you <3
Last chapter:
“No buts Julian. This is it. This is the movie of your career, the movie that will make my firm the most được ưa chuộng in Hollywood. So it’s either the girl, hoặc the end of your career,” Paul đã đưa ý kiến firmly as he walked towards him, “You have one week to make your decision. These are your plane tickets. I hope to see bạn hoặc your resignation letter in my office in LA tiếp theo Monday.”
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The tiếp theo evening, Brooke was getting ready for a ngày with Julian. She was exceptionally excited about this ngày because Julian asked her to dress up saying that he had a surprise for her, and Brooke Davis loved surprises.
“Can bạn take off that sickeningly bright smile of your face? It makes me want to puke,” Sam đã đưa ý kiến rolling her eyes as she walked in her foster mother’s room and plopped messily of her neatly made bed.
“Sam I just made that,” Brooke groaned, turning to glare at the smirking teenager.
“See, now that’s the expression I like,” Sam đã đưa ý kiến approvingly pointing at her scowling face.
“Very funny Sam,” Brooke đã đưa ý kiến sarcastically, “You’re just jealous.”
“Jealous? Of what? bạn looking like an idiot? I don’t think so,” Sam đã đưa ý kiến stubbornly.
“You amuse me Sam, bạn really do. One một phút you’re all supportive of Julian and me, and the tiếp theo bạn have a problem with me smiling because I am happy with Julian. bạn have to make up your mind,” Brooke đã đưa ý kiến teasingly.
“Oh no, I don’t have any problem with bạn and Julian. I just have a problem with your chirpy face every morning. I don’t think I have ever seen anyone smile so much,” Sam shot back grinning.
“I know I look like a teenager with a crush, but I can’t help it. Julian makes me really happy, Sam. I haven’t felt like this in, well ever since I graduated high school,” Brooke đã đưa ý kiến seriously.
“So when are bạn going to tell him those three life changing words,” Sam asked curiously.
“I’m pregnant is just two words. Well technically it’s three but—”
“I mean when are bạn going to tell him that you’re in tình yêu with him?” Sam asked rolling her eyes, “But I guess the other one would be a good câu hỏi too.”
“I don’t know,” Brooke đã đưa ý kiến hesitantly, “I am just going to wait for the right time, I guess.”
“When’s the right time going to be? When bạn give birth to his kid?” Sam asked sarcastically.
“Sam—”
“What I am serious! You’re probably the world’s biggest procrastinator especially when it comes to feelings and stuff,” Sam đã đưa ý kiến bored, “Look how long it took bạn to actually agree to ngày Julian.”
“That was different okay,” Brooke đã đưa ý kiến dismissively.
“Well duh. Last time it was about sex. This time it’s about bạn being pregnant with little Julian. Very different,” Sam đã đưa ý kiến enjoying pushing Brooke’s buttons.
“Sam must bạn be so blunt?” Brooke asked shaking her head.
“Hey, I just want to find out if you’re actually going to come out clean to him hoặc if I am going to have to spoon feed him the information. And that might get ugly,” Sam đã đưa ý kiến innocently.
“Samantha Walker, don’t bạn dare. You’re not going to tell him anything. Promise me that bạn won’t a breath a word to him about this pregnancy hoặc my feels,” Brooke đã đưa ý kiến panicked.
“Only if bạn promise me that bạn will actually make an effort to tell him at least one of your big news tonight,” Sam proposed.
“Fine, fine, I’ll try, I promise,” Brooke relented, “But if it turns out to be a disaster then I’m blaming you.”
“Everything’s going to fine Brooke,” Sam assured, and Brooke couldn’t help but believe her.
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10 phút later while Brooke was putting on her earrings, the doorbell rang indicating Julian’s arrival.
“Sam could bạn get that,” Brooke shouted.
“Already there,” Sam shouted back as Brooke heard her unlocking the door.
“Hey Samson,” she heard Julian’s voice greet her foster daughter, and just his voice was enough to put a smile on her face. God, she was in too deep for this guy.
