Black out...

So at the moment I'm sitting at my computer after my boyfriend just litterally dragged my me into the house from another fall out into the snow. I got mad then madder then completely crazy and went outside. He was smart and didn't follow. So my head start pounding and then I starting screaming into the dark then smal black dots took out the stars and I just got thêm mad at myself. I got mad at the way I am, the way I think, the way the stupid voices won't shut up...and then I blacked out comp;etely. I don't think this is very healthy to be like this, blacking out and getting mad at myself but I can't stop....