“Hey Julian, wassup?” Sam asked as she stepped back to let him in.
“The usual,” Julian answered, closing the door behind him, “Where’s Brooke?”
“She’s getting ready,” Sam answered, “She should be here in a couple of minutes.”
“Ok, cool,” Julian đã đưa ý kiến nervously, raking his hands through his hair.
“Are bạn okay, Julian?” Sam asked concerned.
“Yeah, I am fine. Why?” Julian asked trying to put a smile on his face.
“Nothing, bạn just seem distracted,” Sam noted.
“Oh it’s nothing. Just a little nervous,” Julian lied, trying to laugh it off. Sam obviously didn’t buy it, because seriously Julian has never been nervous before a date, but thankfully she didn’t ask anymore questions.
“Hey,” Brooke greeted cheerfully as she appeared at the hàng đầu, đầu trang of the stairs.
“Hey,” Julian replied, turning his gaze towards the stairs, and the một giây his eyes met Brooke’s, a real smile appeared on his face. This was the affect Brooke Davis had on him. One look, and he was grinning like an idiot. And the fact that her face lit up every time she saw him, it made him feel like the most accomplished man in this world. God, he was in too deep. But he knew that tonight was the last time her face would light up because of him. He knew that tonight was the last time she would laugh with him, Kiss him, last time she would talk to him. After tonight, he would be nothing short of a monster to her. Another addition to the Mất tích danh sách of men that had already broken her heart. His tim, trái tim broke into a million pieces at that thought, but he knew there was no other choice. He had to end it with her, no matter how much it killed him to do it.
He was brought out of his reverie when he felt Brooke’s small hand caressing his face as she called his name trying to get his attention.
“Huh? What?” Julian asked stupidly.
“Where have bạn been? I’ve called your name 3 times. I know I look pretty, but I didn’t know I looked good enough to drive bạn speechless,” Brooke đã đưa ý kiến teasingly, pulling her hand away from his face.
“I am sorry. I was just thinking,” Julian đã đưa ý kiến apologetically as he leaned down and placed a soft Kiss on her lips.
“It’s okay,” Brooke đã đưa ý kiến a little breathlessly as they pulled up for air.
“So bạn ready to go?” Julian asked placing his hand on the small of her back.
“Yeah, let’s go,” Brooke agreed, then turning around she called out, “Sam keep all the door locked, and—”
“Call bạn if there’s any sort of emergency and absolutely no parties. Yeah I know. bạn say that before every date, it has kinda sunk in bởi now,” Sam finished rolling her eyes as she poked her head out of her bedroom, smiling mischievously at her foster mother.
“Well bạn can’t blame me for being cautious can you?” Brooke asked pouting as Julian laughed.
“I guess not. But have a good time bạn guys,” Sam đã đưa ý kiến smiling.
“We will,” Brooke đã đưa ý kiến confidently as she and Julian made their way out of the door.
As Sam heard the door close shut behind the couple, she released a sigh. She knew there was something off with Julian tonight. She had never seen him act so oddly, and he was never nervous. Wondering what was wrong with him, Sam made her way to the couch, praying with all her might that Julian’s odd behavior was only temporary, because if it was anything other than that, well she didn’t even want to think about the possibility.
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“Wow Julian, I can’t believe bạn got us reservations to one of the most elite restaurant in cây Hill,” Brooke đã đưa ý kiến impressed as she walked into cây đồi núi, hill miếng bò hầm, bít tết House, “Don’t bạn need to make reservations 5 months in advance to get in here hoặc something?”
“Normal people do,” Julian acknowledged as he led her to the reception area.
“Table for 2 under the name Baker,” Julian đã đưa ý kiến to the manager.
“Right this way, sir,” the manager đã đưa ý kiến once he had consulted his reservation list.
“So are bạn saying that we’re not normal people,” Brooke whispered resuming their trước đó conversation.
“No, we’re just special,” Julian đã đưa ý kiến smirking as they approached their table.
“Please take a seat,” the manager đã đưa ý kiến courteously, “A waiter will be with bạn shortly.”
“Julian you’re not giving me straight answers, and I don’t appreciate that,” Brooke đã đưa ý kiến pouting once she had taken her seat.
“Fine, fine. I know one of the managers here. That’s why I was able to get a reservation at such a short period,” Julian admitted.
“Ahh so the truth finally comes out,” Brooke đã đưa ý kiến grinning, “But I’ve got to say, this is amazing. And they even seated us in a private seating area.”
“Actually I asked them to ghế, chỗ ngồi us in a private area,” Julian đã đưa ý kiến smiling mischievously.
“Julian, bạn didn’t need to do that,” Brooke gasped out, “Private seating is so expensive.”
“I wanted this night to be special, Brooke,” Julian đã đưa ý kiến sincerely.
“Just being with bạn is special enough Julian. bạn didn’t need to do all this,” Brooke whispered her face glowing in the soft candle light.
“You look beautiful,” Julian đã đưa ý kiến softly as he grasped her hand in the middle of the table.
“You look pretty dashing yourself Mr. Baker,” Brooke complimented, loving the feeling of his thumb stroking the soft skin of her hand.
Julian looked tempted to lean over to Kiss her, but they were interrupted bởi the arrival of their waiter.
“Good evening,” the waiter greeted pleasantly, “Do bạn guys know what bạn will be ordering this evening?”
“I’ll have prime rib with mashed potatoes and nước sốt, nước thịt, gravy with a small helping of salad,” Julian ordered.
“And I’ll just have grilled chicken with salad,” Brooke đã đưa ý kiến politely.
“Any appetizers hoặc drinks?” the waiter questioned.
“Can we just have a serving of garlic bánh mỳ, bánh mì sticks?” Julian asked as the waiter jotted down the order, “And I’ll take red wine with the dinner.”
“And bạn maam?” the waiter asked turning towards Brooke.
“I’ll just have nước chanh thank you,” Brooke said, avoiding Julian’s questioning gaze.
“Will that be it?” the waiter asked.
“Yes, thank you,” Julian đã đưa ý kiến nodding to the waiter.
“Was I hallucinating of did bạn just order lemonade?” Julian asked surprised once the waiter had left.
“What’s so shocking about me ordering lemonade?” Brooke asked defensively.
“Nothing, except for the fact that you’re the biggest wine drinker I know. And from all the first class wines available on the menu, bạn chose lemonade?” Julian asked quirking his eyebrows.
“Maybe I just didn’t feel like drinking wine today,” Brooke đã đưa ý kiến dismissively, “That’s not a crime is it.”
“Fine, fine, no need to be so touchy,” Julian đã đưa ý kiến raising his hand in defeat, “You drink whatever bạn want to, but if it’s about wanting to save my money, don’t worry about it. I have thêm than enough.”
“Trust me Julian, this has nothing to do with saving bạn money. I promise,” Brooke đã đưa ý kiến in a tone bordering on finality and Julian knew the topic was over.
As Brooke looked at Julian, she knew this was the perfect time to tell him about the pregnancy, but she didn’t want to ruin the perfect atmosphere. She still didn’t know how he would react to the news, and she didn’t want to take any chances. At least that’s what she kept telling herself.
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“That was absolutely amazing Julian,” Brooke đã đưa ý kiến sighing contently on their way back.
“I am glad bạn liked it,” Julian đã đưa ý kiến sincerely sending her a smile that sent her tim, trái tim fluttering.
“You know what would make this night absolutely perfect?” Brooke asked contemplatively.
“No, but I have a feeling that bạn are going to tell me,” Julian teased.
“A walk at the beach,” Brooke đã đưa ý kiến dreamily.
“Brooke it’s about 50 degrees outside, you’re wearing a dress and not to mention your 5 inch heels, and bạn want to go walk on the beach?” Julian asked incredulously.
“I am just saying, doesn’t mean we have to do it,” Brooke đã đưa ý kiến shrugging.
“Okay,” Julian đã đưa ý kiến training his eyes back on the road.
However 5 phút later, he turned onto a road going the complete opposite direction to her house.
“Julian, I don’t know if you’ve forgotten, but my house is on the opposite side,” Brooke đã đưa ý kiến uncertainly.
“I know,” Julian đã đưa ý kiến shrugging nonchalantly.
“Then why are we going this way?” Brooke asked incredulously.
“Because we’ve had a sudden change of plans,” Julian đã đưa ý kiến vaguely.
“Change of plan? Where are we going now?” Brooke asked curiously.
“To the docks,” Julian đã đưa ý kiến simply, and from the corner of his eyes, he watched as Brooke’s face went from being curious to one radiating excitement.
“To the docks? But what about the cold weather and my 5 inch heels?” Brooke asked mockingly as her eyes glittered in happiness.
“Guess I’ll just have to take a risk,” Julian đã đưa ý kiến smiling, “Anything to get bạn your perfect date.”
“Aww aren’t bạn a sweetheart,” Brooke đã đưa ý kiến affectionately as she leaned over and gave him a quick peck on the cheek.
“Please don’t use the word sweetheart when you’re describing me. It’s bad for my image,” Julian đã đưa ý kiến smirking.
“Well then should I call bạn mathlete? Is that better for your image?” Brooke asked teasingly.
“Touché,” Julian đã đưa ý kiến grinning, knowing that Brooke had won that argument.
“Plus, I am your girlfriend. I can call bạn whatever I want and bạn can’t complain about it,” Brooke đã đưa ý kiến smugly.
“I guess, but only because you’re so cute,” Julian replied grinning as he parked the car in the empty parking lot tiếp theo to the docks.
“Shall we my lady?” Julian asked putting up a British accent as he opened the passenger side’s door to help Brooke out.
“We shall kind sir,” Brooke đã đưa ý kiến placing her hand in his outstretched one, her eyes twinkling with mirth.
“You sure you’re going to be fine in the heels?” Julian asked caringly.
“I’ll be fine. And anyways, I have bạn to lean on don’t I?” Brooke asked seriously, her eyes finding his as he found it hard to look away from her intense gaze.
“I’m here,” Julian promised, his insides filling up with guilt and pain as he realized that this was probably his last happy giờ with Brooke.
“Good,” Brooke đã đưa ý kiến as she leaned up and softly placed her lips against his as he instinctively pulled her closer to his body.
“You’re amazing, bạn know that right?” Julian asked softly once they had come up for air.
“So I’ve heard. But it means the most when bạn say it,” Brooke đã đưa ý kiến gently stroking his face, and Julian almost Mất tích it right there. He knew he was leading her on, he knew that he was about to hurt her. He knew that he should have ended this when he first walked into her door. But he hadn’t listened to the rational side of his brain. And as a result, after tonight, it would be much harder for the both of them to let go.
“Hey what happened? bạn dozed off again,” Brooke đã đưa ý kiến concerned as Julian came back to reality.
“I was just thinking how beautiful bạn look today. And how bạn deserve so much better than me,” Julian đã đưa ý kiến honestly as they started walking along the shore.
“You’re good enough Julian. You’re thêm than good enough for me. And it’s about time bạn realize that,” Brooke đã đưa ý kiến seriously as she laid her head on his shoulder, his arm supporting both of their weights.
“You know in the book, when Lucas described bạn as the girl who would change the world someday, I didn’t know what to make out of it. But now I understand what he meant bởi that. bạn have changed my world Brooke Davis,” Julian admitted softly looking down at his girlfriend’s smiling face on his shoulder.
“You changed my life too Julian Baker. Before you, I had được trao up hope of being happy again, and then bạn happened and my life took a whole new turn. bạn gave me something to look phía trước, chuyển tiếp to Julian. bạn gave me my life back and that makes bạn the most important person in my life right now. Well first Sam and then you, but bạn know what I mean,” Brooke đã đưa ý kiến smiling as Julian laughed.
“I think I am okay with taking một giây place to Sam. Had it been anyone other than her, I wouldn’t have been so accommodating, but Sam’s okay,” Julian đã đưa ý kiến giving Brooke his infamous grin as he pulled her closer to him.
“Those words and that grin combined together just make me lo—like bạn even more,” Brooke đã đưa ý kiến catching herself just in time.
Julian nearly felt his tim, trái tim stop at her words. Even though the transition had been fast, he had caught her stumble, and as he looked at the woman tiếp theo to him, he couldn’t help but think, was she about to say that she loved him?
“Are bạn cold?” Julian asked as she felt Brooke shudder against his chest.
“A little,” Brooke đã đưa ý kiến sheepishly.
“Here take this,” Julian đã đưa ý kiến immediately taking off his áo khoác as carefully draping it around her shoulder.
“What about you? Aren’t bạn going to be cold?” Brooke asked half heartedly, loving the warmth Julian’s áo khoác was providing her cold body.
“Nah, I’ll be fine. I’ve got bạn to warm me up don’t I?” Julian asked grinning as he once again draped his arms around Brooke’s waist pulling her as close to his body as possible.
But before he could take another step forward, Brooke suddenly turned him towards her, and Julian diễn xuất on instinct, leaned down and quickly placed his lips tenderly on hers. It didn’t take her long to respond, and very soon they were both fully making out in the middle of the bờ biển, bãi biển completely Mất tích into each other and their feelings.
“Wow that was amazing,” Brooke gasped out as Julian finally released her.
“Does that surprise you?” Julian asked his breathing slightly uneven.
“No, not really,” Brooke admitted as she brought his face down to meet hers for yet another breathtaking kiss.
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After ½ an giờ of an intense make out session, Brooke and Julian finally decided to return home.
As Brooke unlocked the front door, she couldn’t keep a grin from appearing on her face as she remembered the past 30 minutes.
“You want to come in?” Brooke asked as she stepped in her foyer.
“Yeah sure,” Julian đã đưa ý kiến hesitantly. He knew that this was it. He was going to come clean to her right now. This was probably the last time he would see her smiling like that towards him. That thought was enough to break his tim, trái tim into two.
“Brooke,” Julian called out as he grasped her wrist and turned her towards him.
“Yeah,” Brooke asked pressed tightly against his chest.
“I-I want—oh fuck this—” Julian growled out as he crashed his mouth against her surprised one. He knew he was diễn xuất like a coward, trying to prolong the moment for as long as he could. But he had to Kiss her one last time, Kiss her with so much intensity and power that it would forever be embedded in his memory, because he knew that he would never feel for another woman what he felt for Brooke.
“I tình yêu you,” Brooke breathed out once he had pulled away. Her eyes were closed and her lips swollen, and for a một giây Julian thought he was hallucinating.
“What?” Julian gasped out.
“I tình yêu you,” Brooke đã đưa ý kiến louder as she opened her eyes to stare into his stunned ones, “I tình yêu you.”
“No, Brooke, bạn can’t,” Julian đã đưa ý kiến panicked. This wasn’t happening. This couldn’t be happening. She couldn’t tell him that she loved him a một phút before he was about to break up with her.
“Why can’t I, Julian?” Brooke asked confused, “I know that this might come as a shock to you, and I don’t expect bạn to say it back, but I do tình yêu you.”
“Don’t say that Brooke. Don’t say that,” Julian đã đưa ý kiến harshly.
“Why are bạn diễn xuất like this Julian? What’s so horrible about me loving you?” Brooke asked hurt.
“It’s horrible because you’re going to be biting back your words in about one minute,” Julian đã đưa ý kiến frantically.
“What?” Brooke asked even thêm confused now, “Why would I be biting back my words. It had taken me long enough to get the courage to tell bạn this, I don’t think I’ll be biting it back.”
“You will. Once bạn hear what I’ve got to say, bạn will be,” Julian đã đưa ý kiến sadly, his eyes filled with so much pain and misery that Brooke felt her tim, trái tim clench in her chest. Something was very wrong.
“Julian what are bạn talking about? The only situation I would be taking my words back would be if you—Oh my god, you’re breaking up with me!” Brooke gasped out as realization dawned on her face.
“Brooke I—”
“You’re breaking up with me? You’re breaking up with me?” Brooke asked stunned. How had they gone from ending their perfect ngày to him breaking up with her?
“I am leaving,” Julian admitted softly.
“What do bạn mean you’re leaving?” Brooke asked trying to make some sense of the situation.
“I am going back to LA,” Julian clarified.
“What? bạn can’t do that. What about Luke’s movie?” Brooke asked angrily.
“The movie’s been cancelled Brooke. The director quit, and there’s no way we’d make the deadline with a new one. So the movie’s off. And I’ve got an amazing offer to produce the film adaptation of Gossip Girl in Hollywood--”
“And bạn chose Gossip Girl,” Brooke finished for him, “When are bạn leaving?”
“6 days,” Julian đã đưa ý kiến quietly.
“So tonight, it was all a hoax? bạn were leading me on the whole time?” Brooke asked incredulously.
“Brooke I would never—”
“But bạn did, Julian. bạn knew bạn were going to be leaving the whole time, and yet bạn didn’t say a word to me. I can’t believe bạn of all people would do that to me. And to think that I actually thought that bạn were the one for me,” Brooke đã đưa ý kiến disgustedly as tears started falling from her eyes.
“Brooke, I am so sorry,” Julian đã đưa ý kiến softly.
“And to think that I told bạn I loved you? How stupid am I? After everything that had happened to me, I can’t believe I actually believed that maybe for once everything would be okay. Well I guess your job’s done. bạn made Brooke Davis fall in tình yêu and ended up breaking her tim, trái tim worse than any other man had done before. bạn should be proud of yourself, because seriously this is a new low for me,” Brooke choked out as tears blurred her vision.
“I didn’t mean to hurt bạn Brooke,” Julian đã đưa ý kiến sadly knowing that he had done the one thing he had promised never to do. He had made Brooke Davis a broken woman again.
“You know what the sad part is Julian? The fact that my perfect ngày was nothing but a bunch of lies. I—”
“Tonight was not a lie Brooke. I meant everything I đã đưa ý kiến to you. Tonight was not a lie,” Julian đã đưa ý kiến desperately.
“But it seems like it. I can’t believe anything you’ve ever told me. I can’t believe I gave my tim, trái tim to someone who didn’t even like me enough to be honest with me,” Brooke đã đưa ý kiến bitterly.
“I know I should have told bạn in the beginning Brooke—”
“Then why didn’t you? Huh? Why didn’t bạn end it before taking me on that ngày that just made me fall deeper for you? Why Julian? Was this your idea of some sick joke?” Brooke asked hysterically.
“I never wanted to hurt bạn Brooke. Trust me that was the last thing I wanted,” Julian whispered, not knowing how to answer the rest of her các câu hỏi when he still wasn’t sure why he hadn’t told her the truth in the very beginning.
“Just leave Julian,” Brooke đã đưa ý kiến tearfully.
“Brooke—”
“Just leave dammit. Get out of my house and my life. I don’t want to see your face again,” Brooke shouted her mind numb bởi the shock and pain of everything that had happened in the past 10 minutes.
And Julian knew that this was it. Their relationship was now officially over. Lowering his head in defeat, he just nodded quietly and turning on his heels, he walked out of the door and out of Brooke’s life.
When Brooke heard the door shut behind him, she let go off the đi văng as her knees buckled beneath her and she fell to the floor tears falling like waterfalls from her eyes. Julian was gone, and as her hands found her flat abdomen, she realized bitterly that he wasn’t just gone for her life. He was gone from their life.
